1. Auckland Art Gallery. If you are visiting Auckland CBD, why not check out the International Art Exhibition at the Auckland Art Gallery. Here you will see some truly gorgeous paintings , and find a unique one that really inspires you! Well worth a visit.
2. Cornwall Park, Epsom. With sprawling greenery, and beautiful trees, Cornwall Park is a great place to take a summer stroll!
3. Auckland Waterfront . Take a long walk around Auckland waterfront for boats galore.
4. Auckland City Library. Do you like to read? Why not find a good book at Auckland City Library!
5. One Tree Hill. Want a good view of the City? Enjoy being out in Nature? Consider a visit to One Tree Hill.

I feel like i’m constantly hitting a brickwall- Chasing old memories of what my life USED to be like when I was in my early 20’s, A passionate young woman training to be a Journalist, studying full-time, and with a steady routine. I used to actually get EXCITED about things, I was happy, I was ambitious, and the low self esteem of my teenage years had drastically improved.

Not sure how i got into this rut, but it started very shortly after my 27th Birthday. I had been letdown by the Wellington Central Police, after filing a sexual harassment report on a guy I had briefly dated. I had , in short, been subjected to a brutal smear/slander campaign in my home City, which had resulted in horrific levels of sexual harassment.

It had got so bad, that I was having the friends, current and ex coworkers, and associates of this guy i used to date, scream sexual profanities at me, try to run me over in their cars, and hurl verbal abuse at me from out of their car windows WHENEVER I WAS OUT IN PUBLIC IN CENTRAL WELLINGTON. I was absolutely hysterical when these events would occur, and from October 2021 to March 2022, I was in constant email correspondence with police in Wellington, after filing two police reports.

At first they seemed sympathetic, but that quickly turned to apathy and indifference. They were surprisingly unhelpful , and made it very clear they didn’t take my claims seriously. That, AND they didn’t think what I was going through, was serious.

The month before I filed my first report, was September. I had taken a bus up to Auckland, from Wellington, for what was supposed to be a two week holiday in July. Unfortunately for me, Auckland went into it’s second COVID Lockdown in August, 2021. And I was stuck at my Aunt’s place for it’s entirety, ALMOST………..The minute the alert level went down to level 3, my Aunt promptly kicked me out , despite the fact we weren’t technically allowed to leave our ‘Bubble’ until the alert level went down to level 2. This resulted in me, wandering around a ghostly, empty city center trying to find a Hostel or Hotel that would allow me to stay. They all turned me away.

After 2 negative COVID rat tests, some documentation and paperwork , and a plane ticket- I flew back to Wellington. My friend strided towards me at Wellington Airport, it was so good to see him.

Unknown to me, the smear campaign had started while I had been away in Auckland. So when the scale of the sexual harassment reared it’s ugly head, I was in shock.

Over the last three years, since my 27th, I’m embarassed to say, that i’ve literally done NOTHING with my life. I just DON’T KNOW what motivates me anymore. My whole family think i’m a LOSER. The only thing i know for sure is I want to leave New Zealand. I want to go to Eastern Europe, and possibly Sweden. I don’t currently have a full-time job, and I am 100% broke. Those 5 years I lived in Wellington were the happiest years of my life, but what drove me out of Wellington were circumstances beyond my control. What it came down to was that I no longer felt safe in that City. The police, in my case, were 100% useless.

One of my other Aunts is extremely critical of my lack of full-time employment to the point she lectures me constantly about why I’m not really doing anything at the moment. The critisism doesn’t actually help oddly enough, it just makes me bad tempered and annoyed.

When i think of the number 30- Many thoughts come up-

A good career,

Financial stability,

A long-term relationship,

NONE OF WHICH CURRENTLY APPLY to me. Societies expectation around what a person SHOULD HAVE achieved at age 30, usually center on Career, Relationships, Engagements, Finances .

And I am FAILING MISERABLY with these expectations.

I’ve hit a brick wall. I don’t know what i’m going to do.

When I was 23, I had a lot to be grateful for- I was a journalism student, studying full-time and living in a gorgeous, cozy apartment in Lambton Quay , central Wellington. I also was head over heals in love with my boyfriend, who worked as a Chef in Karaka.

Two weeks later, I found myself storming out of his apartment , after a petty and totally blown out of proportion argument. It was our first and last argument. I wish I had known then, what I know now. That it was over. The weeks went by with me crying my eyes out for hours each day, my ex had asked that we stay friends and even asked to meet up in person to talk, but now i kick myself remembering how emotionally immature I’d been , when i randomly accused him of having moved on already , and said i didn’t want to be friends with him as I still had feelings for him. To this day i still don’t understand how people can transition to friendship with their ex after a passionate monogaous romantic relationship. The week turned into months. ‘Bell, you gotta move on at some point. He’s seen your messages on Facebook. He has every opportunity to reply if he wants to’ , one of my friends said. She had a small metaphysical business in Christchuch and was a tarot reader. After one particularly daunting reading, she grimly told me the cards didn’t look so good for a possible reunion. We spoke on the phone for over an hour.

She wasn’t the only one, and my other friends were getting seriously annoyed, just sick of hearing about him, and the breakup. 6 months became one year , then one year became two years. And as much as I had tried, i simply couldn’t ‘Just move on’. I still saw him walking around the city from time to time, stony and sad faced whenever our eyes would meet through the crowd. I still felt ashamed and deeply regretful that we had split up in the first place, despite the deep love we had for each other.

And i still kick myself over my lack of forsight , and insecurity. I found out about the concept of Twin-Flame’s and immediately fell down that rabbit hole, utterly convinced he must be my Twin Flame. You can read up on Twin Flame’s for hours and still torture yourself over the ‘What If’s’. For me it seemed like a way of making sense of things, from our first meeting until the day of seperation. In the end, it really wasn’t all that helpful. It just prolonged the breakup pain and made the heartache worse.

But I had also had my friends telling me to ‘Just move on’ from day 1 after the breakup. They would get to the point where they would just come out and tell me i was going around in circles and they were sick of hearing about him.

6 years later. I still think about him every day. I think about him when I wake up and when I fall asleep.

It took me 3 years to even START the process of moving on. And three years later, I STILL HAVEN’T MOVED ON.

For me it stems from a lack of closure- I think we both needed closure but in refusing to meet up with him or be friends after the breakup, I really sabotaged that chance. I fucked up, badly. And i will probably go on missing my ex and thinking about him.

No, sometimes it’s not as simple as ‘Just move on’. And no, sometime’s you can’t just ‘Move On’.

With it’s mountainous ranges, gorgeous coastline’s and abundant farmland, what are some of the best place’s to visit in the South Island of New Zealand?

1. Queenstown! Weather it’s Skiing, Ice-Skating, OR Bungy jumping, there are HEAPS OF THINGS TO DO, in this glowing tourist town.
2. Arrowtown. As an old historic gold mining town in the Otago region of the south island, Arrowtown is a charming, sweet and beautiful place for scenery and NZ History.
3. GoldenBay. Sandy white beaches, vegan and vegetarian cafe’s and an abundance of Arts and Crafts are just a few reason’s why this District is GREAT to visit.
4. Christchurch. As the second largest City in NZ, Christchurch has a lot too offer.
5. Dunedin. Museums, Art Galleries and Historic land marks make Dunedin a fantastic place to visit.

It’s best to have a simple question ready and to get into a good meditative state beforehand, lighting a candle is optional, not essential. Shuffle the deck thoroughly and place the first card face down on a flat surface. Keep shuffling three more times until you have four cards facing down. These symbolise the answers to the question’s in the form of your past,present and future possibilities, while the fourth card represents the outcome to the question in it’s entirety.

The card deck should come with a mini manual where you can read the interpretation of each card, be it major or minor Arcana.

This simple four card spread, makes tarot much quicker, easier and beginner friendly to use for the purposes of divination.

Learning the Tarot card interpretations, including major and minor arcana, and the suits however, like any new endeavour, take time.

There are many many AMAZING professional tarot readers around, but much more professional to learn yourself.

I highly recommend The Original Waite Ryder Deck to start.

1. Island Gelato, CBD Ferry Terminal. Boasting delicious and original flavours this gem is a lovely place to visit for a decadant treat , whilst waiting to catch a Ferry to Devonport, Birkenhead or Bayswater.
2. Albert Park, Princes Street. A gorgeous scenic reserve park and a great place to take a walk in the Summer.
3. Auckland Art Gallery, Wellesley Street East. See some stunning exhibits at this Gallery.
4. Vixen Vintage Boutique, Karangahape Road. With some truly unique and gorgeous designs at affordable prices , this is a great Boutique Store to visit when Opp-Shopping in Auckland CBD.
5. Masako Japanese Restaurant, Karangahape Road. With a broad range of tasty lunch options, including all the classics like Miso Soup, Deep Fried Tempura, and Sushi at affordable prices. It’s one of my favourite go-to’s whenever i’m in Auckland CBD.

New Zealand! With it’s gorgeous Forests, rugged roads, unique wildlife and two Islands, where are best place’s to live? Let’s break it down.

1. Mission Bay, Auckland. With it’s white sandy beach, beautiful nature walks, treasure trove of cafe’s and restaurants and amazing views over the waterfront, mission bay is one of Auckland’s BEST suburbs and is one of the best places in New Zealand.
2. Devonport Auckland. Stunning views, a great many shops, and beautiful houses make Devonport, a wonderful place to live. A bit pricey, true. But definitely one of the top suburbs in Auckland and easy access to Auckland North Shore.
3. The Coromandel. With it’s breath taking beaches, wonderful nature walks, waterfalls and nature reserves, The Coromandel is an Idyllic place for tourists and Kiwi’s alike!
4. Wellington, New Zealand. New Zealands coolest little capital, Wellington is a bustling place, full of unique art galleries, cafe’s, restaurants and shops. A harbour city with a gorgeous waterfront, and plenty of tourist attractions makes Wellington one of the best places to live in New Zealand.
5. Golden Bay, South Island. Sandy beaches, an amazing coastline, native bush walks and waterfalls make up much of the hub that is Golden Bay. Many come here to enjoy the views.