Fall’en October
Persephone has returned
to her Hades in the underworld.
Three hundred-plus days have passed,
just like a train crossing
from station to station.
This train journey showed me many things —
some I’ve already experienced,
others entirely new.
Some visuals made me cry,
some made me smile,
some made me giggle,
some made me laugh my heart out,
and some just left me numb.
October has always been a hell
since I was ten.
Another decade has passed,
and it never really changed.
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This year too, there’s no difference:
my system grows too tense,
my heart hammers against my chest —
suffocated, wanting to leave the cage
it’s been trapped in for twenty years.
Yet, this overthinking girl
cannot overlook the fact
that good things still happened
amidst all this chaos.
She is used to this tangled life,
as if her Lord is giving His favorite soldier
never-ending battles.
This girl is facing
all those arrows and spears
with a smile on her face
and the strength of her mind.
She decided not to lower her head —
not after everything she survived
in 2110.
This overthinking girl
has restored her faith in her Lord,
as He guides her steps onto new paths,
quiet and unlike before.
She is still praying and hoping
that all of this will finally rest,
and her next October will be
the one with peaceful nights.
