Waiting changes people
the invisible cost of delayed dreams
have you ever wanted something so desperately that you imagined exactly how happy you’d be until it finally happened?
people say that if you get things easily, that thing lose its importance in your eyes. but my experiences tell me the story that’s totally different. the things we love never come to us easily, we have to struggle a lot to get them. that’s so true at least for my case. life keeps on saying, ‘not yet,’ and you keep on struggling because you’re so in love.
but when we finally get the thing we struggled day and night for, while lying with our words that we don’t need them, but still loving them intensely, we ask ourselves that what were those endless days and sleepless nights for?
when the thing finally falls in front of you, instead of fireworks, you get silence. maybe your mind is relaxed, but your heart is still restless, and you feel like you have lost something in the war of getting and struggling not to lose the particular thing. and then you find yourself asking that what did you lose?
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is it peace? is it people? is it your presence?
but it’s not that we shouldn’t chase our dreams. it’s the bittersweet realisation that happiness is never in the thing we longed for, it’s within us. by the time success arrived, we had already become someone who didn’t need it the same way.
on our way to achieve our goals, we break, we heal, break again, suit up and show up again, and at our destiny, we are the strongest version of ourselves. pain reshapes us. time teaches us to live without the thing we are struggling for.
at the end, we mourn all the years we struggled instead of celebrating the victory. not because we are ungrateful, but because ‘waiting’ has changed us till that time. the thing doesn’t lose importance, we just stop romanticising it like we used to do.
writing this story made me realise, maybe the real winners aren’t the ones who achieve everything, they are the ones who receive it before waiting changes them. so it’s true that winner takes it all.
i don’t know what happened to my playlist and my brain.
btw, i’ll be dropping my ‘about me’ post soon.
