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Bits & Bones

Bits & Bones is a collection of self reflection and expression. A mix of personal experiences, creative nonfiction and prose to move, break, and expose a soul.

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His Definitions

2 min readSep 12, 2022

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I hated that even after he was gone
he defined some things:

How a hand feels intertwined,
A lip sucking,
A bulge growing.

Telling myself the new things I was experiencing were better
— incomparable to what we’d had —
didn’t make the process of rewriting
those definitions any quicker.

My muscle memory
in alliance with my trauma,
made it a long arduous process
to evict his essence so
it could no longer taint
the affections of my new love.

Letting him go, even after he was gone,
was not a matter of conscious choice.
In the sleepy fuzz of night
I’d mistake that it was his hand
curling around my jaw,
pulling my face in for a kiss,
and I’d snap away from it,
only to blink and realize
I wasn’t back there and I wasn’t with him.

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Ollie Ander
Ollie Ander

Written by Ollie Ander

Writer of brutally honest non-fiction & prose. Ollie hosts The Open Book channel on Youtube and Acidicink.ca

Bits & Bones
Bits & Bones

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Bits & Bones is a collection of self reflection and expression. A mix of personal experiences, creative nonfiction and prose to move, break, and expose a soul.