Starting Without Knowing
Why Writing?…..
I’m not an expert in writing. I don’t plan much, and I don’t always know what I’m going to say. But still, I feel like writing. I like sharing something, anything.
More than that, I enjoy the process — the feeling of typing each word as it comes to my mind.
This is not planned content. I don’t sit with a topic ready.
Sometimes, just a few minutes before writing, a thought comes like, “Maybe I should write something today.” That’s it.
No topic, no structure. When I actually start, I still don’t know what I’m going to write about. But slowly, something appears as a memory, a moment, or a small lesson from life. And then I just continue, one word after another, in a flow.
If I plan everything properly — writing ideas on paper, organizing thoughts, and then turning it into a blog—it should come out better than this.
I haven’t really tried that yet. Maybe it will work, maybe not. I’m not sure.
But right now, this is how I write…
And honestly, I enjoy this process. Not knowing if I’ll write today. Not knowing the topic. But when I start, something meaningful slowly forms.
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That feeling is enough for me!!
I realised something similar in my work, too.
Sometimes I get a task during a standup call without fully understanding it. At that moment, I feel confused — “How am I going to complete this?” The task sounds simple when explained, but inside my mind, there are so many questions.
Then I start the real process — connecting with my peers, asking questions, and understanding step by step. Slowly, things begin to make sense.
After that, I sit quietly, put on my headphones, and start working. Just me and the task.
In between those days, there’s another small struggle — giving updates in the standup call. Because I’m still working on the same task, I sometimes wonder, “What update should I give today?” I try to reframe my words, explain my progress, even if it feels like I’m saying the same thing differently :)
But finally, when the work is completed, there’s a deep breath… and a quiet satisfaction.
That process — from confusion to clarity — is something I truly enjoy.
And maybe that’s the answer.
I don’t write because I have something perfectly planned. I write because I like discovering my thoughts while writing!!
Maybe someday I’ll try structured writing. Maybe I’ll plan, edit, and make it more polished.
But for now, I’m okay with this uncertainty — starting without knowing,
and ending with something that feels meaningful.
Because sometimes, not knowing the path is what makes the journey worth it!!!
