Until You Come Home
Some nights, the world feels unbearably loud. Not because of chaos around me, but because of the silence where you should be. I lie awake, staring at the ceiling, replaying memories I didn’t know would someday hurt this much.
I miss us — especially the parts that once felt ordinary. The silly arguments that ended in laughter. The fights that proved we cared enough to speak, to feel, to stay. I never thought I’d miss fighting with you, but now I understand — those moments meant you were still here.
Every night, before sleep finds me, I pray for you. Not just for your safety, but for strength — for both of us. Missing someone alive but far away is a different kind of heartbreak. You exist in the world, breathing, living… just not in my sight. And that distance feels heavier than words.
I miss your voice the most. The way it cut through my noise, the way it calmed my storms. Everything around me feels like static now — too many sounds, none of them you. I miss your face, the familiar expression that could make me smile even on my worst days. You had this quiet magic, an effortless grace that made everything feel okay.
Loving you has never been a choice. It’s a truth I can’t deny, even on the days it hurts the most. I know that when I finally see you again, I won’t be able to hold myself together. I’ll cry — not out of pain, but relief. Happy tears. Tears that wash away fear.
Because when you’re home with me, fear doesn’t exist. The nights feel safer. Sleep comes easier. My heart rests.
Until then, I carry you in my prayers, my memories, and every tear that falls quietly into the dark.
And this… this is what my heart sounds like when it speaks your name:
I want to cry every night,
because I miss the way we fight.
I pray for you every night,
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because I miss u not being in my sight.
I miss the sound of your voice,
That I am sick and tired of all this noise.
I miss the look upon your face,
That made me smile with such grace.
I love you so much I can’t deny,
For when I see you, I will break down and cry.
For when I cry these happy tears,
I won’t have fears.
You’ll be home safe with me,
That I’ll be able to sleep.. ❤️🌹❤️
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