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Negative Negativity
Obediently executing egos' master plan.
negative negativity
is righteous self-punishment
for example, feeling guilty
for being anxious or guilty
for suffering from fear
or whatever
the master plan of ego being
if I punish myself hard enough
then God would not have to
come and beat my ass
and so there we go
with the master plan of ego
obediently unreflectively
yet this got nothing to do with
investing again unreflectively
in trying to change negative negativity
into single negativity and thereby
create triple or quadruple levels of negativity
falling in the same trap again
but seeing what is happening
seeing what is the case
for ego-mind can only repeat what it does
violently trying to change its nature
because I just want to quickly save my ass
and to remain blind is adding up shit for the future
and become so irreversibly trapped in insane conflict
for some cheap quick temporary self-convincing safety feeling.
