You’re everywhere inside me
Like blood,flowing around all red , rushing through my body boiling up inside frequently like a trigger.
You’re inside me but I don’t feel it until it’s fear, anger or pain. Constantly reminding me you exist by the way. I react. Never seems distant but aching my physical and mental existence.
You’re everywhere inside me, you’re no peace but a storm that takes me by shock. You’re always right and I’m wrong.
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I feel contaminated and filthy inside. Like a person who has crossed all the limits of ethics, infested by all the condemns and censure.
You’re inside me. Everywhere. My past,present and future all depends on this very mistake. I cry, snob, reassure myself of all the things I’ve Done but then you break me again. All my efforts gone in vain everytime I try to ask for help.
The guilt creeps in every time at night, while I’m studying, doing something or dealing with life. I try to stay under and rise above but you break me everytime. I didn’t want this for you. I feel sorry and deeply shaked by the things I did to you but it needs not to end me right ? I’ve asked for apologies a million times but you don’t see the regret in my eyes.
I’ve lost my voice, my charm, my will, my soul and myself in the process. Maybe because you’re everywhere inside me, every part, every sense, every bit. Seems more like I’m you or perhaps It’ll be right to say
I’ve become you
