Panicked
I don’t know if I can accomplish this new goal. Setting up a beat session from scratch even though I’ve never done one before. Not knowing if it’s going to be better to make bunch of stems from new tracks or to have loops ready to go. . . that shit cray-
After playing around with it. I’m going to stick to making loops from Otaku music. that’s Anime Tracks and Video game tracks that have my own flavor of drums. I need to get the music so that it’s jumping and bumping as best as I can so that I can have some instrumentals that I can rock to if need be. I think it’s going to be a fun time. It’s just the overwhelming nature of the preparation.
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As some of you know, I’m without a car, and I’ll be coming in from Dallas. The Convention is in Fort Worth, which is about an hour + away. So I have two options. Do I rent a car for that weekened or somehow try and get a hotel room. I like the idea of getting ahotel if I’m not too far away. that way I have a home base, and I have a central location that I can put my equipment back when I’m not using it. If I don’t have a hotel, then I’m stuck having that equipment with me at all times. And that shit is going to be heavy. I have to figure out the best way to do this. that’s why I’ masking for help.
I never ask for help. Like it’s super rare for me. That’s not a point of pride, that’s actually one of my faults. It’s something I get lambasted for all the time during work hours. I take time ruminating over problems that could have been solved instantly if I would just ask for assitance. Well that’s what I’m doing now. I don’t think I’ve ever wanted anything more in my life than this. More than anything. I just have a feeling that I have to leave it all on the table. That’s why I’m going to be asking for favors from everyone who I can think of. Everyone in the city who I’ve ever done anything for, I’m, going to see if they can help me with this project. I have no choice. I have to reach out to see if I can get into the industry I want.
I have dreams and visions of myself on stage. Music is at my fingertips. Lyrics are constant. Fun is inevitable. I see myself — DJ Anbu self, doing fun Otaku sets. It’s something that’s been in my head for now for a while and I think i’m going to have to make it a reality. . . or basically die trying.
- Z
