An Open Letter to the Person and the Group of People Who Hurt Me in the Past
Just like the picture above, my feelings for you guys are old, vintage, and rubbish. It all belongs to the past. Whenever I think of you guys, all I think about is pain, but hey, at least there’s progress, and it’s not like the past that hurts so much. That’s good, right? Because even though it hurt so much before, I am sure that it is healing now.
To KRL, Paula, AC, KC, Cheska, Arianna, Samantha, Coreen, Clarisse, and everybody else who made my high school years difficult, I hope that you guys are okay, but I also wish that every time you remember what you guys did to me, I wish that even when you guys are fine, you are still not at peace. Why? because I never received a sorry from anyone from you.
In this letter, I would like to discuss some of the things that made me uncomfortable and hurt.
- Your names
- What you did to me and to my self-esteem
- What did I do to defend myself (if I was able to, but surely I did not)?
- Now, the things I want to say to each of you
This was hard for me when I was writing this and I actually did not want to talk about it but I guess this would help me remove some of the baggage that I did not want to keep.
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To KRL you know what you did to me of all people why did it have to be you? The betrayal was redundant, the lies were so many, and you did not even show remorse. I could not actually add more and you should be at the last part of this letter because of all people I was so disappointed in you.
To Paula, you are a woman, you should be empowering women not belittling them.
To my high school bullies, AC, KC, Cheska, Arianna, and everyone else in your favor in massive bullying, I hope you learn your lesson the hard way.
To my old friends who excluded me Samantha, Coreen, and Clarisse you don’t even have guilt within you. I hope you experience the things you did to me.
Last but not least, again, KRL all the trauma, pain, and damage that you brought me I believe will come back to you. The tables will turn and I will be happy.
I was not able to defend myself due to your manipulation, aggressiveness, and opposition. All of you that is why my confidence was gone but now that I am gaining it back, I would never let you take it away from me again, no one, and never again.
According to Gestalt Psychology in our PSYCH 101 class, “whole of anything is greater than its parts.” Which I totally believe in. Why? Because even though I have parts like these from my past, look at me now. Yes, I am still not fully healed but I am getting there, and I will get there.
To everyone who’s reading my blog posts and experiencing these things or to those who experienced this, “LABAN LANG! KAKAYANIN NATIN ‘TO.”
Love yourself, always. ❤
Sincerely,
Antoniette
