First entry thoughts
Hi there!
[Immediate thoughts] I believe blogs are a space where you are allowed to share your vulnerability and most inner thoughts not only with the public, but within the infinite abyss of the internet. It is terrifying. If you think about it humans have come a long way to preserve human knowledge and human history. We’ve gone from physically hammering away at stone tablets to “hammering” away on our keyboards in front of a computer screen. How far we have come, but still so much more we need to achieve. These are just my initial jittery thoughts as I type my first entry so I have definitely digressed.
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Welcome to my first blog entry. If you are here reading this I thank you for taking the time out to even land on this page. I’m really not sure who will read this, so it makes me nervous yet excited. Let’s paint the picture a little. As I’m typing, I’m leaning back in my chair in the most unhealthy posture staring out my window and the bright white sky and in true Seattle fashion, it’s a gloomy and rainy kind of February afternoon. So why am I starting this blog you might ask? Well there are a few personal reasons I’d like to share with you.
- One of the biggest ones is to just get all my brilliant, dark, or somewhere in-between kind of ideas out on “paper” aka this blog. I tend to have racing/impulsive thoughts and cannot seem to organize them all at once so I’m hoping this blog can be used as a form of therapy for myself. Maybe you should try it too!
- I understand the power of an online platform whether big or small. The amount of influence you can have on friends and family, viewers, readers, a community, etc. can allow one single individual to generate negative or positive impact on others. I hope this blog will be make the latter type of impact of course.
- I feel alone in terms of my thoughts, my experiences, and even when I should be reaching out for help or for someone to listen. I often feel a sense of guilt if I ask for someone’s time. Everyone, especially right now, goes through their own issues and challenges so how dare I ask others to take time away from their own lives for mine? Am I right? Other times I just don’t see the point in asking people to take time out of their lives for me. It’s silly, but the best way to explain it is…I run little skits in my head of how the conversations would go. In a good scenario, the other person can relate and sympathize with me, but just might not have the mental capacity to do so. On the flip side, these skits could end with people not understanding my issues, suggestions of “could have, should have, would have”, and/or the invalidation my issues. It’s tiring, but I know I’m not alone even though I feel alone.
That’s why I hope to find some form of solace with this blog! That way I can capture, preserve, and reflect on my thoughts good and bad. The other main part of my desire to start this blog is so I can cultivate a platform that will capture and preserve humanity, serve the community, and bring more peace to our mother Earth. I hope you enjoyed this first entry though it was heavily disorganized. With a sigh of relief, but still a heavy/healing heart I have finally completed my first entry. *Patting myself on the back*
With kind thoughts,
Kelly
