Solitaire.
It has been years since I had read a book, let alone finish one. But 3 days ago on Monday, I decided to read one just for fun.
It was titled Solitaire by Alice Oseman.
I had bought the book when i was in 7th grade, at a mall when I was hanging out with my best friends on my birthday at the time. I bought it impulsively when I was at a book store in the mall. I saw that particular book a lot on my tiktok FYP at the time, and I was really into Heartstopper. So I made the purchase because I liked some quotes of the book that I saw from that platform. Forgive me, I was an ‘edgy’ teenager back then.
Honestly, I never brought myself to finish that book. I only read a few chapter and then I forgot about it. For years, that cycle repeats and I never finished the book itself.
Until last Monday, I decided that I wanted to finish it. Because it had been sitting inside my bookshelf for so long, I thought I had lost it. So for 3 days straight, i read it.
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I never thought I would relate to a book so much in my life, it felt surreal. I think the reason why I never actually finish the book for years is because the universe is waiting for the right moment for me to read it, there must be a reason, haha.
Honestly, it’s kind of pathetic how I relate to Tori Spring’s story this much. It’s like I am reading my own thoughts, to be completely honest. But that’s what makes this novel had it’s own place in my heart. Her loneliness, her pessimist traits, the constant voices that said she had ruined every form of relationship she had, I truly understands her.
I do like solitude, but sometimes deep down I want to be seen.
Kinda makes me wonder,
Will someone like Michael Holden come into my life and save me?
I wonder how the people that were hanging out with me when i bought Solitaire is doing right now, I haven’t interacted with them for a while.
But enough of that, I am glad that I have finished reading this book and I think Solitaire is such a good book. How Alice Oseman write Victoria Spring is truly magnificent. And I think it’s worth to read, I swear.
