Underneath
when everyday of waking up is a struggle of not understanding
like the origin of the wind the touches your morning skin
the waves that continuously dancing in the same tune
like your heart that is slowly shrinking through unwanted feelings.
confused, wanting and denying.
forbidden yet sweet and exclusive.
forgetting yet initiating.
You are completely taken by a little spark.
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Today, I just realized that i am near the edge of what is forbidden.
My thoughts are completely intact and trying to escape from the strongest grip i could ever do.
Whenever there is a reason to let go, ___ would always give me all the signs to keep it right here. Longing and waiting. I am lost in a different picture of universe. The shaded light from all the windows of my heart are slowly brightening and blooming and it scares every inch of me.
All that. With all the reasons you are not welcoming comes the stronger power to embrace your own reality. The confusion and the revelation. The good and the bad, the consequence and the result. The love and the hate. The power and submission. The stronger you hold it, the more it find its way out.
___ was all that good memories and butterflies. But you try to run away from your own mistake. How could you ever explain the unexplored if you are in bliss, in surface of underneath?
___ was the person to fill in the exclusive blanks that no longer ache but waiting to be discovered. How can you possibly ask yourself, what went wrong if you knew that this is what is supposed to be? that i am on the right place but well hidden.
I am lost in perfect yet endless road to paradise. I know the right path but what if your own heart leads you to somewhere unknown. I am well hidden underneath.
