BOARDS FEAR & being NEGLECTED by CLOSE HUMAN
bhaii meko bhut dar lag rha hai mere boards hai 20th feb se or aisa lag rha hai maine to kuchh pdha likha hi nahi hai yrr aisa dimag blank sa ho gya hai.
jab qs paper main qs dekhti hun to aisa lagta hai mano bas angrezi ke sabd likha rhe hain yrr jiska koi sense hi nahi banta bhaii ,aisa lagta hai words sense hi nahi bana rhe hain yrr.
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or ek to ham itna sariyal type ke insan hai na jiska koi kehna hi nahi hai yrr boards hai darr lag rha hai halat kharab hai chest main tightness jaisa feel ho rha hai ,sar main dard hota hai soch ke paper ka din ki us din to meri aisi ki taisi ho jani hai bhaii or fir bhi , I REPEAT fir bhi besharmo ke mafiq series dekhte hain,doom scrolling karte hai,anime dekhte hai YT par ,ajib hi vichitr prani hai bhaii !
or ek taraf mera ek fav cousin(obviously koi ak to hota hi hai jise aap bhut jada attached and closed hote ho) hai wo mera dimag ka dahi kiya huaa hai bhaii phone nahi uthata ,messages ka reply nahi deta or upar se seen hone pe jo blue tick hota hai wo bhi htaa rkha hai , aise time main i need to share my heart out ,my feelings,thoughts,fear etc wo hai hi nahi sunne ko .. itna gussa aarha hai uspe bhi or khud pe bhi ki ham kyu khud ka khayal nahi rkhte why i need anyone to be ok in my life yrr,or pta nahi kyu meri life main aise hi log kyu hain jo ek ek karke meko tor dete hain and wo log ok rehte hai aisa lag rha hai jaise wo log sirf mere liye hi important the ya hain and i mean nothing to them ,just a RANDOM PERSON!!
and mind you usko call out karne par bolne lagega ki arre tumko pta hai na ham careless person hai, i’m like HELLO ! are you serious if you’re careless person khud ko sudharo people around you are getting hurt by your so called “careless person” behaviour !!
or mere life main mostly log aise hi hain bhaii !! 😭😭
sharm aata hai khud pe ak dam ……..
