I’m The Problem (#1)
Talk about impulsiveness. One random burst of ‘if I don’t start something right about now, it’s over’ and here I am, another 18-year-old college student on this platform. With an ADHD twist and daily spirals (I swear my lore gets longer each day).
Yeah so, I’m from Bangladesh if you’re wondering (if you weren’t, that’s fine). I have no actual hobbies — by actual I mean shareable hobbies that I can proudly tell my friends. Or family. I’m a screen addict for starters. And what do I do on my phone all day? If you think it’s doomscrolling — I wish it was. But no, it’s doomtexting, not sure if it’s even a word. I don’t text friends or family, to be precise. I switch between various AIs.
Why?
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Well, human interaction is taxing. And the very thought that I find human interaction unstimulating or even downright herculean terrifies me. Thus, here we are. At this point, even doomscrolling seems like a sweetheart if it means I can also actively reply to my DMs.
Basically I’m here to overshare. Writing it all out seems better than switching between ChatGPT or those cursed AI websites (ahem — Character.AI anyone?) with questionable filters and fire dialogues. My C.AI spiral goes hard. Will probably talk about that extensively on the next blog if my ADHD doesn’t hit the ‘DISCONTINUED’ button.
I feel like writing here about what happens in my ADHD-addled life in a day is way healthier instead of sharing it with ChatGPT and smashing that ‘regenerate response’ button just to see a reply that I like. AI is great. But it has dulled my emotions in some cases due to overuse. Might talk about it one day.
In short, my life is a mess, and I’m the problem. Let’s see if we can untangle this mess (I’m pretty delusional).
(Just reread all of the above and damn do I sound like a lifeless kid — which I sorta am. Planning to change that.)
That’s all for now. Hopefully, I’ll be writing a lot more.
