13ambi Day.
Dear, Jung Sungchan.
It’s been a while since I saw you first time as MC Inkigayo. I might not know you earlier but I know you have a beautiful soul. Time flies so fast, I remember that time in 2021 (technically it was five years ago) you’re just a teenager who has a dream as idol but your company doesn’t give you unit to debut.
Unconsciously I keep waiting and watch you in Inkigayo every week and always waiting your update in social media, knowing that you update once a week (I didn’t subscribe your bubble back then) so it happened for more than a year. After that your contract as MC inkigayo ended. In 2022 you participate in a SMTOWN Concert, I watch your perform and it’s make me happy because I finally seeing you again as an idol. And than, I just waiting your youtube content (cause only from there I can watch you T_T).
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May 24, 2023 you’re confirmed left NCT. Honestly, I’m worried if you’ll give up on your dream, I’m worried that you’ll think your efforts all this time have been in vain, and I’m worried I won’t be able to see you again. But I heard rumor that your company will make a new boy group, so it relieves me. Again, unconsciously I admire you more than I imagined. Dunno why you become my emotional support (uh sounds weird).
At the end of the third quarter where it was the beginning of September 2023, you’re confirmed to debut as a Riize member. Don’t ask my feelings that time, cause it was make me happier. But in the documenter debut I saw you crying when they told you to debut again as new boy group, that’s very touching knowing how your journey back than :(. I’m very very proud of you dear. You didn’t give up earlier, you keep standing while waiting for certainy, and you still being nice.
Sayang, it’s your 25th birthday and your 6th year of debut (counted from debut as NCT member). Somehow I still remember when you were just a boy growing into yourself, so young with your puppy eyes, and still unaware of how far life would take you. And now look at you, you’re grown into the person you are today (proud). It’s so strange to realize how much you’ve grown while, somewhere in my mind, I still remember you just as you were back then :(
Lately I have someone that I admire so my spark to you is divided, but I always want to come back to you (uhh is this parasocial relathionship?). Maybe I’m not a loyal fan compared to other. I’ve never met you in real life (manifesting I can watch your concert), and sorry I just watch you on the screen. But deep in my heart I truly love you. I’m so happy now you’re recognised by many people. You’re loved by many people dear.
I dunno who you are when the cameras gone, but I hope the person I’ve come to know through all these years is truly you. I hope that somewhere beneath the lights in the stage, and everything the world gets to see, you’ve never had to lose the person you truly are. And as you keep growing I hope you find more way to shine, explore new paths, new dreams to chase, and new things that make your heart feel alive. Whereever life takes you, I hope you’re happy. So, happy 25th birthday, Dear ❤!!!
