High School
When i started 11th grade in a new school I was both very excited and also very horrified cause being a new kid in school is not easy it never was, especially cause I find it very hard to approach someone and talk to them, I’m far from an outgoing person, I hate the icebreaker stage especially, it didn’t take me long to be the person who sat alone at class I just acted like it didn’t affect me at all.
I saw kids from my class sitting together, playing, talking, laughing, while I just drew on the back page of my notebook, Funfact I’m not even good at drawing, far from it actually, though I've always liked to draw I never took it that seriously.
On the 3rd or 4th day, I cant really remember clearly, I was actually asked by a friend group of 3 to go sit with them, at the time it did feel like they were calling me just cause they felt bad seeing me sit alone but hey, I didn’t mind at all actually,we continued to play bingo(lame I know) and many other games and we actually got along pretty well it wasnt long before we were talking and laughing and all happy.
A few months later I was off school for 2 days or so cause I was on a family trip, throughout which I kept updating them and spamming the group and what I found weird was nobody was replying which was weird cause they always used to reply within 5 minutes max, it seemed like they were ignoring me on purpose.
The next day I went to school I just brushed it all off and went in with a big smile cause I was so happy to meet my friends again but when I walked into the class I saw them sitting with another girl which was weird cause that was my place, but again I didn’t think much and went and sat behind them. Throughout that day I tried approaching them again and again but they just kept avoiding me, that day when I went back home I texted a whole paragraph on the groupchat on how I was feeling left out and weird and I kept begging them to just let me know what’s wrong cause i would’ve sworn I've done absolutely nothing to deserve this but all i got was a single like on that text (as Instagram has an option to just like texts)
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Throughout the next few days I kept texting each of them personally just for some closure at least but all I got was silence disgusting, gut-wrenching silence, I kept making excuses not to go to school cause I hated being there, it went from from my most favourite place to be at to just not even being to think about going to school within just this time cause I would just sit alone, eat alone, walk alone and god help me but I also cried in class everyday cause I just couldn’t do it anymore I felt like the whole world was just against me.
It was not long before I called aside one of the girls from the group and asked her why they were acting like this towards me and she just answered like it was nothing “I heard from someone that you were telling everything I told you about my personal life to your cousin” WHEN I TELL YOU THE WHOLE WORLD STOPPED, I wasn't even in talking terms with that cousin during that time, I was just taken aback and practically went back to begging I kept asking her to tell me who told her that cause I am one hundred and ten percent sure that i didn't do it, I was confident, I could’ve sworn on everything near and dear to me without a second doubt but snhe refused to tell me who told her that and also made it really clear that she didn’t want anything to do with me so I did what anyone with even a speck of self respect would do, I moved on and completely stopped approaching them.
Until one of the girls stopped hanging out in the group so it made me curious of what had happened between them, did they make up lies about her just like they did about me? I couldn’t help but feel the need to know but i didn’t have the guts to go ask her, until an event came up at school and it was compulsory for everyone to attend and perform but we both couldn't cause we were both travelling abroad but our leave didn’t get approved cause we hadn’t shown a valid flight ticket so we were both hiding in the washroom during practice, so I finally took the courage and asked her ‘why did you guys cut me off?” she told me that a girl from a different class went and told them that i was going around saying “stuff” about them which cleared it out for me and then I asked her why she wasn’t hanging with them anymore and she told me there is just too much negative energy around them caused from just talking badly about anyone and anything and she just doesn’t wanna be around that anymore and the whole thing just made more sense than ever and eventually we made up stuff but we are not back to being good friends like before but I know that if I needed help for anything I could reach out to her and them same thing other way around cause I have mad respect for her now.
- Anyways the conclusion is to always talk cause communication is the most important thing and life doesn’t always go your way cause it’s planning something way better and bigger.
- And now i’m in 12th grade and have the most amazing and beautiful friends and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
- Forgive me if there’s any mistake in my writing cause it is my first time and I can always leave room for improvement.
