We are what we are Stephen, pretending doesn’t change that
It’s 11:35 pm in the night. The wind is cool, the vibe is warm and peaceful. I am not describing it further, I guess this is enough. Words can only do as much, and I am a bad storyteller when I am trying to tell a story. But this isn’t a story either. This is just me trying to put words on a word document.
So, I like to stare out of the window (unbothered), my thoughts are louder, sometimes intrusive and of course ‘self-awareness’ bullshit. Whatever it is, it feels good. Again, I won’t describe further, this is enough.
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‘We are what we are Stephen, pretending doesn’t change that’ — this is a quote from some movie/series I am not aware of. I had kept this quote as my profile picture of WhatsApp for a long time when I was in my late teens, back then this was a thing. I am only a decade older now, but this quote has stayed with me, it keeps popping in as a daily commercial in my head — after I sigh, after I am done thinking, after I have quenched my thirst by drinking enough water, after I have surrendered. See, I can go on…. but words can only do as much.
The other day, while walking home from the gym it hit me that getting married was never my ‘dream’. I never wanted to be alone though, but the entire concept of ‘big fat wedding’, ‘fairy-tale’ wedding, ‘happily-ever after’ is overly glamourous and unnecessary. Why can’t things be simple? Why does it have to involve so many social interactions? Why do I have to stand on the stage with x number of people looking at me and judging me. Again, too many words, this is enough. Enough is also enough. Enough of Alliteration.
What I have just written above might all be unrelated, if you as a reader are able to find some link/sense to these, please tell me. It will be like charity to someone who thinks that she has ADHD.
