My First Medium Post
December 8, 2023, it’s just past 1:30 PM as I write this. On the morning of Tuesday, December 5, I woke up and immediately checked my email for the interview results. I was desperately hoping that I would be able to start working again before the end of this year, but it ended up being a false hope. Afterward, in a state of deep disappointment and uncertainty about my future, I decided to begin a plan I had been hesitating over for a long time.
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Due to some hardships that started in April 2022, I am currently mentally exhausted. There have been many moments when I’ve felt so weak that I thought, ‘Isn’t it harmful to continue living this way?’ Of course, I know there are many people in the world who have gone through much more horrific incidents and suffered much more than I have. However, I’ve come to feel significant changes in both my thoughts and attitudes towards life after experiencing some incidents. This is why I wanted to gather and document my stories and thoughts through the platform of Medium. I’ve always consumed and admired content created by others, which led me to a strong desire to start something of my own. Although it might seem like just a personal diary for now, maybe someday these writings could inspire someone else.
I’ve considered for a long time what I can do within my current situation and which platform would be best for sharing my thoughts and experiences. I enjoy drawing and know how to use design tools, but platforms like Instagram or YouTube seemed too daunting with the effort of creating content. Considering the nature of the topics I want to write about, it doesn’t fit well with short and concise writing, so I didn’t consider Threads. Eventually, I thought of Medium and Brunch (a blogging platform in South Korea) and decided to write in both English and Korean on Medium, a platform with a broader and more diverse readership. (Without ChatGPT, I might never have dared to start)
I’m not particularly gifted in writing, but I find it easier to express my thoughts through writing than speaking. I want to refine the thoughts I’ve scribbled down in my diaries over the years and leave more polished content here. I want to share my experiences, the journey, the lessons learned, and the feelings it evoked rather than compressing my thoughts into a few sentences or listing conclusions. My writing might sometimes reflect my biases or seem foolish and clumsy, but that’s my unique story. I want to document how I’ve struggled and grown, seeking authenticity in my journey. Ultimately, I’m doing this for myself and to hopefully make a positive impact on others.
Starting is always hard. I always had a plan, but I hesitated to start because of embarrassment and worry. However, thinking about the positive effects this journey will have on me, I’m taking the first step with a light heart.
