Do I have to rewatch La La Land?
I just wanna share my thoughts because it’s been hard lately. The academic pressure makes me wanna watch some movie that can make me cry like crazy and I’ve been rewatch Blue Valentine, which is really good movie and then enough to triggered my past when my parents got divorce.
Blue Valentine starring Ryan Gosling and Michelle Williams and how I’d really love the strong chemistry between them as an actors, so it’s makes me fall into the storyline.
Until I realized that Ryan Gosling was in the La La Land movie with Emma Stone and remembered how that movie traumatized me so bad. I was watch that movie when I was in highschool, probably around 2019 and it was hurt me.
Maybe because I thought that they will be the end game, but no. They’re not! and it’s bummed me! I was 17 and you guys maybe know how to feel when you were teenager and watch some kind of romance movie and what you expect at the end of the movie? Yap! “Happily ever after” scenes. Did La La Land have that one? No.
At least, that’s what my opinion at that time and couldn’t face it until today when Mia and Seb were not together anymore.
Until I realized, the more I grow up, the more I know a lot of the experiences that happened in my life that maybe, there is one of my wishes that have to crossed off the list, because it’s not how the way it become.
Mia and Seb’s story taught me how to facing the reality. especially in relationship when you meet someone that really right for you, but it’s not. It’s like the line about : “The right person, meet in the wrong time.” it’s enough to describe about Mia and Seb’s storyline and I feel that lately.
When… I’m enough to understand.
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And, I’m enough to understand. Now.
They were happy, but in different paths. Did they finally got what they dream? Absolutely, yes! and it’s makes me understand that, Maybe that is the most painful truth about growing up: sometimes, making the right decision does not mean it will be the easiest one.
Sometimes, two people can love each other and still not end up together.
Sometimes, letting go is not a sign that the love was meaningless.
And sometimes, choosing yourself means accepting that you may have to lose someone along the way.
I think that is what La La Land ultimately taught me. Not every love story is meant to last forever. Some people come into our lives, change us, inspire us, and then leave us with something we carry for the rest of our lives.
It’s been 7 years ago, I watched La La Land for the first time and I can’t enough to heal from that masterpiece, because how everything made it so perfect, especially the soundtrack that’s so iconic, but it’s kinda makes me trauma while listen to it.
Yes, I spilled the tears just only listened the piano tunes played.
Am I dramatic? Probably, because I was have a higher expectation to that movie and then just drop with the reality by the end.
I’d really want watch La La Land again, but without feeling heartbreak at the end. Yes, I do!
