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The Forgotten Self
Was I always like this? Tired, Restless, Unable to express what I feel.
Carrying the same old smile that automatically says, “I’m fine… all good 😊” like a reflex, while somewhere inside, nothing feels fine at all.
I don’t want to be surrounded by people, don’t want the noise, the expectations, or the constant need to hold myself together.
And yet, every day, I do exactly the opposite. I keep my cool & hide my frustration from everyone. I pretend everything is under control, especially in front of my family and the people I see every day, sometime even from my own self.
But is this really me?
Or is this just the version of me I’ve learned to live with?
The strange part is that the people who see me daily don’t seem to notice. Or perhaps they notice but don’t know what to ask. How can something feel so loud inside me and still remain invisible to everyone else?
Is this the new normal for everybody? Or is something quietly falling apart?
Even when my body begs for rest, I ignore it. I can feel the exhaustion, yet I keep going because somewhere along the way, I’ve convinced myself that there is no time to stop.
