Time Freeze
And suddenly, time stopped within me while it passed for others. I don’t know if this is the life I have been praying for, but wherever it leads me, I hope it brings me to somewhere I truly belong to — somewhere I don’t feel invisible at all and where people can see my worth. I know I may sound dramatic (but I am), but deep inside, the girl who seems fine is the same girl who constantly battling her inner demons. So many things race through my mind, enough to make me fake it all day. Pretending that life hasn’t worn me down feels absurd, but as I slowly step into adulthood, I’m becoming accustomed to it — pretending and playing along.
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But what if these feelings are just slowly destroying me? I’m afraid they’ll consume me, just like they did during my second year. I don’t want to go through that same depressive episode again. I’m praying to escape it and to become a better version of myself. May life stop testing me so harshly, though I know things happen because God sees me as strong enough to endure. It makes sense now that life feels like a daydream — you only truly wake up when it’s all over.
