Imposing Imposter
I’ve spent a couple of months writing this book.
It has been an intense couple of months not helped by the fact that I didn’t want to tell anyone what I was up to. Not only have I been in lockdown but I’ve also been keeping quiet about how I’ve been spending my time. Shady.
I’ve had a habit in the past of sharing my plans and not seeing a project through. I’m sure I’m the only person that remembers these occasion but nonetheless I’m afraid that it will have hurt my credibility or reliability.
As of today, the cat is out of the bag. And if it’s anything like when I try to get my cat into her carrier to go to the vets… it ain’t going back in.
I wrote a public post on Facebook just to let everyone know what I have been up to. It was harder to word that I expected for two reasons.
The first reason is I don’t want to impose myself on people. Why would people care that I wrote a book? So what?!
The second reason is that I have a bad case of Imposter Syndrome. Where this actually comes from I don’t know.
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The book is written about my life and the lessons I have learnt… the opposite of an imposter.
Perhaps the issue comes from the fact that I’m not a huge reader, so how on earth could I be an author?!
I think it is going to get easier to talk about and I’m going to feel more comfortable in my new role. Doing most things for the first time is quite scary.
There is nothing being wrong with being scared either. In the past when I have been scared but fought through it are the times that I have made the greatest gains.
It was scary to tell people that I’ve written a book and it is going to be scary to release it and promote it too. I have already gained so much just by writing this book — something that I didn’t think I was capable of.
I can’t wait to see what happens next.
Life is scary, and that is cool.
Adam
