Dealing with the ADHD of it all
Ok.
Yeah. I know.
It’s been a few weeks.
The beginning of this blog series came about during a period of ADHD Hyperfixation. Honestly, it lasted longer than I thought it would. Or, maybe, that’s just the Fixation making me schedule a couple of weeks worth of posts within a few days.
I can’t be sure anymore.
This has been an issue of mine for as long as I can remember. I’ll get REALLY interested in something, dig into it for a while, then…burn out and not touch it for a while.
It can be a superpower for some. Honestly? It’s saved my life (metaphorically) more than once.
In college, I once had an entire semester to work on this one, singular research project. It involved a 10 page paper, well documents and cited sources, a whole presentation, the works. I got everything I needed to submit for it done in a 5 hr block on a Saturday afternoon 2 days before it was due. Why? Because I had to. Deadlines, yo. The work’s gotta get done.
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But that only works if what you’re fixating on at the time is relevant to what you need to get done. It becomes a HUGE hindrance when it’s being utilized in avoidance of things we DON’T want to do, which is more often than not for many of us. Example: the last few weeks of (not) working on this blog. I lost my confidence/drive/motivation for studying the topic for a while as my fixation crashed, and had no content to upload. Instead, I got sucked into other things of less overall merit to my future career goals (that’s a positive spin on falling into YouTube rabbit holes during my downtime at work instead of studying).
The bottom line is this:
I am still, at the age of (almost) 40, still trying to find the balance. Medication DOES help level out the ups and downs of focus, but I haven’t been able to get that refilled in a while. So I’m doing my best here.
All that to say, I’m going to try and jump back into this. the CISSP is still my goal.
Lets get to work.
