200%
This happened back when I was in a pretty deep emotional slump. Somehow, I ended up getting a “wave frequency reading” done.
I was young at the time, so I didn’t really believe or disbelieve in it — I just thought, “I guess that’s a thing,” and went along with it.
The reading measured four essential categories. Three of them came back deeply negative.
I was told that if the last one was also negative, “you wouldn’t be able to stay alive in this state.” After that warning, they showed me the final category.
It was “Life Force.” The reading was +200%. In that moment, it all clicked.
When I think about it, I’ve been lucky, I’ve been saved just before death, I’ve been deceived but never completely fooled in the end.
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To others, my life probably looks like I’ve just been drifting along.
I hate walking behind other people, I’ve always wanted to do things my own way, and I’ve done plenty of reckless things.
That “anything” included not just fun things or things I liked, but also the feeling of “I don’t want to live anymore.”
And yet, I feel like I’ve managed to live within a relatively safe zone. Maybe that’s why I’ve always had this sense of “being protected by something,” and this baseless trust in simply being alive.
Maybe it’s because of this life force.
Resisting a life with 200% life force is probably pointless anyway.
So I might as well just let things be what they’ll be.
That’s how I feel now.
