That one person.
Have you ever love that one person for a whole year?
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Well i did, and right now i still have that one uneasy feeling on that one person, the fact that i put too much hope on this person is crazy, first met her at October, in here i will probably call her “C”. So like we met at a libary for mid term semester test, and thats where i first met her, i didnt know her fully, she was just a backround person to me back then, then i started to know her better, and turns out she is a very caring person, to me caring = love, so basically i felt love for the first time ( eventhou it was not like love to a relationship typa thing but yea you get it ). So the more i talk to her the more love and care i felt, and it was only 6 months time at that time, then it happened, somewone told her that i liked her and she told me she just want us to be friends, but the thing is, i thought she actually liked me back then, because when i asked her to go together like just the 2 of us, she agreed and i was very amazed, because noone in my life would accept that offer, so we went to church together, we went to a mall together playing bowling ( peak life ), and i was very overwhelmed and very loved by this person, but i didnt know it was just a friendly gesture ( i didn’t take it as friendly ) So at sunday she told me, that she knew about me liking her, and she kept distance for like 1–2 months, and then she chatted me, asking me to go out like hangout n stuff just the 2 of us, and i asked why? Of course a normal person would ask about that cause, I didnt wanna talk to her for abit so i can move on and actually find somewone who loves me, but when she chatted me back, i felt a little spark come back, so i accepted the offer, and when there was a youth group meeting, i was going with her, i was in my car she was in the passanger, we talked the whole way there, and there was 0 stutter and stuff, but when i drove her home, when she left i felt something missing, like a part of me is missing, i talked to god on my way back home, and the next day at night she called me, her sister just broke up and said so many bad words, she didnt knew who to call anymore except me or that one person, so i accepted the call and when it was around 1am, i told her everything, i just said “i still like you C, and im really sorry i did again” and she said “please dont like me, i consider you as my brother in christ” at that time i felt hopeless, to this day i still talk to her but, i dont feel the same cuz like, i lost all hope, and now, im just hopeless, hopefully yall dont experience this, cause this is the most heartbreaking thing.
God Bless You Guys.
