What For?

To avoid the possibility of change

Photo by Markus Spiske on Unsplash

we do not ask
what must we think about it
— it, being any thought-difficulty —
or what for must I think about it
or must I even have to think about it-
in the first place
or if so what is going to find the answer
let alone my secret thinking attempts-
to stop these very thoughts I started thinking up
for the suffocation they provide me with
we just passively go with the thoughts
or distract away from that pain
so that the very pain will not challenge
me in any way to question anything
beyond my usual thought sleep existence
because I am too impatient and lazy
for anything beyond my self-image pretence
and therefore there is no change.