All changes, Uncertaintly
A week ago, I watched SORE: Istri dari Masa Depan. The movie was absolutely incredible presenting a brilliant story alongside stunning cinematography and immersive audio. It truly felt like a masterpiece.
But I’m not here to talk about the movie. I want to talk about the soundtrack. TDW is a maestro, no doubt. but Pancarona give different energic with my condition
last night i feel blue so i just enjoying with music, suddenly pancarona playing with
Melarutkan anganku
Hati yang meninggalkanmu
Membiru, membisu
Mereka lambat laun
It felt like the song wanted to accompany me all night in this situation. I feel like I’ve lost my mark in life I don’t know how to get back to what I truly want. People often say that life is not a race, but I feel as if time is always forcing me to run, and in the process, I’ve lost my way. That makes me worried about how long it will take to find it again.
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I know there are many people ready to help me, but deep down, I still feel like melarutkan anganku. The song seems to know that I doubt myself that I’m looking for safety too quickly, which makes me pessimistic, as if I can’t get what I want, can’t be who I want to be, and can’t survive this.
And you’re right the answer is within myself: to start again and change my behavior for the better. But I truly don’t feel I can walk the same path anymore. I see other people who have struggled with their problems in the past and are now happier with their conditions, accepting lives that are different from what they wanted not like their original plans yet still saying, “It’s fine.”
I was talking to my friend until they said, “Not everyone in the same position as you has it easy.”
That hit me hard. I had no argument, because I know how much they’ve struggled, even in the same role as me. Yet, they’re still proud of everything in their life at that moment, and they still thank God for everything, believing it will be fine.
Pancarona spoke to me I was feeling so overwhelmed, my emotions changing so quickly. Then I realized the answer: I’m just overthinking too much. I just need time to take it easy.
I told myself, “Janganlah meragu,” and to stay consistent. No matter how far I am from my goal, I need to accept where I am right now anyway.
I know there’s no climax in this story yet, but I will add one if I can summarize what I’m trying right now.
As I progress, I’ll keep improving this post
