Lost Self : Desires
What do you want? What are you looking for after all this time
What do you really want? What are you looking for? Has your early adulthood changed you a lot? Yet that’s nothing. Clearly.Have you been taken a lot by others who don’t understand you?
Have you become someone else to please others? As if making them happy and laugh is your main task.
“Happiness is shared, sadness is kept to yourself”
You say to yourself every day. As if that phrase will make you strong enough to endure a harsh and unfeeling life. At first, that phrase was enough to make you strong. Now, please. Someone, anyone, get me out of this dark box. You are indeed weak, so you try to convince others. In fact, no one cares about you either. How are you doing? No one wants to bother understanding. Why should they? We’re all busy with our own worlds. Clearly, we’re tired too. Not everyone is like you, friend. Just accept the fact that not everyone has the same feelings as you. You’re busy convincing others, seeking validation until you forget what you’re looking for. You’re busy pleasing others, until you forget your own desires, forget to please yourself. You’re increasingly losing yourself until you miss your childhood.
Smiling widely, without any worries. Now, where has that smile of yours gone?
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Always dreaming about what you want. Now, what do you want?
You’re too busy with the world until you forget your desires.
You’re too busy understanding others until you forget to understand yourself.
You’re too easily forgive someone until you forget how to forgive yourself.
You forget to enjoy every moment in your life.
This world is forcing you to walk fast for the sake of others’ validation.
You forget, have long forgotten to validate your own feelings above the words of noisy humans with tongueless tongues and unfeeling hands.
Now, what do you want and what have you been looking for all this time?
