Like a super model
A comment to a fellow author gone butt wild…
As someone from a family of beautiful tall people (with narcisisstic issues) — I can without a doubt say that to be a beautiful woman is to be cursed.
Not only do people not want to talk to you (and consider you in another league where you are obviously someone who should be taken down by the closest pack of insecure ugly people); but as you walk into a crowded room, all women grab their men’s arms and claw them with their finger nails, saying ‘don’t look, don’t you dare look.’ The men get weird looks on their faces and the women have their faces curl and fold in distaste.
Walking around as a beautiful person has others whom associate themselves as ugly also want to be your friend at least superficially for a bit because they feel that going around with you (and the attention you get ) will benefit them as a wing man. Usually at some point they will however lose it and kick you to the kerb.
Then there are the mental case men who will definitely want to stalk you and the total creep / criminals who just feel they should be able to date rape you because they have decided you are a trophy kill which will make their amazing ego’s feel better.
I have had men advise me as we begin dating that they feel I am the most good looking woman they have ever landed and therefore they are now just too insecure.
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Frankly beauty brings out the worst in the entire community. Men whom feel that touching your arse while at work is their right etc it just goes on from there.
With the male responses I find them slightly forgivable. It is having women turn on you as if you would actually steal their men — that is just PLAIN INSULTING. Even going to restaurants on my own and just aching to wear some nice clothes I have had couples sneer such awful comments while it is obvious the men are intrigued by me and the women are horrified. Even in this past few months I have had women see me coming and then make huge acts to have their men look the other way just so they can control them.
I lost one of my long term female friends whom I loved to pieces over the fact that she just entirely lost it over me wearing a skirt which showed my leg from the knee down with bare skin. It was the fact that her boyfriend was over and he would probably look at my legs. I was so upset over this I couldn’t believe that in 16 years of friendship she would be reduced to such insecurity — nor that she would actually think me who hadn’t even had sex for over 10 years would decide right now I am going to bed her boyfriend when there are 7 billion humans to choose from. She died a year later and unfortunately she never said sorry and we never communicated again after that. God rest her soul.
I (like the author) did not understand the behaviour for ages. It took me getting to 35 years old and deciding to start filming myself at home just chatting and trying on clothes and just generally being me; for me to be able to get any idea what was going on and it also took me seeing what was occurring to my youngest sister and how awfully people were treating her for it all to twig.
It made things like how my ex partner wanted me to be a home trophy wife more understandable because his fear of me in public and that I may just leave him for a better offer was something he was seriously worried about. In retrospect I also realise that he felt more pressure to please me sexually because of the situation which gave him performance anxiety and as I really smash the whole relationship down into its most basic bricks I realise that the sexual factors were a major part of our relationship not functioning.
I have tried not to dim my dress sense or posture to make people feel better. But it has really shown me just how phenomenally pathetic so many humans are. We all are blessed with beauty of some type. We are all gods children. We all are deserving of great love. We all should be able to feel confident in our bodies and our relationships not feeling like we must kill the perceived competition. I lived in that idealistic version for along long time — then I realised no there are just people that live in very low frequency brain thinking.
Basically WORLD LOVE YOURSELF and STOP BEING SO DAMN SHALLOW !!!! Have and Find FAITH IN GOD, FAITH IN YOUR MEN, FAITH IN YOUR LOVABILITY!!!! Love your sisters, Love the beauty and know you too are beautiful in every single atom of your physicality — how could you not be ? You were made by God.
**** I also add that when your whole family is beautiful and have narcissitic family dynamics — with the whole shebang of golden child scapegoat etc Outsiders even less get involved because they are too bowled over by how beautiful you all are and how perfect you all seem and they don’t even twig when as adults all the kids have some form of mental health issue. NEVER EVER see beauty as anything but a trick of the light — we are all human and all deserve to be viewed as equal under Gods heavenly watch.
