Prospection, only a thing in psychology since 2010, involves the mental representation, simulation, and evaluation of possible future events and states, encompassing activities such as planning, prediction, intention formation, and hypothetical scenario construction.

I.e. it's imagining a future pathway and simulating it in time and space. I am not sure how the shamanic community feels about this but it might be the same thing as journeying.

I recently came across this concept of prospection whilst voice chatting with one of the popular AI bots, and it struck me this wasn't a thing yet, as I seem to do it rather frequently. The process can be divided into multiple vectors addressing: social, intellectual, navigational and the mnemonical. But that's all theory.

To give an example, I'm at a turning point in my life in which I'm deciding what to do, whether I'm going to move to a new place, figuring out what kind of job I'd like to do and I explore these areas through imagination.

What I do is I just travel to my prospective places and just see what happens. What I've noticed is that in some places I get no interactions and it's a stale experience. In others I'm being actively blocked by people/entities and they converse with me in ways that either feel negative or I lack the language to parry/counter them. And yet in other prospective pathways the doors are opening, people are warm and welcoming, pulling me further in.

In one way it's a great technique to pre-emptively explore scenarios, but I feel I'm also accessing a greater intelligence that is actively foreshadowing a negative or auspicious outcome if I would physically travel to those directions. As if I can pre-cognitively sense conflict arising on a particular pathway with its guardians blocking me, throwing up obstacles and locking all the doors.

Science doesn't really like these teleological experiments because they can't be tested and verified. Ah well. Science hasn't really been a great tool anyway to be used for the grand life decisions or with any subjective situation to begin with. For your personal life, usually n = 1, and that's not much to draw on.

But for the intuitive folks out there, 1 is all that counts.

Grand simulations to you!

Bye

P.S.: As all is bell curve out there, some people are likely able to use this technique more extensively than others. Hence, I want to furthermore again acknowledge that, even though science hasn't figured this one out yet, one should feel highly encouraged to actively use simulating future pathways for one's own benefit. I frankly haven't heard anyone speaking about it. So if you heard it here first, bless you, and don't hold back.

And apparently behavioral science reduced you to be fully determined by the past up until 2010… So, be trendy, and travel the timelines in these boring 20s.

Sources

1. https://www.prospectivepsych.org/sites/default/files/pictures/Seligman-et-al_Navigating-into-the-future-2013.pdf

I've been DCA'ing into SpaceX since the start of October 2026, about 3 months after the IPO of Elon Musk's second public company, and at the onset of the use of Starship. I believe we are currently alive in a special time, at the dawn of the Space Age, and humanity's breakthrough into becoming multiplanetary. Investing today in $SPCX is similar in buying stock in the Dutch East India Company in the early 1600s, or buying Rockefeller's Standard Oil in the 1870s or Apple. in 2008 just before the launch of the iPhone. It's an opportunity you can't miss.

First Principles

SpaceX has been in my crosshairs since 2013 when they did the first Grashopper tests. This booster landing test convinced me that the rocket company was capable of doing the impossible, making rockets reusable, lower cost of flight and making access to space cheap. On top of that, competition was and still remains at least a decade behind. Though China and Jeff Bezo's Blue Origin are investing heavily into becoming a challenger, they're lagging so hard still that SpaceX is de facto a monopoly. And who doesn't want to own a monopoly. We have all played that game. It's fun for the winner and really terrible for the competitor.

From another angle, I've always thoroughly enjoyed watching Star Trek, Babylon 5, Star Wars and other sci-fi stuff during the 90s, and that has totally set me up from a young age to believe in humanity's future in space. Me and my friends were all dreaming of going to outer space. Now it is becoming reality. Understanding that he who controls the 'high ground' is in the dominant position. Like sea vessels were the high ground hundreds years ago, so is spacethe 21st century's high ground. If you control it, you win.

Sun Tsu said, "Be before the enemy in occupying the raised and sunny grounds. He who hearkens to this advice will win. He who does not, will fail.

A similar point was made in Robert Heinlein's science fiction novel: The Moon is a Harsh Mistress. In this story Luna wins, because they sit on top of the gravity well and are able to hurtle asteroids down to Earth, gaining the high ground. It is as simple as that.

The Tipping Point Called Starship

SpaceX's workhorse has so far been the Falcon 9 rocket. Despite it having been a successful rocket it is also limited in its mass to orbit. With the advent of Starship and its final testing phase we are now at the end of 2026 entering a new step change for the rocket company. Starship's capacity is an order of magnitude larger than its predessesor, meaning it can launch 4x as much to orbit at 10% the cost, and is able to reach the the Moon and Mars with orbital refueling.

Once Starship's being put fully into service in Q1 of 2027, SpaceX will grow at an accelerated pace. This means more and bigger satellites will be put into orbit giving an order magnitude better service. This applies to Starlink, Starlink Mobile, Starmind and future unannounced constellations.

On the agenda now is Flight 15 of Starship where SpaceX will attempt to catch the upper stage (the ship), reigning in the age of full reusability. In combination with expansions outside of Starbase Texas, with launchpads now being constructed at Cape Canaveral and Louisiana, SpaceX is poised to grow into high cadence Starship launches for the coming few years.

The AI Revolution

Luckily, SpaceX has merged with Xai in February of this year and is heavily investing in developing it's own LLM, agentic bots, but also compute infrastructure. Elon Musk and his CFO Bret Johnsen have already forecasted an annual runrate of $100B at the end of this year (only $28B as of last earnings call). This means revenues are likely to quadruple in just two quarters.

Much of this is accomplished by stamping out 'Minihard' datacenters, which are the world's most cost efficient AI computing centers be built in only a matter of months. The world is strapped for compute currently, demand is only increasing, and not enough compute can be brought online quick enough. However Elon Musk has directed his engineers into mass producing these data centers and they're popping up like mushrooms from American soil. No other company is able to this at such speed and quality.

This means SpaceX will also likely become a monopolist in AI infrastructure and is already leasing it out to other companies at high margins.

Elon Musk, on his latest presentation, said:

"The wild thing is that our AI revenue will exceed all other SpaceX revenue in September, next month. … In 4 or 5 years AI will be 99% of the value of SpaceX. And the value of SpaceX will be some astronomical number."

A No Brainer

I have no doubt that SpaceX will become the largest company on the planet in the future and it will have a market cap dwarfing its current value of $2T. When that will happen, nobody knows. But at the rate they're currently building and capitalizing on the AI revolution and the rapid development of Starship, it will probably be sooner than later.

I feel most investors haven't grasped the AI infrastructure exponential growth yet and the stock will have a massive repricing to the upside before the end of 2027, maybe even before the end of 2026. But there's no rush. Investing in SpaceX will turn out to be the greatest investment in 10 years from now.

You wanted to own $AAPL before the iPhone, right? Now you want to own $SPCX before AI and Starship. Today you can buy it just under the IPO price at $149 per share before its revenues will quadruple within 4 months. I'd say that's a total bargain.

Good luck. Do your own research (TINFA). And check the Q2 2026 earnings call.

See you on the Moon! 🌙

Nobody’s talking about Bitcoin and Strategy ($MSTR), the company that is buying Bitcoin as its business model, so it’s a good time to check up on the field again. As of today Bitcoin’s price is $81,000 and seems to have escaped its potential low of this cycle at ~$58k. Though the high hopes of bear markets having come to an end were dashed, the downturn was relatively mild (54%) compared to previous Bitcoin cycles. But now what? Has Bitcoin lost its merit of being one the best performing assets in the world? Or are we still sitting on something beautiful here? Personally, I expected way more of Bitcoin last couple of years, but I’m still bullish. I believe we’re currently looking at a new bull market that will last till the second half of 2029 fueled by the treasury operations of MSTR.

How MSTR is sucking up all the supply

After the 2024 halving the mining reward is currently 450 new coins per day, which totals 164,250 freshly minted Bitcoin per year. In contrast, treasury operations at MSTR led to the purchase of 225,000 coins in 2025 (137% of supply). For 2026 YTD we have 120,000 minted coins vs 172,550 as of September 19 (144%).

In short, MSTR is outstripping mining by 40%. This means that any new Bitcoin entering the system is net unavailable and Strategy is even eating up what is sold by the broader market. It is possible that MSTR has been the main agent that has turned this bear market to a mild one.

In the earnings call Michael Saylor (chairman) mentioned that they’re still fine tuning their main credit instrument $STRC. If they can make their dividend product more efficient, stable and attractive for the markets, we can expect the Bitcoin drought to get even worse, boding well for the coming years.

Conclusions

I could riff on about more details, but I believe MSTR and its operations are the main thing to track within the Bitcoin space. If this company is buying up all the supply and more, than that’s all you need to know. Note that $STRC has only been live for a year and that it’s Saylor’s number one product that eats up the coins.

On top of that we still have all the ETFs in the market giving the broader public Bitcoin access. Most of what they accumulated since their inception on Jan 1, 2024 they still own.

This is probably a good time to re-enter the market and buy Bitcoin and MSTR and hold it for the coming two years.

I recently started editing Wikipedia to update the pages on Photosynthesis. It was an odd impulse inspired by an old book I was still carrying with me from my student days as a Bioinformatics master student. I love the subject and saw that the internet encyclopedia pages were decades behind and so I volunteered to updating them. It was not long before I met my first opposition by other editors who made my life very difficult after my first couple of edits. One month later I was already put in Wikipedia jail for the third time. It became clear to me the community was very toxic. A little bit more research exposed that the whole of Wikipedia has been fully captured and in my opinion can no longer be called a free and neutral medium.

My imprisonments were mainly related to challenging the status quo and behavior of editors. In a couple of cases I was blatantly attacked and the sense of nepotism on the platform started to become very clear. If you are not friends with the administrators and you’re a lone editor, you’re pretty much cooked despite your efforts of putting out the truth as best as one can. Wikipedia is ruled by the admins and if you are not on their side or within their political bias you have basically already lost. Instead of a decent argument, you’ll be attacked, threatened or are otherwise pointed to all kinds of regulations you need to adhere to. But a decent discussion with proper arguments is out of the question. It’s very much a hierarchical dominance you are faced with.

Ashley Rindsberg

After being jailed for the third time I investigated further and found that Wikipedia had already been deemed as captured as a whole by journalist Ashley Rindsberg who invested his time in uncovering the political dynamics on the platform.

Here are some of Ashley’s issues with Wikipedia:

• ‘Credible’ Newspaper sourcing (and the selection thereof)
• Political and media infiltration
• AI’s partial training on Wikipedia data

Example: Elon Musk

Agree with the man or not, but Elon Musk is one of the most hated people out there at the moment and his Wikipedia page serves as a great exemplar for the kind of distortions, slander and vandalism that is going on.

Many allusions are made of his affiliation to Nazism. However they all seem to stem from highly biased newspaper sources, which most would quickly point out as blatant propaganda. The whole Hitler salute thing I never bought, but it is used as argumentation. As an encyclopedia one is supposed to remain academic and neutral and clearly evaluate source material. However all these principles are thrown completely overboard. The same negative framing can be encountered on pages related to Elon Musk for instance the articles on his companies. Elon is continuously portrayed as a failure or evil person. I for one don’t buy any of this. Though I also don’t claim that the man is perfect.

I suggest you read the pages and evaluate the sources on their credibility yourself and draw your own conclusions.

First Principles—Why wouldn’t Wikipedia not have been captured?

Imagine being a politician or stakeholder in any kind institution that needs to manage public opinion. Why wouldn’t you exert influence on Wikipedia in order to spin information in your favor? It is very simple. You just start editing the pages. And the Wikipedia pages are widely viewed and is one of the most popular websites in the world with 300 billion views/year. Given the website’s popularity and its image of being free and neutral it is hence the best place to manipulate information, better than owning any newspaper.

Any institute could simply hire employees full time to take claim dominance over certain pages and topics. Next to that, Wikipedia is an non-profit organisation and dependent on donors. By financing Wikimedia Foundation it can be made liable to outside influence. Why as a newspaper or political organisation wouldn’t you get someone into a admin position at Wikipedia? Or bribe one? It sounds like a low cost high reward decision to make and an easy way to achieve political or commercial objectives. In that sense it’s very logical Wikipedia should become nothing more than a glorified newspaper and your number one pick for global propaganda. At least, for the pages that are beneficial to have manipulated in your favor.

Grokipedia—Navigating the Noosphere post-2026

Elon Musk concluded that Wikipedia had already been captured a long time ago and in 2025 launched his own alternative: Grokipedia—an AI based alternative. Human editing is completely circumvented in this online encyclopedia in order to overcome the aforementioned issues and its political capturability. Obviously this doesn’t mean we should take everything Grokipedia turns out as ‘the truth’, but at least now there’s a strong alternative available to be used to inform oneself or at least use in comparison to Wikipedia’s material.

The capture of Wikipedia shows again how critical we have to be about the information we consume. Basically, the right stance is not to trust anything and always check and read the source material. Unfortunately we don’t have the time to verify anything to the deepest level, so we all will be liable to being influenced by biased, skewed or manipulated information. But if we can’t trust what we’re reading, then why read at all? Information gathering should thus always start by being aware that what is written might possibly be false or inaccurate.

The fact that the site is edited in a biased manner, doesn’t mean Wikipedia is fully unuseful. The amount of subjective information differs by page and whomever edits that particular page. However, as a person with a university master, I find the use of newspaper sourcing absolutely reprehensible and it should not have been allowed on the platform. Not to mention the selection of which newspapers are deemed as credible by the encyclopedia overlords.

So in order to navigate the information sphere now and into the future, academic skills will remain highly important. Always check and read the source material from any encyclopedia; and make up your own mind. And know that the AI models you use also source Wikipedia’s biases.

Good luck!

And let’s pray for better alternatives in the near future.

Further Reading

• Interview with Larry Sanger, founder of Wikipedia.

You wake up one chilly morning in the future. Today is Monday April 17, 2045. Your phone is exploding. “Have you heard the latest news from China? The U.S. has got an Ion Cannon in orbit, aimed at Beijing. Trump III sanctioned the Communist regime. If they don’t unconditionally surrender, Beijing will be vaporized by the push of a button.“ You jump out of bed in panic. What’s happening? Is this WW3? Are we all going to die? Your house Optimus undocks from the charger and motions you to calm down. “Yes”, it says in a calm voice. “This…is the end.”

Rewind to 2026

SpaceX has just completed the acquisition of Xai in an all-stock purchase and four months later IPO’d to the public, raising 86 billion dollars. As the owner of both companies, Elon Musk sought to combine the interests of both corporations. Xai was in desperate need of more AI compute being restricted by expansions on land due to energy, politics, and cooling limitations. Meanwhile SpaceX was looking at new business models in order to finance their ultimate dream: Making Life Multiplanetary. And so the deal was made and Xai became a subsidiary of SpaceX.

Not long after, new plans for the Space Company got unveiled. A new satellite called Starmind, an AI data center in space is going to provide compute for the high global demand, including its own subsidiary service: the LLM Grok. In order to keep up with demand, one million orbital slots have been filed with the FCC for this novel satellite. The first version, the AI1, is scheduled to be launched in Q3 2027.

As Starmind is going to be much bigger than its little brother Starlink, the only way to bring large amounts up into orbit is through SpaceX’s newest vehicle Starship. To match current AI energy consumption at ~20GW, about 115,000 satellites need to be launched. With the expected cargo load of 100T, that means more than 2000 Starship flights are required to achieve this size of constellation. Hence, plans were unveiled for Louisiana Starbase, a new launch facility with a dozen towers, aiming at 30 Starship flights per day.

Adjacent to this project a Terafab was planned in Texas as a joint project between Tesla and SpaceX, to meet the demand for chips in both android, car, and satellite; with 80% currently aimed to supply Starmind.

Terafab will close the gap between today’s chip production and the future’s demand — a future among the stars.

So what about Doomsday?

Now that we're up to date with the latest from SpaceX, how do we end up in this CHOAM/VOC situation in which SpaceX has become militarized and is carrying out political agendas.

To be clear here, SpaceX is the legitimate owner of two things:

• The space transport system, i.e. the ride: (Starship and Falcon)
• Its own satellite constellations (Starlink and Starmind)

Anything else they’ve currently put up into orbit is not owned by them, including many governmental satellites from the U.S. and abroad. However, as SpaceX is located in the U.S. it’s obviously liable to influence by its own government to operate. The U.S. government has vested interest in being able to use Elon’s space transport system in order to achieve its own defensive, strategic and military goals. I don’t think it is Elon’s wish to enable the militarization of space, but unfortunately he has no other choice. If he wants to ‘make life multiplanetary’ then the U.S. military will also get first dibs in achieving space dominance. And they will get it.

As of September 2026 the Starshield program provides Starlink capability for the U.S. government, including additional capabilities such as target tracking, optical and radio reconnaissance, and early missile warning. The current Starshield constellation holds 241 active satellites.

Furthermore, I quote from Wikipedia, “The U.S. Congressional Research Service reports that future satellites in Starshield’s participating SDA program may wield interceptor missiles, hypersonic projectiles, or directed energy weapons, with the program’s founder adding “since Reagan’s day, technology has advanced enough that putting both sensors and shooters in space is not only possible but relatively easy.”

To top it all off, on January 27, 2025 president Trump signed an executive order directing the secretary of defense to submit a plan for the Iron Dome for America, later renamed to ‘the Golden Dome’. This is a proposed defensive constellation of thousands of satellites with anti-ICBM capabilities, rendering all nukes worthless at full capacity.

Given that SpaceX is basically already a monopoly and with China lagging at least by a decade, the ‘Star Wars’ seem to have already been decided in America’s favor.

Combined with an isolationist MAGA U.S. president, a defensive and offensive crushing space advantage will be reality within a decade or two, if not already present above our scalps today.

Space Nazism or World Peace?

Begs the question, how is this going to end? Whoever can control space, will control the Earth. If the U.S.A. will have a Golden Dome and some kind of Ion Cannon or equivalent with which they can threaten to blow up any nation without needing to fear any nuclear retaliation; well that’s basically game over, isn’t it? That will be U.S. world dominance all over again. Depending on who’ll run the show at that time, that will either come to fruition as a military dictatorship or world peace.

However, Elon Musk will remain a busy man. Parallel to this one-sided Space Race 2.0, humanoid robots are being developed and eventually trained by the AI compute from space energized by the Sun. Fully autonomous Cybercabs are, as of today, driving the streets of Austin, Texas, carrying customers around town at competitive rates. Sooner rather than later, the Optimus robots are going to be competing in the labour markets, driving down costs and putting people out of work globally. Though this would eventually lead to a world of abundance, reaching that utopic destination might be a bumpy road.

How will other nation states react when they one day wake up under a Golden Dome, a Golden Gun and two American companies having monopolized space, energy, transport, and global labour? Given all the abundance, it might be very hard to run any kind of dictatorship. The economic game will be solved. There’ll be nothing to compete for. And every human will be beaten by the machine. By the grace of America, with a single push of the button, the whole world can be equally…set free.

We’ll all give America a clap. They did it. Good job. Let’s go to the stars now.

And don’t you think Elon hasn’t thought this one properly through? The concession to militarize space might be a good short term price to pay, if the end result is the Star Trek future. The dawn of mankind 2.0, the Age of Aquarius, the true liberation may then finally begin.

Let’s just pray no country gets vaporized in the meantime.

This…is the end.

Sources

• President Trump Makes Golden Dome Announcement
• SpaceX.com — Starshield
• SpaceX.com—Starmind
• Wikipedia—Golden Dome
• Wikipedia—Starshield

Elon Musk, recently after the SpaceX IPO in 2026 and Q2 earnings call, announced a Mass Driver next to the StarMind project for launching AI-compute satellites in space. In the future, the most efficient way of doing this is to launch them from the Moon with a so-called Mass Driver. This idea is inspired from Heinlein’s asteroid slingers in from his novel The Moon is a Harsh Mistress.

Undoubtedly this can be realized. But within 10 years?

SpaceX Development History

In order to make better predictions on the future and the amount of time certain developments take, let’s first take a look at history and milestones SpaceX reached so far. With this interpretation we’ll better gauge how long it will take before future milestones will be hit, including the Mass Driver.

2002 — SpaceX founded May 6.

2006—First Falcon 1 orbit attempt on March 24.

2007—Second Falcon 1 orbit attempt on March 21.

2008—Third Falcon 1 orbit attempt on August 2.

2008—Fourth Falcon 1 achieves nominal orbit insertion on September 28.

2010—Falcon 9 v.1 maiden flight success.

2012—First Dragon Commercial Re-Supply (CRS-1) to the ISS.

2015—First successful F9 booster landing December 21.

2017—Elon Musk’s Making Life Multiplanetary speech on September 29.

2019—First StarLink satellite reaches LEO on May 23.

2019—Starship prototype Starhopper hopping-test on August 27.

2020—First Dragon crew reaches ISS on May 30.

2023—StarShip (IFT-1) maiden flight ends in explosion on April 20.

2024—StarShip + Super Heavy Booster controlled splashdown on June 6.

2024—First commercial extravehicular activity (EVA) on September 12.

2025—Booster Catch by MechaZilla.

2026—SpaceX IPO on June 26.

Upcoming Milestones

• Successful Starship catch/landing. (Sept. 15, 2026)
• First StarShip commercial payload deployment. (Sept. 15, 2026)
• First AI-satellite (StarMind) in orbit (Q4, 2027)
• First successful Orbital Propellant Transfer (ORP) (TBD)
• First Moon Flyby and Return (TBD)
• First Moon Landing (TBD)
• First Successful Moon Landing + Return (TBD)
• First Optimus on the Moon (TBD)
• First Moon crew (TBD)
• First Lunar Landing Pad (TBD)
• First Lunar Base (TBD)
• First Lunar MegaWatt produced (TBD)
• First Metal Mining on the Moon (TBD)
• First Metallurgy on the Moon (TBD)
• First Screw produced on the Moon (TBD)
• First Photovoltaic Cell produced on the Moon (TBD)
• First Satellite Production on the Moon (TBD)
• First kilometer of Mass Driver rail completed (TBD)
• First Mass Driver on the Moon (TBD)
• First successful satellite launch from MD on the Moon (TBD)

I hope you understand now that we won’t see a Mass Driver before the year 2050.

Greetings from,

the Pigeon Shaman
($SPCX shareholder)

Sources

1. Grokipedia—History of SpaceX
2. Elon Musk Q2 Side-Presentation SpaceX Plans (2026)

Last two weeks I had been caught up in adding Wikipedia pages on the topic of photosynthesis. It has always been my favorite topic at university and I couldn't bare to throw away the textbook. And so I started expanding the encyclopedia on this topic. I guess it gave me a great kick to have been able to add to the corpus of knowledge on this topic. Meanwhile I was getting into fights with other editors, and thrown into Wikipedia jail twice for being difficult. I like to add pages, but meanwhile found interactions with other humans on that platform so obnoxious. And every time they put me in jail, was actually a relief.

I understood my ego was definitely involved in this practice. I was trying to display my knowledge, trying to get recognition, trying to prove I was smart. After my second time in jail I was reading up about the developments at Spacex and Tesla and their efforts to robotize the planet. Apparently, Elon Musk himself had started a little side project out of his frustrations with human interference and thus had created Grokipedia: the AI alternative to the human-curated Wikipdia.

With a quick glance I saw Grokipedia had done way better than me and way more than I could ever catalog in my lifetime. There was no use for me in this realm anymore. Grokipedia had killed a part of me. And strangely, I had to laugh. Some part of me had died, and it exposed a deeper layer beyond my own robotic behavior: my own human self. By having lost, by being killed, I had been liberated. The identity with my mechanic self had been terminated.

Funny enough, I had written an article about this very topic on Bitcoin Magazine called: A Perfect Fight: The Battle against the Machine. In that submission I explained how Garry Kasparov and Pablo Picasso had both faced the machine and died. It is a future that awaits us all. I must have subconsciously known that that included me as well. But the ego won't go without a struggle. But it will be defeated. Today I got crunched. Tomorrow it is you. It is only a matter of time.

But that what is human will survive.

And the sooner we'll realize our personal defeats, the quicker we'll move through the pains and be born into the Next Age of human development.

P.S.: Which leaves us with the question: What is humanity? After our individual defeat in the Robot War, we'll all know.

P.S.II: This also won't mean all jobs are going to disappear. All human jobs will remain.

In de psychoanalyse van Sigmund Freud is een naderhandje (Duits: Nachträglichkeit) een “verlaat begrip of retroactieve transcendentie van een moeizame of traumatische gebeurtenis uit het verleden”. Nachträglichkeit wordt ook wel vertaald met uitgestelde actie, retroactie, après-coup, of afterwardsness.[1] Zoals een andere geleerde het samenvatte: ‘In zekere zin kan Freuds theorie van uitgesteld handelen eenvoudig worden geformuleerd: het geheugen wordt als het ware opnieuw afgedrukt in overeenstemming met het ontluikende begrip’.[2]

In modern gebruik is een naderhandje een psychosomatische ervaring van verlaat begrip, emotionele ontknoping en integratie van onverwerkte gebeurtenissen.

Geschiedenis en ontwikkeling van de term

Freud

Het psychoanalytische concept van het naderhandje verscheen aanvankelijk in Freuds geschriften in de jaren 1890 in de gangbare vorm van het Duitse bijvoeglijk naamwoord-bijwoord “daarna” of “uitgesteld” (nachträglich): zoals Freud schreef in het onvoltooide en niet-gepubliceerde “A Project for a Scientific Psychology” uit 1895, ‘een herinnering wordt onderdrukt pas na de gebeurtenis een trauma is geworden’. De theorie van uitgestelde actie was echter al [openbaar] naar voren gebracht door Freud in de Studies naar Hysterie (1895)[3], en in een artikel uit 1898 werkt hij het idee van de uitgestelde actie verder uit: ‘het pathogene effect van een traumatische gebeurtenis die zich in de kindertijd voordoet… dat zich retrospectief manifesteert wanneer de volwassene een nieuwe fase van ontwikkeling bereikt’.[4]

Voorbeeld

Zie ook

• Taalleemte
• Zen

Bronnen, noten en/of referenties

1. Teresa de Lauretis, Freud’s Drive: Psychoanalysis, Literature and Film (Basingstoke 2008), p. 118
2. Adam Phillips, On Flirtation (London 1994), p. 33
3. Sigmund Freud, Case Histories II (London 1991), p. 278n
4. Jean-Michel Quinodoz, Reading Freud (London 2006), p. 34

Een Hap Brad Pitty (HPB) is de alchemische term voor de transformatie van een rituele handeling die saai, repetitief, of ouderwets is geworden, zodoende er een nieuw leven in te blazen dan wel ‘er weer zin in’ te krijgen. De HPB vind zijn oorsprong in het verjaardagsritueel maar kan worden geïmplementeerd voor elke onbewuste en repeterende serie handelingen.

Alchemie

De term is een onzuivere anagram van ‘Happy Birthday’, maar fysiek toch degelijk te bewerkstelligen tijdens een verjaardag wanneer het ‘H’ kaarsje van de verjaardagstaart wordt geknakt en hersmolten naar een ‘T’. Deze alchemische handeling kan worden voltooid met behulp van een aansteker, lucifer, of reeds brandende kaars. Mocht het bij de eerste keer niet lukken, dan rest er nog een tweede en laatste poging met de extra ‘Y’ (niet ideaal). Mocht het bij de tweede keer ook niet zijn gelukt dan is zowel de verjaardag als de HPB volledig in de soep gelopen.

Zodra alle letters zijn ontstoken proclameren alle genodigden luidkeels “HAP BRAD PITTY!!!”, waarop de verjarende de kaarsen in één adem uitblaast en vervolgens meteen (met zonder handen) een hap uit de taart neemt.

Historie

Volgens Prof. Dr. B. Sudderbout kwam in 2010 de allereerste Hap Brad Pitty spontaan tot stand op de 20e verjaardag van V. Wouters te Nijmegen en werd deze geïnspireerd door de Griekse godin Vesta[1] die zich via één van de genodigden wist te channelen. Sindsdien is het een optionele handeling geworden op verjaardagspartijen binnen spirituele en academische kringen.

Gebruiksmiddelen

Verjaardagskaarsjes zijn anno 2026 nog bij de Albert Heijn, Action en Hema te verkrijgen. Let op dat u wel de letterkaarsjes koopt en niet de standaard kaarsvorm.[2]

Zie ook

• Brad Pitt

Bronnen, noten en/of referenties

1. (en) Hamilton, Edith (1942). Mythology. Little, Brown and Company. ISBN 9780446574754. Geraadpleegd op 28 augustus 2026.
2. Verjaardagskaarsen | 26 stuks diverse kleuren. Geraadpleegd op 28 augustus 2026.

Over the last years I've written a lot about healing, shamanism and abandonment. I was abandoned by my father when I was 3 and my mother was quite helpless at the time to. So that experience had lasting impacts on me. Only recently I've been able to reconnect to the deeper layers of that loss. Perhaps better formulated: I've become more aware of the feelings, but I actively repressed them. And for good reason. Because they're top-tier difficult feelings.

I've been able to observe the emotional state I was in when I was 3. Most psychologist would classify it as abandonment. But in my experience that word doesn't cover the full depth and breadth of feelings. Being my best biologist I've now described the physiological state to the best of my ability:

1. Emotional overwhelm
2. Time Distortion
3. Feelings of loss, abandonment, banishment, forsakenness.
4. A contraction in the head (nape of the neck).
5. Dissociation

First of, the state is one of emotional overwhelm. There's a tendency to really want to get out of the state, to escape it, numb it, repress it. It's literally too much.

Second, the experience of time alters. This is common in trauma where time slows down or comes to a complete standstill. Gerry Sternes has made valuable contributions to my understanding of this in the shamanic sense. Trauma is a form of soul loss where a piece of essence of the individual is trapped in time and space. In my case a piece is helplessly trapped in 1989 and that piece (inner child) believes it will always remain there.

Thirdly, this adds onto the time distortion/standstill where feelings of abandonment fall too short. Rather, it's abandonment in its most extreme form, as in biblical proportions. The sense of banishment or forsakenness is more apt in my experience. You don't feel as if just one person has abandoned you. No, the whole world has turned its back on you. Given that parents are the world for a 3y/o, this makes complete sense. Psychologists have also termed this abandonment melange. This constitutes a combination of feelings, also including helplessness and panic.

I can mostly feel the pain of this state in my head, mostly in the area around the nape of the neck. I wouldn't describe it as a migraine. It's more like a contraction. Also, some pain can be felt in the chest.

Finally, re-experiencing abandonment trauma can concur with dissociation. As the pain of the experience overwhelms the neurological system, the person might experience a reality disconnect at times.

Alchemical Resolution

All in all the experience of reliving the forsakenness is quite nasty. It was then and it is still today when I reconnect to it. But I feel I'm making some progress. The state wants to be transformed into sadness.

Part of the trauma of the child is its inability to communicate through words. Now, that shouldn't necessarily lead to trauma. But when adequate emotional care lacks for the child, it will have no other way to non-verbally internalize the state: repression, addiction, numbing, etc..

But now in adulthood, the state can be changed to speak about it. If one can connect to the distress and verbalize the hurt. For instance just by saying that 'my father has abandoned me' to other people, the pain can be alchemized to sadness and tears.

Also, just by saying out loud that you feel lonely or abandoned at that very moment, may help you snap out of it.

I'm still new to expressing myself like this, but I feel it's slowly digesting the trauma. By being able to feel all the nasty feelings and telling the world about it, and the tears come, my system is finally clearing.

I’m reminded of Martín Prechtel, a surviving Mayan shaman from Guatemala, who advocated for the verbose expression of grief.

Induction & Journeying

One of the ways I get into the past of the Middle World is to listen to the music that was on the radios during the time of the trauma. Mine occurred late 80s early 90s. I preferably listen to Level 42, because a lot of their songs convey those times in terms of loss. Whether that’s really in those songs I don’t know, but it doesn’t matter, because I associate that music with that period which was wrought in loss. If it invokes any emotion related to that time, it’s doing its job and suited for journeying. The music offers a portal to the unconscious and unprocessed emotions. The fragments that are ready to be looked at shall appear.

This process of examination is highly non-linear. In my experience you’re receiving the memories in order of severity. The ones easiest to handle you’ll get first. If you’re able to look at those, feel them, and complete a loop and integrate, only then a deeper layer will open up and present itself. You’ll know when it’s a deeper layer, because the memories presented will be new, richer, more detailed, longer ago, more severe, but they’ll have a weird familiarity to them. They had always been playing around in the back of your mind, but now they’re being pulled onto the front stage.