Once

One fades from the frame, but a whole world fades with them.

I had a “world” once.

People I called home, a place where I belonged, a love I thought would last, and a version of myself I never thought I’d lose.
But time took its turn, and one by one, everything became a memory.
I lost the people, the places, the love, and somewhere along the way, and ironically…

i lost myself, too.

Funny how I once had a whole world to live in, and now all I have is a past to look back on.

Press play. Let it hurt. Keep it on repeat until the end.

I’m a social butterfly. I’m friendly, easy to approach, and I find it easy to connect with people. But that doesn’t mean losing someone is ever easy for me.

Whenever I get close to someone, I try to show them both the good and the bad sides of me. I want them to know who I really am from the beginning, so they can decide whether they still want to be friends with me.

But why did things have to end halfway through?

After everything I’ve done to make things better?

It’s not like I ever took our friendship or relationship for granted. What we had meant a lot to me. But I couldn’t always keep my own struggles from affecting the way I treated you.

And after everything, you still chose to walk away.

Bisa dibilang aku orangnya “People-Oriented”.

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Aku sangat menghargai perasaan orang lain, aku selalu berusaha mempertahankan hubungan dengan seseorang, berusaha mengerti POV lawan bicaraku, selalu menikmati aktivitas bersama orang-orang

Pada akhirnya, yang aku lakuin cuman nyakitin orang haha

Apa aku sengaja membiarkan itu terjadi? enggak

Apa aku bisa mengurus itu semua? ya enggak

Apa aku mau ngelakuin dengan senang hati? enggak juga, tapi aku mau berusaha buat kita tetap bersama

Percuma, intinya aku cuman bisa nyakitin semuanya.

I have to fight the battles within me and the ones I never saw coming.

All i can do now is wishing you nothing but the best, and hoping that someday…

We’ll all find our own happiness and success.

And to those who are still by my side, I hope we can create more meaningful memories together.

I’m not the “best” friend, nor am i the “best” partner
But i hope you’ll accept me as i am, and tell me when i do something wrong.
I’m still learning how to become someone you can lean on, someone steady on your heavy days, and a place you can always come back to.

I hope you’ll get that dream from me,
Even for a day…

So at least i know you’re proud of yourself.

Press play. This is my closure. Let me love again, and be there for those who still want me.