My story
My life has not been easy. A hard childhood, lack of parental love and bulling. Yeah it was hard but I lived through it. Even as a child I was different; never in trouble, never in any mischief. Always as if I was an adult even in child hood. I was the first born and the first granddaughter as well and so the center of attention, but when I turned 11 months my brother was born and being a working woman, my mother couldn’t take care of both of us, so I was left at my grandparents’ home.
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Being separated from my mother I was heartbroken but of course time healed it and I forgot her now my grandmother was my mother, but when I turned four my mother came and took me back. Staying with someone for so long and then being separated was hard. Even harder then before. I lost my health, confidence and appetite. To make things worse our paternal grandparents, aunts and uncles were living with us as well and they were not at all kind with kids, beating my brother and little sister for even a little mischief. They were rude to my mother as well and it broke me to see fighting in the house. All the nights when my mother through I was asleep when I was silently crying in my pillow.
They left us alone when I was almost eight. We stayed alone since our parents had to work no nursery or a baby sitter just a eight years old little girl taking care of her siblings; playing with them, looking to see if they don’t get into mischief. Thinking of ways to help her family. That’s what I used to be. I thought them, comforted them yet no one to comfort me, teach me, ask me if any one was making fun of me in class, no one to know that I had no friends. That’s my childhood.
There have been a lot of problems in my life, yet I endured in silence never telling any one that my own friend pulled my hair, bumped my head on the wall and punched me so hard it hurt for many days. If I hadn’t found books what meant have become of me. They taught me to love solitude, how to stand up for myself, control my anger issues, staying calm and how to succeed, and after books it seems life has finally got its color back. The problems are still there but now I have the courage to face them.
