Housemanship is over!!!!
I really just kept this final post for over a month because I was processing the fact that it’s over, and posting this kinda makes it final. Also, I got really busy, then lazy, now we are here.
Do songs remind of you of seasons in your life?
I came to PH and all the things that are Lagos-esque have happened to me. Because how have I been in two accidents since I came here.
I can literally mute my thoughts.
Love it!
The pain with patient losses are so physical — I also wonder how I manage to remember most of them. You’d think it’d be easier.
I look forward to doing my nails so bad
When I was in adult medicine, I used to run away from the ward so that patients will not ask me for anything. In this paediatrics, even if I’m about to faint, I’ll stop and answer my patients. Wow.
That thing about horror movies not being so horror without sound. This patient kept shouting and screaming ‘you shall not die!’ And praying different prayers against death. Bro, you’d think we were resuscitating the child. But no, the child was just breathing fast — it’s part of the bronchopneumonia
If anyone should enter at that point, they’d think the child had died
I had to tell her to please shut it and change that prayer point —
Lost the patient🫠🫠 (much later tho, a long time after the parents drama). And that baby stressed me, gosh!!! Went everywhere to borrow stuff for them because — indigent patients.
Best in blaming everything on my period😂😂😂
Grateful for communities mehn. God keeps His own.
The way I’ve been craving sugar sugar ehn
I can do it all.
This statement keeps me going more than I’d like to admit. Whenever I feel like I have too many interests, I end with I can do it all — people have done it, me too, I’ll do my own. One step at a time
The way I’ve been saying no to errands ehn, I’m proud of me. No, sir. I can not go .
I really envy those who can keep happenings in their life under wraps for a while — I have a tendency to be these people in a few cases, but I go make my noise👍🏽 (or not, I really like shocking people with some facts)
Rain has been jamming me when I’m close to my house and I don’t like it
Heavy rain oh!!! That the wise thing would be to wait it out
But this time, I had to enter because they dropped me my bus stop — tell me why I got excited to enter the rain after small complaining😂😂😂😂
(At the time I’m editing this, sun wants to injure me. I even have heat rashes)
Finally went and made twists, guess who does not want again — I want my butt length braids please!!!
Just chuked a small child that has never been chuked — I’m sorry baby 😭😭😭😭😭
She gave me her hand so willingly, I’m sure she did not see the pain of the needle coming. I broke her trust 😭😭😭
I talk from the preventive aspect of sickle cell disease a lot and that’s because of the little I’ve seen on the effects it has on the patient and parents
Imagine losing a 17 year old.
The pain.
Whoosh. I didn’t cry, might have gotten teary while retelling the story.
The mother was initially calm, then the tears started, dear God!
The father too. You know when they describe tears as loud and guttural — I could feel their pain.
They did all they could, but what a disease.
It annoys me so much that one patient will be dead and you will be hustling to give another patient drug at that point in time — you will still be hustling for others
Right now, I feel like my EQ is low because I really don’t know anything about grief counseling
Also, when people that you know will die eventually die s— you are stuck between joy and pain that the patient is dead. Yes, the suffering is over. No, that was somebody’s child.
Deep sigh.
Two adults will just decide that they like each other, leave the people that raised them, trust each other — just like that
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Na wa oh!!!
Idk if I’m more conscious of my body or something but I feel like I’ve been sick a lot these past few months.
Thank God for health.
Reminiscing patients I lost with tears in my eyes
I always say the hospital system is designed to stress patients relatives — I stand by it. WTH is this roborebe
Lowkey was a terror in my last posting — calmly giving gbasgbos because I finally learned that I’m not supposed to take some nonsense
You know how people are like: I fear women that can braid their own hair? I raise you doctors/healthcare workers that can site their own lines or take their samples or give themselves medications
Finishing Housejob
How do I feel about finishing house job?
Hmmm
I went for a concert and I had maximum fun!!! Reverb 4.0 — had a lineup of all my favorite artists, whoosh!!
Up next, nailfies
We had a mini in-house hangout and it was the most beautiful thing ever — reflecting on the past year, sharing wins , praying together, sharing the word— super beautiful.
Clinical medicine is actually interesting. It just feels constricting. Might still run it sha.
My friend is getting married and the fact that I chose to stay back so I could attend was giving adulthood vibes. lol
Things we do for love, right?
Thanks to her, I’ve attended a bridal shower, done asoebi, attended a wedding, worn makeup.
Everything check — safe to say these things are cost intensive let’s not do again.
My friend was the happiest despite the stress she was going through — that was commendable.
Traveling through states should count as me visiting the state nau
The thought of going home and seeing my parents makes me so giddy!!!
Also, ending house job reminds me of all my bad financial decisions because what are these bills?????
Peace that only God gives. Peace is an answer to your prayer — it’s a transition, but I’m transitioning with the peace of God.
Please help me find work, don’t let me stay unemployed 😭😭😭. This lifestyle won’t fund itself.
There’s a lot of nostalgia but no matter how I do it I can’t go back and I definitely made the best out of it.
God gave me the best humans to do last year with. Imagine going to a place you know absolutely no one — then you made friends such that you’d consider staying back just for them. My friends are my biggest gifts from PH.
I really packed my stuff and moved to a new place for over a year! Gosh!!!!
Almost cried when I saw my parents again. Gosh!!! Wow!!
Did I miss Lagos, absolutely not! Because what in the heat????
Grateful to have returned home healthy — nothing missing, nothing broken. Everyone is fine and happy.
Although I’ll soon have to go back to adulting, let me enjoy small.
I’ve not prayed out loud in my room in almost a year — my parents had to ask if I was praying because they did not hear me. Wow, grateful to be back in a space I can pray out loud without disturbing anyone.
Went back to my school and no nostalgia whatsoever — that school did not pass through me at all
Housejob might have broken me
What are we going to be discussing on this blog now, ehn??
