TRAUMA UNTOLD…
As a disciple I write
Not to my master but as a child
So many expectations from past visitations unfulfilled
I walked into a dimly lit room
Ever so bright but now dull
Thinking about promises you never gave
Whether you still saw me or you ever did
The air becomes my bestie
The crows call in attention but I ignore them, devoted to you
I sit underneath the bright light of the moon
Talking to you, something you may not do, hope is my only comfort
My couch is sagged, my tears flow
I breathe loudly in my heart with Large cocoons surrounding me
A safe space where I can breathe
I… I can’t take it off you.. My mind… It goes back to you
I’ve seen the people whose heart you’ve broken
I convince myself that I can never be a victim
But little courage I harness
I can’t even walk past you without a blush
You never notice me
Never did… Or so I think
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When I have the courage to finally get close
Would you push me away?
Would you reject me?
The fear of the unknown drive me into the abyss
I don’t wanna be an animal to slaughter
I’m so cozy on this couch
Daydreaming again
Today you didn’t glance at me
I dare not talk about you looking
Tomorrow would always be better would it?
If I gave you my heart would you handle it with care as the first one to?
Or would you break it into pieces on my first love attempt
This trauma untold
A personality never known keeps me in chains
Bounds me to coal
I frown in my thoughts
Wanting to be much closer to you
Your happiness is all I want to see
You and me together forever
Something shakes me vigorously
MUM I gasped now in the comfort of my room
Until we meet again my thoughts bade me…
Unknown to me that our thoughts sync.
