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The Avoidance Machine
Endlessly searching in the garbage box for a miracle
when you are searching inside your head
aka for the garbage thoughts within the thinking mind
rest assured this is an avoidance activity
as in response to a stimulus
jumping into the head can only be good for avoidance
there is a reason why we don’t want to stop
investing in this futile activity
i.e our profound inability to tolerate discomfort
in simply staying with the stimulus
and, of course, it is uncertainty there
and we don't want to entertain uncertainty even for a second
so what we do
anything is better than tolerating discomfort or uncertainty
anything is better than to welcome something new
so we compulsively depend on the garbage thoughts
and we get lost on the wrong but familiar route
a direction where there is no growth no change
— our comfort zone is this compulsiveness
seeing this in ourselves can be frustrating
and we may beat ourselves up for this…
