Christmas, once upon a time

These days I have been missing Christmas time ‘till my heart truly aches, and by Christmas I mean the Christmas time from years ago; which I know those memories can never ever be recreated as things have changed a lot.

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These are what I miss the most:

• Those lights on Christmas tree that plays music with ear grating tinny sound, I used to dislike them but nowadays I’d do anything to wake up to that sound
• Christmas trees, Christmas decorations; I used to hate when they made me do it, oh how I wish I could just rewind the time and willingly help my Grandparents with those with no sulking.
• The hustle bustle of going shopping ingredients, snacks, and cookies at the local traditional market so early in the morning, I used to drive my grandma there and help her with the shopping bags
• Waking up Christmas morning seeing everyone is busy on the kitchen preparing food, I usually only helped a bit when they asked me, while I was waiting for a command, I watched Christmas movies/tv programs on tv instead

I have more but as I recall those memories, I just can’t stop crying. You know in that Doctor Who episode where Rose Tyler got trapped in another universe and she was banging the walls, crying, screaming “TAKE ME BACKKK”? That’s me, that’s legit what I’m feeling inside.