Pics: Me laying on the operating table. I’m naked and anesthetized.

I received an injection and I was like instantly out. The very next thing I remember was asking my surgeon when the operation would begin only to be informed she had already performed the operation. I was completely baffled.

My penis and testicles were gone.

The final result. No more penis and testicles but a surgical vagina.

The operation took about 8 hours but for me no time at all had passed.

I have only two memories. This anesthesiologist administering me an injection and the very next thing I recall is me asking my surgeon when the operation would commence. Now it is only a matter of time before I will be sexually satisfied by a penis inside me.

Just one more operation. Voice feminisation.

LEFT PICTURE (2022 and on FHT since 2021)

Me still in the possesion of my male genitalia.

RIGHT PICTURE (2026)

Me laying fully anesthetized on the operating table.

No more male genitalia but a surgical vagina and as a result of being 5 years on FHT a full blown female shaped body and a feminized brain.

My doctor, an urologist specialized in male to female transitioning, was right. She told me that in time I not only would look like a female but also think, feel and act like a female. My sexual orientation would also change from fancying women being born a heterosexual male into fancying males she said. In time you will be sexually aroused by male bodies and genitalia. That is the effect of FHT (Feminizing Hormone Therapy)

My ass keeps growing bigger. What surgically widended hips and female hormones can do. Riding my bicycle there’s no more doubt in any one’s mind approaching me from behind I’m a female especially only being 5 feet 1 inch and having developed a curvy shaped body all over. I’ve also become significantly fatter all over.

Feminizing Hormone Therapy changes practically everything about you.
Not only your physical appearance will dramatically change but your brain as well.
Your original male brain will neurologically develop into a female brain.

I have also decided to go for a surgical vagina. As a result of all these female hormones (FHT) I can no longer have an erection and my testicles which are of no longer use to me because being sterilized have shrunken to the size of a peanut.

I still more or less fancy women but my doctor says this will rapidly change in time because she has increased the dose of some of the female hormones that determine one’s sexual orientation ,in partically estrogen.

In time women will have no more sexual effect on me due to the fact my brain will be totally feminized and she means not psychologically but neurologically/physically.

These female hormones physically change your brain into a female brain

Amaygdala, hyppocampus,synaptic functions in your central nervous system, etc…all these functions will be feminized and once your brain has been feminized it will stay feminized.

She’s also suggested voice feminisation surgery. .

I was sterilized (vasectomy) without any means of legal protest. I was obducted by a team of medics and transported to a clinic.
The very next day I was forcibly anesthetized and when I woke up again I had to find out I had been sterilized.

My doctor who had surgically sterilized me actually insisted I should submit myself to a total emasculation (castration and penectomy). That would make my transitioning complete in her eyes. Even more. Being emasculated and kept on FHT would fully and permanently alter my sexual orientation. Turning me into an active heterosexual woman was her ultimate goal. She said that from fancying women I would in time only fancy men. A must for a succesful life as a transwoman. Just get rid of this disturbing “growth” between your legs, meaning my penis and testicles and she also claimed I would still be able to orgasm. Should I have my penis and testicals removed and go for a surgical vagina? Will I still be able to orgasm? Suppose she’s wrong.

When your only means of transportation is a bicycle things can happen to you that you wouldn’t believe could happen
Last week I was pedalling to the shop to buy me a pack of cigarettes when all of a sudden I was startled by the noise of screeching brakes.
I instantly looked over my shoulder and I instantly froze with fear and spontanuously wettend myself. Rigth behind me there was car. I started pedalling like hell but even though that car could’ve easily overtaken me the driver kept driving right behind me. I was scared out of my wits for I knew, or at least I thought I knew, why this car kept driving right behind me. Like always I was wearing a short windy miniskirt. So, I thought that was the reason why. Common sense says I should’ve gotten off my bicycle and made a run for it on foot but when you’re scared out of your wits you can no longer think straight. When persued by a car you’re functioning in animal mode. You keep pedalling like hell.

Well, here’s a surprise. At one point this car slowly overtook me giving me an opportunity to see who was in that car and to my surprise there happened to be a small kid behind the wheel. She kept staring at me for a couple of seconds and then all of a sudden sped off.

I knew this kid. She was 8 years old.

Now how can an 8 year old drive such a big car? (a big SUV) To begin with it had to be a car with automatic gear. I can’t imagine an 8 year old handling a manual gearbox.

Secondly, how could she reach the pedals? Any way, she drove that car and pretty fast too. Well, that’s to say compared with me doing 12 mph.

I later informed her mother who obviously was drunk and all she had to say to me was mind your own business.

Even the fact her daughter would’ve swept me off the road if she had not noticed me in time was of no interest to her.

You know, I was raped once. I was actually raped in the back of a speeding van. (non fiction)

I was riding my bicyle on a country road being approached by a huge black van coming from the opposite direction. The van slowed down and the people inside this van, a girl behind the wheel and a male sitting next to her in the passenger’s seat, were staring at me in a rather conspicuous way. Well, I was wearing black pantyhose, high heels and a windy miniskirt. I knew what had attracted their attention. So, I was instantly alarmed and started pedalling like hell. Then I noticed the van had made a U-turn now approaching me from behind. I was in a state of panic and I desperately tried to outpedal this van but I was overtaken in a matter of seconds and bumped off my bicycle.

I instantly got back on my feet and made a run for it leaving my bicycle and handbag behind me. However, I was caught in no time.

Now facing my assaulter face to face and noticing he was over 3 heads taller than me I petrified with fear and I instantly wetted myself. I felt like a small child compared to him. He didn’t say a word and without hesitating he lifted me up and carried me on his shoulders back to his van as if I were a rag doll

Fearing for my life I desperately started kicking my legs whilst slapping and scratching his back. However, with no result at all except for my heels falling off my feet and all he had to do was slap my ass and I instantly stopped kicking my legs.

His female accomplice was standing by the van holding the backdoor open laughing “she’s not wearing any panties”. My assaulter slapped me once more on my ass and then dropped me on the floor of this van. He also got in and kneeld beside me. In the mean time his female accomplice had taken back place behind the wheel and had instantly sped off.

My assaulter took a peek under my miniskirt and he was visibly completely baffled to find out there were male genitalia inside my pantyhose.

He informed the girl driving the van they had caught a male sissy and she started laughing like hell yelling rape him rape him. Show this bitch who’s the boss.

Well he did.

Even though I had actually wetted myself he started fondling my testicles and stroking my penis.

Next he rolled me over face down and ordered me to assume a doggy style position. I was scared to death so I automatically obeyed him. He tore my pantyhose and anally penetrated me whilst continuously squeezing my penis and testicles and even though I’m a hetero and paralyzed with fear I was sexually stimulated. I got an erection, I orgasmed and I ejaculated.

Next he rolled me back face up and noticing I had ejaculated he instantly grabbed me by my testicles squeezing them that hard I was writhing in pain.
There was something he didn’t understand. I had male genitalia but a female shaped ass and actually looked like a female in every way.
He wanted to know if I was born as a girl with a penis or born as a boy who later developed into a female.
I couldn’t utter a word for he kept squeezing my testicles that hard I nearly fainted.
As for his female accomplice who was driving the van all she did was laugh.
I had been kidnapped by 2 horrible idiots.

Eventually he let go of my testicles and ordered the girl driving the van to stop the car and she stopped the car. What followed was a heated discussion. He wanted to get rid of me but she wanted to keep me. She claimed I was her catch argumenting she had caught me by overtaking me and bumping me off my bicycle. So, she owned me. Any way I was thrown out of the van and they drove off again.

But that wasn’t all. She soon turned her van around and came straight at me. I ran as hell but I was instantly caught up with. Fortunately she didn’t run me down. She kept driving right behind me for a minute or so and then sped off.

Once they really had gone I ran back to my bicycle (miles away). I collected my heels and handbag and pedalled back home and I filed a complaint.

Police said I was very lucky he didn’t strangle me or got run down by that girl.

Next I was transported to the hospital to be anally examined and they collected some sperm from my ass. However, this doctor also insisted I had my penis inspected. She had found some traces of sperm inside my pantyhose. Well, I agreed because I felt i had no choice and they collected some sperm from my penis.

Next I was interviewed by a psychologist and she wanted to know if had experienced an orgasm for some fresh sperm had been collected from my penis.

No use to lie so I said yes but I also told her I didn’t give my consent to be anally penetrated. I assured her I had been raped and that I wanted that rapist to be caught and thrown in jail.

Her answer was. Well, as a male you don’t have to give your consent in order to orgasm.

Even when a non-cooperative male is sexually stimulated in the right way especially in a state of extreme fear this results into orgasming. It’s called a fear induced orgasm.

But that was not the end of my ordeal. I was detained in the hospital for 3 days against my will because they feared I might do something stupid being traumatized like that. They actually kept me forcibly sedated. Well, sedated is an understatement. They in fact put me to sleep and it took 3 nurses and 1 doctor to put me to sleep. 2 nurses to hold me down by my arms and 1 nurse sitting on my legs in order to prevent me from hysterically shaking my ass so this doctor could safely plunge her needle in my butt. I don’t know wat she’s injected me with but within a few minutes she had put me to sleep. When fully awake again and realising how they had treatened me I felt animalised. I had never given my consent to be detained in that hospital for 3 days let alone be put to sleep. I actually have no recollection what happened to me between the time I was put to sleep and the time I woke up again 3 days later. All I know is my sister and her husband told me they had come to visit me just to find out I was laying totally knocked out in bed.

As for my kidnappers. They’re still not found for I couldn’t remember their license plate. I actually never took notice of their license plate. All I could provide the police with was a description of my kidnappers. He: very tall, in his 30ties, and dark hair. She: also dark hair and in her late teens or early 20ties.

As for the make of the car. No idea. It was a huge black van.

Any way, I was officially registered as a rape victim

Never the less this horrendous experience I still wear short skirts riding my bicylce. (well I can’t drive a car) However, I now always carry a can of mace and a knife in my handbag.

As for my testicles. They’re average size. My urologist insists I allow her to sterilise me for she fears I might impregnate a woman and that wouldn’t be a good idea she thinks. Well, I like to stay furtile. I decide whether to be sterilized or not and not she.
As a matter of fact I’m considering getting me another urologist because there are still some minor cosmetic surgeries planned and I don’t want to wake up to find out I was sterilised along the way. You see, these urologists , anesthesists and surgeons all work together. They can’t be trusted and when you’re anesthetized you can’t protest. You don’t even know what’s happening. Just imagine. They put you to sleep to do some facial cosmetic surgery and when you wake up again you’re confronted with the fact you were also sterilised or even castrated. I won’t let them anesthetize me again unless I got an urologist who swears on paper she wont sterilize me, let alone castrate me as she also has proposed on several occasions. She’s driven by a desire to totally emasculate me because she says a woman with testicles is not a real woman. So what? They’re my testicles and not hers. I’ve always hated my male body. That’s a fact. But I never hated my male genitalia .

About being castrated she says you won’t feel a thing and you won’t miss a thing and top of the bill you won’t need any more neutralizing testosteron meds. Well, I know I won’t feel a thing being under general anesthesia but I’m not sure I won’t miss my testicles and once you’re castrated there’s no way back.

The size of your penis does not matter but your testicles do. (I don’t mean the size of your testicles but the mere fact you got testicles and you wanna keep them)

I will not add a high quality photo as recommended (just a low quality photo)

My soft (2 inch) penis inside my pantyhose

Everybody knows about the physical effects of FHT.
You grow breasts.
Your ass and thighs grow bigger. (because of female fat distribution now)
Your face becomes more female like.
You grow less bodily hair. (In my case I had no bodily hair to start with)

Your skin gets softer.

There’s significant muscle loss.

Before FHT I could lift at least 40 kg. Now just 20 kg.

The psychological effects are less known.

The most profound effect is that FHT feminizes your brain.

Through FHT you can alter any male into a full blown female.

You will fall victim to mood swings.
In my case it’s not in the sense of feeling up and down but rather changing between feeling relaxed and getting quite irritated over things that never irritated me before. You also will feel the urge to behave and dress in a provocative slutty way especially if you still have your balls like I do. However, once you’re castrated you’ll become less provocative.

There is also a possibility your sexual orietation may change.
In case of being straight like I am you could evolve from fancying women to fancying men.
Made me think. Is one merely the result of hormones? Small chemical molecules?
Hormones not only change your physical appearance but also the way you think, the way you feel and in most cases your sexual orientation.

In case you don’t have a penis maybe you felt something else shrink.

I don’t have a driver’s license. All I got for transportation is a bicycle. I hate public transport.

Whenever I’m riding my bicycle on a country road without a bicycle lane I’m pedalling as fast as I can and that’s about 12–13 MPH. That’s because the faster your legs move up and down the more you stand out. I’m talking about getting noticed in time by potential car drivers approaching me from behind. And yes, most drivers slow down except my 18 year old niece like I mentioned in a previous post. She not only does not slow down she actually accelerates overtaking me at 160 MPH. That’s her way of showing me how powerful she is driving a Mercedes and how helpless I am riding a silly bicylce. That’s her revenge for having belittled her and having called her a dumb brat when she was still a kid.

She’s going that fast I can’t even make out what make of car flashed me by. But I always know it’s her. A mind blowing speeding white car aggressively hooting and flashing its backlights. That’s how I know it’s her and it’s quite humiliating being overtaken that mind blowing fast by an 18 year old girl.

But there’s more. I’ve been overtaken by my niece 4 or 5 times now. I mean on that road where she can easily do 160 MPH.

Well now, every time she flashes me by at 160 MPH I’m so overwhelmed I feel my penis instantly shrink.

And that’s not all. Something shamefully now. After the initial penis shrinking shock I become increasingly sexually aroused by her awesome power and mind blowing speed compared to my weakness and helplessness.
Within seconds she’s disappeared in the distance. There is no way for me to keep up with her. For every 10 yards I cover on my bicyle even pedalling as fast as I can she probaby covers 120–130 yards. The speed at which I’m overtaken by this teen girl (just 18) and my helplessness to keep up with her always results in an erection. That’s to say right after the initial penis shrinking shock. Shameful but true. (The penis shrinking shock happens the very moment I’m flashed by)

As for her. She says she’s always having great fun watching me in her rear mirror being practically instantly reduced to a small cycling dot in no time at all.

One moment she says you’re a tiny cycling dot way in front of me and the next moment you’re a tiny cycling dot way behind me. All I notice in between, that’s when she flashes me by she means, is your skirt blowing in the wind uncovering your surgically female shaped pantyhose ass and you’re legs pedalling like hell. Next moment you’re back a tiny cycling dot but now seen in my rear mirror.

You have no idea she says how vulnerable and helpless you look on that bicycle of yours.

She says she actually feels ashamed in my place but that won’t keep her from flashing me by every time she sees me pedalling in front of her car. She says she loves it.

Little does she know I’m actually sexually aroused by her awesome overtaking speed and power and I will never tell her. How would she react if she were to know she’s leaving me pedalling way behind her with an erect penis in my pantyhose

I think I better have my balls and penis removed and give them to her. Being a bicycle bimbo as she calls me I’m no longer worth of having a cock and balls. Maybe I should go for a surgical vagina after all and have my gender officially changed to female and go by the name of Lucy. I already have a female shaped ass and for western standards I got a perfect height to pass for a woman. (5 feet 1 inches….155 cm)