I SPENT ALL MY YEARS SAYING “I CANT DO IT”
Imagine moving to a new place having to change work, school and also friends. It feels wierd, awkward and scary. The thought of meeting new people and a new enviroment that you are not used to feels scary but to some people they are quite happy about it because they mabye had a good life where they used to be before and have confidence but not me.
Hi, im Precious and i have had low self esteem due to my insecurities which caused me to have the “i cant do it syndrome”.It started when my family and i moved to a new place and i had to change schools.I was six years old but i remember everything like my life depends on it.I can remember mabye due to the drama and truma but thank God i got through it.
I studied in a place where everyone seemed perfect and they thought they knew everything but when i transfered there i seemed different.My first day was usuall and calm but not to others.I was the only kid who would speak perfect english and a student who had an angelic voice.Some were jealouse and some praised me but i didn’t know what was coming.
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It started when i was in second grade,a guy in my class noticed something on me,something iv’e hated since i realized it was there.My forehead.That was the only thing that could make hate myself and think suicidal thoughts.The problem was that i had a crush a guy who akso mocked me and it hurt so bad.
This continued and as time passed, i started feeling shy and things just did’nt go well for me.I kept on passing my tests, i had a good voice and a passion in debating.I wanted to join the debate club but i thought i wasen’t good enought and i cant do it.This continued until i had no self esteem left.In seventh grade i figured that i had a passion in acting.
This was my breakthrough.After school or during my leisure time, i would watch a movie and try to act as a role the was intresting.With time, i got used to it and i started calling myself for meetings and talking to myself.I always sat down at the end of the day and say “Precious you are beautiful and anyone who mocked you today dosen’t deserve your time”.
I always felt proud after talking to myself.I also stoped saying that i cant do it.Actually it got boring overtime and i started trying new things like joining the debate club and also the journalist club. It was amazing.Sometimes all you need to do is face your fears be proud of your insecurities and have a talk with yourself and say i am the best and nothing can change that.
