Setelah: Obrolan Jam 3 Pagi and My Thoughts
My personal opinion on every new track on the album.
This writing will include all of my personal opinions, emotions, and attempts to connect the dots. I listened to the tracks during the hearing session on August 29th-30th. After the release on September 4th, I listened to the songs closely.
Cerita Cinta
Personally, I think this song is an evil sibling of Nadin’s Bertaut. They love each other, but in different forms. I don’t know if that even makes sense.
Di dalam hidupku hanya ada satu cerita cinta
Pertikaian, ingkar janji dan perselingkuhan
Siapa paling benar? Siapa paling merasa besar?
Sejak kecil aku hafal nadanya
Oh, hello, hi childhood trauma.
Semua terasa wajar
Satu yang kutahu
Jangan salahkan caraku melihat dunia
Kau tak akan paham mau dan mampuku
Biar ku yang dewasa
Biar ku yang merasa
Biar ku yang merasa
I need years to unlearn whatever was instilled in me from a young age. It was inherited from the environment around me. I will not elaborate further, as I might get sued by (redacted).
As time goes by, I realized that the people who hurt me and defended themselves behind “I did not know back then” will never change. They just want to be in their comfort zone. They don’t want to grow; they don’t want to learn. The only option I have is to be the bigger person, to be the one who feels and learns.
Terus dengar dengan seksama
Hati kecilmu takkan pernah mendusta
These sentences are the long-lost siblings of The Overtunes — Hatimu Sama. We all know where it leads; we just need to trust our instincts. It all started from intrapersonal before interpersonal.
Tenang dulu, lihat umurmu
Tenang dulu, lihat sekitarmu
Kau tahu kau sudah dewasa, kau bilang sendiri juga
Berulang bagai bianglala, dengar sendiri egomu bicara
I actually want to laugh at these lines because of how relatable they are. Just by reading the lyrics, I already have someone on my mind. I might get killed if I said something more than this LMAO.
Hampir
Naif bagiku membahagiakan semua orang yang memperhatikan
Tulus niatku mendahulukan kepentingan mereka yang pertama
Berbekal keyakinan, manipulasi waktu
Aku hampir dapatkan semua
Tapi hampir, tak pernah terhitung
First-born child coded. Expected to meet everyone’s expectations even when no one asked them to. Strive for perfection and push themselves to the limit just to meet others’ needs.
Jangan bosan mendengar kata maafku
Sumpah tak ingin terulang
Why do we need to say sorry when we are not born to be perfect? (I’m saying this to myself.)
Berjuta tanggung jawab dirimu
Namun kami pun bagian hidupmu
Akankah kamu mengerti itu?
Jangan anggap kami beban tambahanmu
Masih belum terlambat jika kau sungguh ingin berubah
Niat jadi tak sekedar niat
Rajut kembali yang sempat buyar
Kuyakin kau berdaya
We (if you are in) seriously need to go to therapy to treat the perfectionism paralysis. I can resonate with this idea. Sometimes I think of something as a burden, and end up busy with 101 open tabs in my brain. It ended up as a tangled wire that needs 1001 days to be untangled. I know I can do it; I just can’t handle the burden of not being perfect.
Aku rindu hadir sepenuhnya untuk dirimu
Aku rindu seutuhnya untukmu
I want to cry listening to this line. I swear I want to give my all, to give my best. However, some days are not allowing me to give my full potential. I really want to show my best too.
Bodohnya sebaik rencana, tetap berantakan
Yes, we really need to go to therapy.
Vas Bunga
Ingin kupaham tawa candamu yang kau unggah di layar ponselmu
Bersama-sama dengan temanku di grup berisi aku dan kamu
Ingin kupaham letih marahmu yang kau bicarakan malam Sabtu
Keluh dan kesah perjalananmu, oh kita semakin jarang bertemu
People change, grow, and get apart. No matter how much love we hold, or how much we want to get close to the other, we all know it will never last forever. Every relationship has its expiration date.
Melihat orang-orang yang aku kumpulkan
Merekah bahagia, bermekaran
Dari sebuah vas bunga menjadi taman
Bermekaran tanpa aku di sana
This is a little personal, but seeing the people I introduced to each other get closer and grow together is just beautiful. Even if I’m not included anymore, even if the group chat is dead by now, I’m grateful that the seedling I planted blooms in one and many ways.
Mungkin ini ajaibnya, rumah ini terus bertahan, berevolusi, menyesuaikan
Tumbuh ke berbagai arah
Tidak apa, masing-masing dulu
Susah mudahnya, semoga kita selalu bersama
We adopt, we adapt. We strive to survive. It’s ok to take care of what’s on our plate first before taking care of others. I hope that one day the people around me know that I will always be here for them, for their ups and downs.
Bersemi dan bermеkaran
Someone I love so dearly wrote this once: “I want to see the moment you bloom, too. I’ll keep cheering you on — so that you can bloom.” Yes, I hope so. I also want to see you budding and blooming. I love you that much, as much as you want me to bloom too.
Personal note: if you are the one who wrote that letter to me and now you are reading this, I hope we bloom together, even in different places. I hope that we can grow together, without letting go of our hands.
Di Seberang
MV Commentary:
Before watching the music video, I had already listened to the song, and my first reaction was “wow, I like it.” My friend forced me to check the music video ASAP, and my reaction was “wow.”
The music video reminds me of Everything Everywhere All at Once (2022). It radiates the energy of “as long as I’m with you, I can do anything, and I will do anything as long as I can be with you.” The message I got is “it may come in different ways, but I’m willing to make it right for you, for us.” It is just beautiful. Falling in love with someone (romantically, platonically, whatever you name it) is beautiful even if the home is set on fire, even if the walls are missing, or even if we are struck by lightning.
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Song Commentary:
Bertahun yang lalu, berjanji bersatu
Aku dan dirimu, keluargaku dan kamu
Sejak saat itu ku bertanya, apakah kita kuat selamanya?
I think no person will be sure about what holds in the future. We will guess, we will try to predict, we will plan. On the other hand, we may get confused, we may doubt each other, we may doubt ourselves. We try to trust, we promise each other, we try our best, even if we don’t know how it will end.
Bertahun yang lalu, di rumah yang baru
Cukup sederhana, kau bawa barangmu
Sejak saat itu ku bertanya, akankah kita pindah ke mana?
Change is the only constant in this life. No matter how many years we spend together, we will face challenges, misfortunes, and adversities. We will face years of good luck and happiness. We will explore new things, try new experiences, learn and unlearn as we go.
Pertanyaan, pencarian, kecil-kecil ini, kadang menggelitik
Jika nanti ku tak ada, janjikan diriku bahwa kau kan belajarMenyeberang jalan sendirian, mengemudikan kendaraan
Pasang rem di belanja pakaian, ingat diriku di kesunyian
These specific lyrics made me hold back my tears. We all know that we are not immortal. We know one day we will leave, or be left behind. Making someone promise to learn these specific items means we know them well enough to know what they’re lacking. I also interpreted this line as “I will be worried; I want to take care of you even if I’m not there anymore; I want you to take care of yourself.”
Asking someone to remember us in their solitude is… beautiful. This line wrecks me. I will be grateful if someone keeps me in their heart even after I’m not there physically.
Siapa yang lebih dulu? Aku atau kamu?
Apa yang kau bilang saat kembali bertemu?Jika kamu, ku kan baik-baik saja
Jika aku, kau kan baik-baik saja
We are not saints; we get hurt, and we don’t know who will go first. We need to learn how to be fine after one of us is not here anymore. We will be fine. We will be fine.
Kita tahu cinta ini tembus ruang dan waktu
Di sepanjang langkahmu walau raga tak di situJika kamu percaya maka ku juga
Jika aku tak ada, tak apa
This is very EEAAO coded. The love that goes through dimensions and time. This screams “So, even though you have broken my heart yet again, I wanted to say, in another life, I would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with you.”
Mungkin di bumi lain, dimensi yang baru
Tak perlu ada perpisahan yang memilukan
Namun sementara waktu di dunia ini
Kita ukir cerita yang terbaik
Farewell here may hold multiple meanings. It may mean distance, time, or even death. Every separation is painful, not gonna lie (I already had 2 airport farewells this year, believe me).
What we can do is try our best, make every moment count, take pictures to reminisce, and say what we want to say. I said it multiple times to people around me: “Love is not love if the other person does not know.” What we can do is make sure what we feels conveyed to others.
Tuk kita lanjutkan nanti atau sekedar jadi sejarah di sini
Selama denganmu, aku tak masalah
I repeat it once again.
Selama denganmu, aku tak masalah
Oh, to choose someone over and over again, and to be chosen over and over again. Love is beautiful, everyone.
— — — Aura Farming Section — — —
Oh genggam tanganku saat nanti bertemu lagi
Ku kan bantu kau menyeberang jalan, sekali lagi
We know that “menyeberang” here does not always mean crossing the street. It can also mean crossing the line between life and death. I am reminded of Coco (2017), when they can cross between the Land of the Living and the Land of the Dead through the glowing marigold bridge.
This song is just beautiful. My favorite track of the added songs. I want to be able to love someone like this, as much as I want to be loved like this.
Sedikit Demi Sedikit
This song caught my attention since the hearing session. My eyes sparkled from the first line.
Sedikit demi sedikit
Ku membaca pertanda
Yang selama ini kualami
Semuanya berbicara
I think these lines can not be interpreted without the next section. Which is funny because it literally means “little by little, I read the signs.”
Orang-orang yang datang pergi
Kisah favorit yang harus berakhir
Tubuh yang mulai mudah lelah
Saat dihajar jadwal yang biasa saja
This part shows sadness, failure, exhaustion, and burnout, which can be explained as the “signs” mentioned in the previous part.
Bosanku terus hidup menyesal
Dalam hitam putih hidupku (hitam putih hidupku)
Sejauh mana ini kan berjalan
Jika ku goreskan tinta berbeda
Ok, character development much? Jokes aside, I am truly happy for whoever reaches this stage. It means we already know that we can change something if we are willing to. We started wondering and imagining things. We started to have hope and hang on to that hope.
Kutahu ini saatnya
Tulis ulang cerita
Dengan pena dan warna
Sedikit demi sedikit
It feels like a love letter from someone you can trust to handle your most fragile part. It’s ok to restart from the beginning. It’s ok to add another color to this life. Baby steps to other baby steps. It’s totally fine.
Sedikit demi sedikit
Kulihatmu membaik
Tata ulang sisi rapuhmu
Menjadi kekuatan
To be loved is to be seen. Not only what we like, but also how we get better. It’s always comforting to know that someone looks closely at how you heal, time after time. The trauma may not be fully gone yet; the grief may not be linear, but we tried our best to tidy up the messy things. I am grateful that I get people who will be with me throughout the process. I am also grateful that I can be that kind of person to my closest person. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for choosing me as your safe space.
Kau lepaskan kutukan
Menjadi laki-laki (laki-laki)
Yang seharus-harusnya
Tanpa racun-racunnya
I want to interpret this part as being a human (not specifically a man) who wants to get rid of their bad habits. I hope we all get the chance to be a better person, to remove the unwanted behaviours from ourselves, to be the best version of ourselves. Let’s make this world a better place, starting from ourselves.
Semua tentang kisahku
Sekuatnya kupastikan
Kau tak mengalaminya
We adopt, we adapt. We learn from others. If I made a mistake, I will make sure the people I love know how to avoid it. I hope they did that too.
Lihat dirimu, apakah semua berjalan sesuai dengan mimpimu?
Semua ceritamu, buntu, sesal, ego, amarahmu
Apabila bisa, ku selalu ada untukmu
Just so you know, I am one call away if you need something. Maybe I can’t help to solve your problems, but please let me know if you need anything. I won’t be hard to reach. Ok, this is getting more personal.
Biru lebam, merah ruam
Hitam kelam, ceritamu telah kau sulam
Even if it’s painful, it’s always good to see colors other than black and white (this does not mean I hate black and white; we need variations). I am a crocheter, and seeing the projects getting done little by little brings joy. Even if it is not perfect, you can unravel the stitches and do it better next time.
This song will be perfect for a closing song in a concert. Let’s see if Lomba Sihir will play this one as the last song at their November concert.
Final Thoughts
If I don’t like the songs, I won’t be there for my second hearing session. From the new tracks, I would say “Di Seberang” still holds first place in my heart.
See you at the concert!
