#00 : Collecting failures

…and life lessons =)

I registered for a blog here some time ago not just for me to record my “failures”, but also the lessons I’ve learnt.

I call that a form of exposure therapy, and I plan to collect at least 100! 😉

But I’m so afraid of exposing myself that I’ve never written anything, so here is my first real entry. *grins*

Failure of the day:

I fail to see myself as the person that I am.

I’ve only been aware of my very own shortcomings, the things I’ve failed to achieve, the skills I lack, but have never looked at myself from the other perspective (it feels icky even when writing this..).

Get yppy’s stories in your inbox

Join Medium for free to get updates from this writer.

Remember me for faster sign in

I have a lot to be proud of, to name a few :

• I am a brave person as I’ve faced and worked through my childhood traumas, constantly taking up new challenges.
• I am a diligent person, am a fully functioning part of a corporate marketing team
• Supported (and still am supporting) close friends and family members through rough patches in their lives
• I am very loving and trustworthy, I have a group of people (family, friends, colleagues) who trust and love me
• I am resilient, still getting back up after being rejected for positions and jobs. I make constant attempts to get up after being temporarily defeated. This blog post is proof. 😝
• I give my best (101% effort!) at most of the things I do. I’d be lying if I say “all of the things I do”, because that’s simply impossible. For things that I intend to give my best, I do as I have intended, these include speeches, work projects, personal projects, keeping the house clean, keeping in touch with my inner circle, sticking to a healthy sleep schedule + healthy diet.
• I am responsible, I take full responsibility for my life and my choices, I own up if I’ve made a mistake, my family does not worry because they know that I take good care of myself.

To be honest, that felt so good yet extremely cring-inducing on my part. It’s not because what was listed up there are untrue, but I’m just not used to complimenting myself…

I guess that seeing myself for the person I am, all the bad parts and also all the good parts, is a life skill that I need to work on, extremely uncomfortable yet crucial. 🫥

There is definitely more to this, but it’s getting late, and I promised myself to sleep before midnight + get a minimum of 7 hours of daily snooze time.

Goodnight!