Tarot for the times we are lost
I have been lost for years now. The charm of working as a schoolteacher wore out after almost six years. The job was never easy, and it took a toll on my emotional well-being. To do it for decades without breaking down — that’s an art.
This year, I decided not to go back to teaching in schools. To take a break and find what’s best for me right now. But you cannot take a break, can you? That’s how society wires you to think. Whether man or woman, if you don’t have a career or a passion, just living feels like a little pile of dung. Doubts creep in. Anxiety whispers that you’re missing out on career, finances, and accomplishments.
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Today, I couldn’t keep calm. I needed clarity. So I gave myself a tarot reading. I found a wonderful spread — the Compass Spread — on The Tarot Lady. If you want to know more about “how to do it”- click below. And if you want to see how I did it, read further ;)
The positions are as follows:
South: where you’re coming from
West: what is directly behind you
East: what lies in front of you
North: the next move to make
And here are my cards.
South: where you’re coming from- Eight of Cups
I know I have been dissatisfied with my career, and especially what I get out of it. Something feels missing. And now, I am trying to find that missing piece. The imagery of mountains and rocky terrain reminds me of yogis who left behind the comforts of the material world on the quest for self-realisation. The card validates where I am right now and where I am coming from.
West: what is directly behind you- Five of Wands
I would like to read this card as what’s being left behind- chaos, confusion, and going round in circles. I felt that what I desired and what I was getting were in conflict. My efforts were not materialising into what I wanted. And then came the politics — in a job with no compensation, zero benefits and no promotion.
East: what lies in front of you- Nine of Swords
Ahead of me lie worries, anxiety and fear that I will have to overcome. Well, I am trying to do exactly that. Ain’t I?
North: the next move is — Ace of Swords
This is the emergence of new ideas, fresh insights, clarity, willpower, and being decisive. Maybe the big break won’t come unless I consciously put in efforts. Research, study, learn, act, and clarity will follow.
I would like to see this entire reading as a confirmation: it’s not all doom and gloom, except in my mind. Need to make this mind a better slave, and not a master. And as I am writing this, I find this silver lining across the gloomy sky. For now, writing and Tarot are a good coping strategy! And if you liked what you read, and want tarot readings from me, then you can email me — samikchapradhan1@gmail.com
