Inner Piece
I’ve lost my Inner Piece. Have you seen it?
Someone must have taken it in the night. Did you take it?
Or was it simply misplaced. Did I do it?
Did a part of me plan to take it?
Now it’s gone, and chaos rules my universe. Did you know that?
It goes in the back of my head. It keeps me safe. Do I need it?
Yes. Dread stirs up storms in an ocean of calm. Are the waves my enemy now?
But perhaps able hands took it so it could be fixed. Is that what it is?
It had some loose wiring. I just need to wait until they come back. Is that right?
Do I deserve it? It had a few bobs and bits out of place, but it’s mine.
Will it return? It must’ve gone somewhere, in a workshop far away.
Or was it thrown away? I will have to search high and low. Out there and inside.
Can I have it back please? Living was easier before someone took it.
Did you know I can always feel the fear? It starts in my stomach and moves to my head.
Do you care? You have yours! I can tell. Did you take mine?
Were you jealous of me? Were you scared of me?
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No. You weren’t. I haven’t accomplished much. Why would you be?
That’s why it’s gone. It was in the back of my head. Right back there. Remember?
It completed my mindset. It made things make sense. So what do I do?
Existing is the privilege. So why do I feel this way? Why does life exist? How can it? Why does it want to?
I have lost my Inner Piece, but I can find it again. Have you lost yours?
When will you? Will you ever? If you do, do you need help?
Writing this should be enough. These thoughts pour out of me and onto the page. Would you like to read?
Feats are temporary. Life endures. But what about my life?
What about yours? So you won’t live forever. Did you want to?
So you aren’t who you thought you wanted to be. Is that okay?
Love what you are, love what you fear. Is it that simple?
It might be, but you have to change to understand it. Can you do it?
Don’t wallow in isolation. Can you do that for me?
Connect with others. They’re just like you. Aren’t they?
Take pride that you can think these thoughts. Will you do that for me?
Can I do that for myself?
It’s been a while. I don’t know when I will return, but I hope you enjoy this. The last couple of days, I have been having an existential crisis. I want things to feel normal again, but that won’t happen if I think that way. I need to ride with the current, ask questions, connect with family. If any of you are struggling, please know that you are truly not alone. We’re in this together, even if we never meet each other. You’re not the only one who has these feelings. They’re strong, scary, but let’s overcome them. Together we can find our Inner Piece
