Rebuilding — Day 7 & 8
This is a personal blog.
Day 7 — June 20, 2025–5:00 PM
Today was productive, not in the usual coding or textbook-reading sense , but in terms of clarity. I spent the day writing a blog post about what I’ve been learning from the machine learning textbook, and it helped me connect the dots far more than any lecture or passive reading ever did.
It’s funny how writing forces you to face your own understanding. As I wrote, new questions started forming, questions I never considered when I was just reading or watching a lecture. That process made me realize the power of articulating what you think you know.
Today also marks one full week since I began this journey to rebuild my life and career in the image I’ve envisioned. It’s not been perfect. Far from it. But I’m still here, writing and reflecting. That has to mean something.
I didn’t end the day strong, though. I didn’t return to the textbook in the evening like I planned. I let the momentum slip. Tomorrow, I need to keep it going, not because I feel like it, but because I said I would.
Day 8 — June 21, 2025
Today, I completely slacked off.
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I watched the cricket match from 9 AM to 2 PM, then slipped into a series binge for the rest of the day. I didn’t read. I didn’t code. I didn’t write. I didn’t touch the supply chain project.
Honestly, this is the kind of pattern I’ve been trying to break free from. Two days have gone by now with no progress on any of the goals I set back on Day 0. Goals that meant the world to me just a week ago.
But I’m glad I’m writing this. Writing helps me hold up a mirror to myself. It’s hard to deny where I’m at when the evidence is right here in black and white. And maybe this kind of honesty is what will eventually help me change
I can’t afford to let this spiral continue.
What’s Next?
Tomorrow, I have to read. No matter what.
Even if I do it half-asleep or in ten-minute chunks. I also need to get some coding in and focus on the supply chain work.
This isn’t about motivation anymore. This is about discipline. About self-respect. About doing the things I said I’d do.
