The world we live in today feels more divided than ever. Polarization runs deep, with both sides often unable — or unwilling — to see the humanity in the other. It’s easy to lose hope when every conversation seems to turn into a battlefield of egos and ideologies. Even when you approach with respect and sincerity, you’re met with resistance, misunderstanding, or outright hostility.

From my in the middle perspective we have deep polarization on both ends of the spectrum. Lower vibrational interpreters of our 3D world so very asleep and caught up in their own lack of awareness and what they believe is right. Sorry if that offends you and if it does my hope is to inspire some deep reflection within you for the greater good of our species.

Maybe it’s my intense pursuit in search for answers and truth that I’ve embarked upon in this life time through all the psychedelics I’ve utilized. Sigh, It is just so challenging for me engaging with the normal frames of consciousness because they seem so lost. I say that as humbly as I possibly can, judge me if thats what your ego feels compelled to do. Hope at time feels lost for them but I reflect and continue to believe in them and their potential to awaken for the greater good of our species.

Thats why I’m persevering to write this despite the risk of back lash and having family members see this and disapprove. I’m afraid to hit the publish button, but I must if I truly want to walk the walk of working towards bringing our divided species into unity.

I recently found myself reflecting a lot on this after a simple Facebook comment resulted in accusations and blame. It hit me deep on a collective level with people so far gone in their belief systems it left me wondering: How are we supposed to move forward as a species when we’re so far divided, clinging tightly to “us vs. them”? My 3D self, the part of me tethered to this chaotic reality, couldn’t see a way forward.

But there’s something deeper in all of us — something that can.

I believe we are capable of transcending this division. It won’t happen through more arguments or debates, but through something far greater: compassion, creativity, and collective intention. It’s about each of us holding the vision of a better world, even when it feels impossible.

When I couldn’t see the path forward with my logical mind, I turned to prayer and no not the bible thumping christian kind of prayer.

I’m a recovering catholic by the way!

More of a moment of stillness of reflection with intention. As I drew deep breathe after deep breathe I became more still. I sincerely asked of what ever higher intelligence is out there for humanity to find its way, to awaken to the possibility of a new world where we no longer define ourselves by what divides us. A vision I’ve held onto for years but really needed help with in that moment.

These questions I asked and the answers I felt within reminded me that healing starts within and it starts with every single one of us. If I want to see unity in the world, I have to cultivate it in my own heart and emanate it outward. As I write this I’ve refrained from commenting a response due to the polarization of attacks that I am receiving and it was just a couple, nothing insane but certainly reminders where those highly polarized on the left side of things are very much stuck.

For the record yes many on the right side of the political spectrum are just as stuck in their bullshit too! This blog post will be my response. I am grateful to the humans that are attacking me because it has inspired me to create in the form of this writing that I feel can have more impact on our collective consciousness than a snarky facebook comment could ever have.

I’m also grateful to my cousin who has been mediating from a very grounded and respectful place. They are seeking to understand and have defended me to some extent from those lashing out from their polarized place and lack of understanding. I tend to resist in engaging in political social media but with their post seeking greater understanding I just felt compelled to respond. I even regretted it to some degree after seeing the back lash from people I don’t even know but ultimately I’m glad I spoke up. Ruby you rock for facilitating constructive conversation between people that have different points of views!

You are so amazing for creating a post and then being firm about what the space was for. So many people on both sides of the political spectrum want to lash out, point fingers and blame and it’s not constructive. I commend you for taking the higher ground!

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I do want to take the time to address the attacks and respond in a respectful way here and not on Facebook so if you are one of the few who attacked me please read carefully and thoughtfully consider the thoughts that may be outside of your reconfirmation bias bubble.

For the record I believe in privacy so I will be redacting everyone’s private information, I will be green because it’s my favorite color, nice people will be blue because it’s my 2nd favorite color and the people who verbalized their opposing views will be red because it’s definitely not my favorite color, and it’s also the color of republicans so that makes me laugh inside. You’re welcome for protecting your privacy!

Here is Ruby’s original Post:

Again I wanted to resist commenting but I appreciate what they are doing here so much I just had to say something, plus they are my cousin and I love them forever unconditionally no matter what! I hope any other family members reading this with differing views feel the same about me.

This was my response:

Love you Ruby! and Jamie thanks for the validation even though it’s just my opinion, my ego truly knows nothing. There is no wrong, there is no right but 3D me appreciates it. Thank you. :)

Now for my response to the people who I am of the belief are coming from a lower vibrational state. Nothing wrong with this, it’s just something we can shine light on and hopefully transmute into something more unified than its current state of separation, fear and probably a culmination of many other primal emotions that are not serving the greater good of all.

First off I’m going to attempt to not go into too much political depth here because this blog post would never end but it will be difficult so be warned that I will touch on some political aspects here. I will do my best to respond respectfully and then address the deeper root of the comments so we can all grow together.

Discerning Misinformation in a World of Misinformation

Russell, thank your exposing your need to be right and for me to be wrong. That tells a lot, I can also defer a very polarized stance that leans heavily to the left. Your use of the word “misinformation” is an indication of the narrative and “misinformation” that your frame of awareness is currently entangled in. For the record those are my genuine words formed from my own opinion and experience, not what I’ve seen or read online, thanks for assuming, your assumption aids me in gleaning insight as to where you are.

Just so you know I voted for Biden in 2020 because I was so enthralled in the fear tactics and “misinformation” the left was throwing at me! So I can empathize and relate to where you are coming from. Those are my words formed from what I have witnessed in complete incompetence over the last 4 years from Biden and Company.

I also want to point out I have a very left leaning past. I was a top performing canvasser at Greenpeace for 3 years literally persuading people on a daily basis to give money to environmental and left leaning causes I believed in at the time. I also voted for Bernie in the 2016 and 2020 primaries and felt betrayed by the Democrats both times. The 3rd time the left leaning establishment betrayed me was with RFK Jr. in the 2024 election. That’s when it become apparent to me that the left was the most undemocratic and dangerous political entity. Even when that became apparent to a life long Democrat RFK Jr. who dropped out and told me to vote Trump, even then I still did not vote for Trump. I didn’t vote for RFK either but I did vote.

I’m sure many reading this are thinking “Oh but RFK is an anti-vaxxerr”. If you are it is indication of the compromised state of your mind. There is a significant effort mostly from the left to discredit him. If you follow the money a lot of these people have financial interests rooted in pharmaceuticals and agriculture. The corporate capture of politicians is very real. I imagine you are thinking “oh no thats the only on the right”, sorry to inform you but it’s very real on the left. If you actually listen to the man he talks a lot of sense. You’d have to be very polarized not to agree and if you are thats okay but it’s not helping the greater good so wake up.

I’m not denying that right-wing propaganda twisting the truth exists but my perspective is there is an equal if not potentially greater effort to fool and mislead the public from the left side of things. If there is a shadow government It appears to be rooted much in the left side of our government but I’m sure it exists in the right as well. I’ll refrain from using the word Deep State, I don’t want to trigger anybody. It’s the puppet masters behind the curtain that are the true threat to our nation and our planet, not the left or right side ideologies. If anything the shadow government is twisting both sides as they have been dividing and conquering us for decades. If you are allowing yourself to be polarized heavily to one side or the other you are falling right into their hands.

The left side ideologies all sound great yet they mislead people into believing they are the right ones. Equality, Social Justice, Environmentalism, all the things that you would rationally think are good things are all disguises for a darker agenda and control of our minds. These ideologies are still good but the people pulling the strings are not. Take it from someone who was brainwashed in network marketing for several years of his youth. It was a very painful part of my life and a valuable lesson to question everything and see past the true intentions of what we are being told. I write this urging people not to convert to the right but to instead wake up and question everything you ever thought to be true. A battle for our minds exists and it is imperative that on a collective level we become far more discerning and seek truth. The further divided we are the further lost we are as a species.

Misinformation is a word the left uses heavily for anything that doesn’t fit the narrative they are crafting. Russell, I imagine you are very caught up in that narrative like so many others, I empathize as so was I at one point. It’s my experience in what I see living in a very blue city and state that there is a lot more hate coming from the left than what I see from those on the right, many more calls for violence and racism. I saw someone wearing a blue team hat just the other day calling to assassinate the guy. By giving into the hate whether you hate the left or the right, ether way you are falling for it. As wise Yoda once said “Hate leads to the dark side.” The left is no exception to falling for it despite the right being labeled the hateful ones.

And you may think to yourself what racism? One example is all this DEI stuff I’ve been exposed to over the last decade which is in my opinion racism disguised as anti racism. And no, this is not some “misinformation” that I’m reading online, that’s my experience as a “cisgender privileged white straight male” or whatever people feel the need to identify me without my consent. I have endured racism and sexism in multiple facets in my personal and work life when I had nothing do with being white or male, I was born this way and people just assume that I’m straight, wow so privileged I know. I’m not saying racism and hate doesn’t exist on the right but I see a lot of hypocrisy from those outraged on the left right now. Russell if you are reading this, I thank you for being here and considering my words.

Another thing I want to mention is my little brother died of Fentanyl poisoning laced in his Ketamine in January 2024 at 34 years old. I miss the shit out of him everyday and my heart is struck with sadness on a daily basis. I don’t know all the details of the Fentanyl crisis but I do feel the likelihood of that being in his drugs would have been much less if our borders hadn’t been left wide open. Judge him as an addict if you must but that was my little brother and that happened under the watch of the Biden Administration.

Voting out of FEAR and Transcending it

Cat, your comment is in effect shaming me for having gay friends and not voting for your candidate. How entitled can one be to expect someone who doesn’t vibe with either candidate that their team is entitled to that vote just because the person they are voting against is just so bad and so evil??? I have gay friends, so what? Voting against someone out of fear is not the way to the vote. You are voting for what I believe to be the wrong reasons, again thats my opinion, there is no right or wrong here. I don’t blame you, I fell for the vote out of fear campaign in 2020. Just never again will I and it’s my hope that you and millions more will never fall for it again either.

Just so you know, I live in a blue state. It ultimately didn’t matter for your side of things but what does matter is my free will choice. Swing state or not it’s my vote, not yours, not the blue team’s and to you and those shaming people shifting blame to non voters what makes you think that Kamala is someone they wanted to vote for in the first place? Many people who voted blue did so reluctantly cause they felt that was their only choice.

And by the way I did vote, just not for the lesser evil like so many polarized individuals did. I refuse to reluctantly vote for someone I don’t believe in. Oh no now we have a big bad Trump and it’s all the non voters faults. No I would argue it’s the previous administrations fault for showing up so poorly for the American people. They pretended Biden was still sharp as a tack with no signs of mental decline until there was no denying it at the first debate. That’s when your party gave you no choice but Kamala, so democratic huh? The DNC straight up lied to all of us yet so many still blindly voted for them.

So no Cat I will not be shamed by you for not voting for your candidate. I don’t love Trump but you can’t deny the guy is taking more action than Biden ever did. I don't agree with every action but there is nothing I can do about it. But I can write this blog post advocating for unity. Protesting or resisting is counter productive.

What you resist, persists.

Wether you voted for him or not now it’s his job now to fix the country, so I sure as hell hope he does a better job than the last guy. He wasn’t amazing in his first 4 years but it sure seemed like we weren't involved in any wars during that time and I’m sick of our country participating in foreign wars I want nothing to do with. I don’t know how far reaching the impact of this change will be but I do know is that change is in fact happening. And change is what we need more than anything to catalyze our species forward toward what I believe is possible… A world that works for everyone.

And remember it’s only 4 years, it’ll be over quick, but one thing for sure is our world is radically shifting and changing before our eyes and its going to be a very different world 10 years from now. I can only hope the change is positive. I believe we have the potential for drastic positive change on this planet in our lifetimes. We just need more people believing that than those who believe the opposite.

America under Trump may suck for all I know but it sucked under Biden too and I’m sick of the same old bullshit. I’m sick of the corruption that exists in our government since before I was born. I don’t know if Trump will weed it out, perhaps he will create more if it. All I know is thats its part of the trajectory of our planet and the more we resist the harder it will be so go with the flow and accept that change is the only constant we have and it’s necessary for growth. Remember this time around more and more people are sick of the bullshit the democrats are bringing to the table than those who wanted more of it. That’s why its an election, so the American people can choose and from the results they absolutely chose.

Also I want to be clear. I am not for the right, but I am certainly fed up with left at this point in my life. I know for certain I am not the only peace loving hippie that feels that way.

“Wether you are right-wing or left-wing you are still a one winged bird flapping around in circles.” — Yours Truly

Transcending FEAR

Back to the gay stuff. Some of my gay friends are in fact terrified but I’m asking questions and being curious working to help them to realize they don’t need to be. I feel there is a lot of fear being thrown around especially from the left. Some of the things I hear is they think they will be persecuted or fired for being gay, rounded up, put in camps made into slaves or whatever crazy fear mongering media they are being exposed to that just isn’t true.

Sure Trump rolled back some federal protections but honestly can’t we all just be equal? Being a white male I never had any protections and I’ve been okay even despite the racism I’ve experienced. Sure I should check my privilege at the door right? But I’m so damn tired of all these identity politics! I’m also tired of the act of being white equalling something I’m supposed to be ashamed of. If I wanted to celebrate being white I’d immediately be labeled a racist but other races get to have whole month in celebration of what they are. That’s inequality on a societal level but any acknowledgment of that makes me a bigot. Why should I have to be ashamed of what I am? I shouldn’t have to be and thats firm. As humans we all carry enough shame and trauma as it is so please no more of this shaming others for the color of their skin or their gender. I hope thats something we can all agree on.

I’m of the belief my gay friends are going to be just fine, and sure you can say easy for you to say you’re not effected Matt. The truth is you have no idea how I may or not be effected. But I can tell you that in fact one of my buddies just got promoted 2 days ago at work. Can you believe it? A gay person got promoted in a post Trump world. You know why they got promoted? Because they are fucking amazing at what they do! Not because they’re gay, not because of their gender or race but purely because they are a badass and well deserving of that promotion. We need more of this and less of giving people special treatment because their identity falls into a special category. Where I work is nice, they don’t practice Diversity through Exclusion. I’m of the belief those words define DEI so much more than what it pretends to be.

Sadly even with his recent promotion he is still scared of what Trump as president could mean for him and his community. I feel for him. I’m trying to help him move out of that fear but he is so enthralled in the leftist brainwashing he is really struggling with it. But I continue to care about him and I check in with him regularly.

If you are gay and scared, I empathize I really do but I ask you to not let fear rule your world. If you haven’t heard all FEAR is just FALSE EVIDENCE APPEARING REAL. You are still a living, breathing, beautiful human just the way you are. But if you choose to let FEAR rule you as I have in the past it will be your master until you decide to rise above it. Easier said than done I know. So seek truth by going deep within and do the work to stop allowing external sources of fear to rule your mental space.

Thats the end of my soap box. When I commented on Ruby’s post I had no idea it would lead me here. I almost didn’t finish this post because I didn’t feel I had the time to write it and I was scared of the potential back lash but it was a good process for me. It even inspired some lyrics I have jotted down for a song titled “Transcend the Divide” I’m still working on putting music to it.

Ultimately I’m grateful to the people I don’t know at all that responded with their polarized opinions because now I have a blog post that I hope positively impacts somebody or many somebodies and a song to work on with the intention of even greater impact. And Ruby I’m grateful to you and proud of you for creating constructive dialogue between people of differing perspectives. That took courage and we need more of that in this world!

Also Ruby I hope my article has answered some of your questions on your post even though I’m not a Trump supporter, you know the east coast side of our family absolutely is and I was raised by them after all. I do want to give my parents credit for being the most kind hearted, tolerant, fully vaccinated conservatives I’ve ever known.

A Higher Calling For Us All

This is where art comes in. Music, writing, creativity — these are powerful tools to bridge the divide. They bypass the defenses of the mind and speak directly to the soul. They remind us of our shared humanity, our dreams, our pain, and our potential. So please feel your souls, feel your pain, feel your fears, hopes and dreams and bring them up from deep within to share with your fellow humans so we can all connect on what makes us human. We are all capable of such beauty and if we can come together and heal that which divides we are unstoppable as a species.

I don’t have all the answers. Some days, the vision feels distant, like an echo I can barely hear. But I know this: every prayer, every song, and every small act of love is a step forward. The path may be unclear, but it’s there, waiting for us to walk it together.

So I’ll keep praying. I’ll keep creating. And I’ll keep believing that we can rise above this. Because the future is ours to shape — and I refuse to let division be its defining feature.

I believe in a world that works for everyone!

Much love and gratitude for every spark of humanity that played a part in shaping this blog post. Keep being you, keep an open heart, Keep an open mind, be open to growth and new perspectives and just shine you beautiful humans shine!

~Matty BOOMBOOM

This the part where you rip me a new one in the comments for not confirming your biases. Knock yourself out… or just take a deep breathe and reflect on how we all can do better as a species. How are you going to show up? Are you going to create unity or further fuel the fire of division?

Again, much love and thank so much for reading this far!

And as a P.S. if you haven’t done a shit load of psychedelics in pursuit of truth, asking the tough questions that have the potential to completely shatter your understanding of reality as you know it… I’m not telling you should, but I will tell you it changed my life and I’m forever grateful to these tools of discovery.

P.S.S. If for any reason you think I’m coming across as thinking I’m better than others. No, My ego knows nothing. But one thing my ego certainly is, is really fed up with the stupidity of my species when I know we are capable of such greatness.

Damn, look at that beautiful home we all have in common.

My little brother died on 1/17/24. Its been so fucking hard but I’ll write about that later.

I’m still working the JOB but I got promoted and now work only 32 hours a week and have finally after now being in my 5th year of trading making some small wins and not losing money.

I got extra time now to pursue supplementing my freedom.

I was inspired to write this cause I just applied to tinker at the Makers Space at ETH Denver this year and the application asked for a website link. I still own the domain http://vibrationofawesome.com and of course that just forwards to my somewhat dormant Medium blog.

I love ETH but Solana has been sick and being an American tired of using VPNs to access overseas exchanges for leverage trading I now have been utilizing the fully decentralized perp trading from my own self custody wallet on http://Jup.ag to no more than 3.3x smart leverage trades. Yes I’m playing it safe!

My goal of $250 extra to make up for it my 5th day not working is working out some weeks. Also trying not to over trade. Check out my results. Not bad for someone taking it slow and been practicing for nearly 5 years now.

I believe eventually I will be making thousands extra per week but gotta be smart. Just last week I was down over $2,000 through ought an 8 day trade. I kept a level head then got out just below breakeven at a price of $201 only to see the price go to $295 within 4 days later. So that killed me a little bit but cant lose my mind over missed trades. Here is a snap shot of my trade journal below.

Regardless of all this the sad reality that the one trader I have learned the most from is a huge piece of shit. Yeah I’m talking about Philakone. Dude is so smart but what an egocentric lunatic. I’ve been through all of his paid courses multiple times. Poured years into learning his trading style yet he cant even treat his students with respect. I called him out and he immediately blocked me on facebook. This was the comment that did it! Don’t mind me hiding my fb identity, its a small account I don’t make public.

He even did it a couple years ago in his paid discord group cause I said something that harmed his fragile little bitch ego. Dude has to live in a self contained bubble to feel okay about himself and cant take any critique even its for his own good. Bro was so fucking cracked out one time he shared a picture of his tiny dick in a FleshLight to the paid discord group. If you don’t know what that is, it’s a fake vagina sex toy thing…

True story, what a psycho. Oh well time to continue progressing in life and I will surpass him in so many ways. I already have, just not trading yet, But I will and his comment is fuel to my fire! I’m armed with education, earned trading experience and the fact that I am good person with a good heart and humility. Something he’ll never have, but I only pray one day he will have. I want all humans to be happy in this world regardless of what a fuck head they are.

So life is progressing, I’m not as poor as I used to be. I’m beginning to make money trading and its helping pay the bills! My little brother is dead from Fentanyl in his Ketamine so that sucks every day and grief comes in out of nowhere. But in good news I haven’t had a drink since 2 Aprils ago and I’m damn near 3 weeks 100% sober from everything and I feel good.

RIP BIG DAWG, I love you and miss the shit out of you.

If you think I’m cool, subscribe and clap and all that jazz and I will write more. Thanks for kicking it with me to the very end.

Love, Peace and chicken grease.

Matty BOOM BOOM

Covid happened, I worked super hard with that time with no job pursuing trading so that I’d never have to work again…

Things got in the way that prohibited a true success, but there was no shortage of effort spent and lots of lessons learned. The crypto bull market came and I didn't sell when I had over $100k in value.. It ain’t worth near what it was and I lost a lot of it the process of dumb decisions…

…Celsius & Luna ring a bell? You’re not the only one, find comfort in that.

Now I’m working a JOB and have been since late 2021, 40 hours a week, decent benefits and the most I’ve ever made in my life $48k/yr. But I only see 62% of that after taxes and 401k. Sometimes I think 401k is a waste to invest in with the future our generation is being handed to us… I certainly make way more than I ever take home. Taxes are only 22% of that but still I feel poor and I feel stuck.

I split a 480 square foot apartment with my partner, it’s cramped. Been here since before Covid, moving to a place of equal or better is significantly higher in rent so were stuck here and seeing a way out is hopeful, but challenging and then hope destroying.

I get home from work and I’m wiped, the mental energy is just not there to put towards pursuing my dreams, trading, music, art or really anything else. I’ll waste hours after work playing a video game cause its about all my brain can handle after standing on my feet all day dealing with all the people I have to deal with.

The weeks and months go by and I’m getting older, I’m a 37 year old millennial with what feels like nothing to show for it. I write this just to process my feelings and also maybe align with other humans that are in a similar boat… In fact so many humans are in a much worse place and I do have to be grateful for what I have but I’m not truly happy, I’m not living the life I feel I’m meant to create for myself.

My worst fear is to wake up one day at the end of my life and feel my life passed me by and I never truly stepped into my purpose in this world. I’ve always felt a deep intuitive calling to do something incredible in this world that will make a difference to all the suffering and bullshit humanity endures… but perhaps thats just my ego wanting to feel special and important.

But still I know I’m special and unique, I bring something to this world that only I can… I have that special sauce and so badly do I wish to cover the world in it. I can’t help but feel called to a greater purpose yet the life I’m living is not representing what I have felt in my gut for years that it’s supposed to be.

But I’m just a 3rd dimensional being, what do I know? Anything I think I know the universe has a knack for kicking my teeth in to show me it’s the opposite.

The ego knows nothing…

Maybe I’m just in limbo and my true life is waiting for me to make it happen… I just feel stuck at the moment, not enough time, energy or money to break free from the pull of gravity and into orbit.

In the last day I came down with a cold and had to swallow my pride and call out for work, ( I never call out, it’s not my style). Today I had to, I was just too much under the weather… It was a blessing. This post wouldn’t be written had I not got sick. I’m spending a day on my computer learning and pursuing my dreams, but its just today… Work will come again and the weeks will fly by and progress will seem limited.

I’ve got to break free financially but I have to work this job because it’s the most stable thing I’ve ever had that actually provides a base level of income. I’m just budgeted to the max and I feel poor and way too time poor to take the right actions long enough to break free.

Since I first turned 20 years old I have been pursuing greatness, spent countless years, money and effort in pursuit of freedom only to end up here towards the end of my thirties in regret and sadness with less gusto… It wasn’t supposed to be like this.

I can proudly say that I have failed forward more than anyone I know.

This opinion of myself in comparison to others is subjective and completely my own but I know it’s true. I have tried and tried so damn hard and have only life experience and lessons learned from such pursuit while so many others placed it safe.

My dad still believes in me.

He said to me a few weeks ago he is excited to see what I do with the rest of my life. The greatest successes in the world were the ones who took risk after risk and failed time and time again… He sees me as one of those successes in the making. I can only hope he is right.

I’m one resilient stubborn individual and I will always get back up no matter how many times I fall.

I’m just tired and my bones hurt…

But I cant stop believing and I cant stop moving forward even though my progress right now is slow and I am time/money poor.

I’ve got a good job, it doesn't pay a lot but it gives me stability… This stability may be exactly what I need for the time being. I just need a way to make more than my job provides, I’ve got to hack this life of mine and my waking hours of the day. My dreams are so much greater than working for a paycheck.

I just have to find a way to make it happen.

At least I have these beautiful baby kitties in my life and I get to snowboard!

If you think I’m cool, subscribe, clap or both. I’m going to try to write more because it helps me process my own ish.

Thanks for reading.

There is a friend of mine from back in my internet marketing days that I recently reconnected with. I invited him to a group chat where some friends and I share ideas and talk about cool stuff.

Back when I met my friend we were involved in something called Empower Network, it was an incredible experience except for the fact that it turned out to be a scam in the end. I still don’t believe it started out that way. The intentions were good and everyone from the top to bottom except maybe a few believed we were going to positively change the world.

I learned a lot over that time and now a days my entrepreneurial pursuit has not ceased but only changed directions into the world of trading cryptocurrencies. I wish to be free and have an unlimited existence, crypto is a realistic path I see to that realization.

In our chat we talk a lot about crypto as it’s something some of us are passionate about figuring out. My other friend however seems to have some blocks around the idea of creating wealth even though he has pursued financial freedom in the past.

He appears to me to be of the mindset that we can change the world not through capitalism but through minimalism. Honestly I’m probably not entirely accurate on what his mindset is and I’m sorry in advance if I butcher your perspective if you are reading this. But I’ve noticed a lot of his questions and comments almost seeming to be in opposition to our desire to create wealth in our lives.

He has mentioned the concepts of Universal Basic Income and Resource Based Economy which are both two things I am very much for and believe in. But I think there is more to transitioning from our current capitalistic world then than just handing everyone money every month to survive. Work will have to be put in to recreate this world into one that works for everyone. The current system is in high opposition of any recreation of it’s current self. I don’t see it going away quietly.

So here are some thoughts I shared in response to some questions, keep in mind there is a longer stream of conservation before this where we were talking about inflation, the system, feeling like an underdog in this world, etc.

My Friend wrote:

What if the lawmakers made a rule that anyone who provides food, water, shelter can no longer raise prices? And then threw in a UBI. Wouldn’t that effectively end poverty?

I don’t think the whole system needs to crash and burn. Just the shitty parts.

The selfish and inhumane parts

What do you think ‘earning a fortune in crypto’ will allow you to do that you can’t currently do?

Being the underdog requires there being someone else who is the favorite. Who would you say has been the favorite while you’ve been ‘the underdog’?

And going back to my original question, what if the ‘free market’ is actually the very thing that creates poverty/starvation to begin with? Since people aren’t incentivized to keep prices affordable, many price services so high that only the middle-upper class can afford them. What do you think then happens to the lower class?

IMO it becomes a rat race where the lower class try their hardest to get into the middle-upper class, just so they can afford the things that they were priced out of. In this scenario the lower class is ‘the underdog’ and statistically most will never get out of that underdog status. But what if they were never priced out of their basic necessities to begin with? Would they even play that game or ever feel like the underdog? What if they just had a better quality of life living in relative poverty, but they at least had their basic human needs met? What would be the harm in that?

What if, having nothing to prove and having no underdog story to actualize, they simply did what they wanted to with their lives?

How much better of a world do you think we’d live in, if everyone was doing what they wanted to do, rather than what they felt they HAD to do?

In response I wrote this:

It would be an absolutely beautiful world, one I dearly hope we can achieve. Escaping this current paradigm of survival; I feel one needs there oxygen mask fully secured before the work to create this new world can be done. Being so limited as the majority of us are stifles creativity and the ability to work for the greater good of all. Maslow’s hierarchy of needs; base needs must be met before we can thrive… How do we shift into a world where that is reality for 100% of our population?

My friend then wrote:

IMO like I’ve said before, with UBI & thru embracing simplicity/self-reliance. My monthly cost of living has been consistently between $500-$1000 per month for the last 3 years. If everyone learned to live on less plus a UBI, all needs would be met indefinitely.

The thing about an oxygen mask is people confuse wants with needs. If people actually figured out what ‘enough’ is for them, they’d find it’s a lot less than they think…and therefore the oxygen mask usually costs less than they initially think.

And in response to that I wrote:

Not everyone wants to live with less and I’m one of them. I do believe your message could inspire people to live a more simple route the way you choose, especially if you show them it’s possible by doing so through example… A lot of minimalist inspire me by their ways of living, and I do what I can to minimize the clutter in my existence. There are a lot of unnecessary things money can buy we don’t need in our lives. But personally I feel very limited living on so little. I don't want to leave Colorado, I have to pay to stay here. Oxygen masks are different for everyone. I need a large expansive one, I’m grateful for unemployment, it’s basically welfare at the moment and its enabling me to finally have my oxygen secured in a way I’ve never known. But it’s not going to last, the extra benefits have now expired and a part of me feels a lot more pressure to ensure my survival asap. In a way, this recent unemployment blessing has been a form of basic income that I was fortunate to receive. Everyone deserves this, a basic secure source of income, I almost feel guilty for being so fortunate while so many others are hurting right now. I’ve used this security to work on myself and further secure myself for the future ahead. Even having a basic income, I’m not content, I need to do more and I feel most people would pursue more out of life if they had a basic income, I doubt most would just settle for $1000/month or whatever it is. If the world falls apart, I personally do not want to be on the side of the people who didn't work hard to prepare themselves. It’s going to be hard for a lot of people. And if the world does not fall apart, I don't want to be one of these poor souls in there 70's and 80's forced to work to continue to surviving. It breaks my heart when I see elderly people forced to work at such a late age because the system fucked them and they were unable to prepare themselves accordingly. We do need to recreate the system, but I just don’t see that happening from being powerless. As much as I want to care about everyone in the world, it’s ultimately my existence I’m experiencing from this body and mind. I have to take care of me first before I can help anyone. In EN I was of a mindset of trying to help other people, yet I was neglecting taking care of and helping myself, it didn’t work. I know poor very well, I know lack, I know struggle, and I’ve been in hand cuffs more times than I care to admit, the system is certainly designed against us. It’s shaped me and really shown me what I do not want in my life so I’m determined to create ABUNDANCE and FREEDOM for myself in this lifetime so I can live a more free, less limited existence where I can thrive in my own creativity. Hopefully through leading by example I can inspire others as well. I don't know the true direction we are headed as a species and society, I cant see the future, but I was fortunate enough to spend 10 years in Boy Scouts where the scout motto of “Be Prepared” was instilled into me during my adolescence. I’m doing all I can to be prepared so my mind, body and infrastructure are well in place for the rest of the time I must spend on this planet. I went so hard in EN, cause I thought we were running out of time. I believe now everything is right on time and that I can’t know for sure about anything. I don't want to be caught with my pants down if shit hits the fan. Thats the realist in me, we have a long path to recreating this world. I’ve had to accept I may not even be alive for it. But I will do all I can in this lifetime towards it. I realized many years ago after a long talk with my little brother and many psychedelic adventures; We have to fuck this system up from the inside out. We have to play the game. We can’t make the changes we want by removing ourselves from the system, we have to evolve within the system to replace it.

I then realized another question that needed addressing from one of his previous posts:

What do you think ‘earning a fortune in crypto’ will allow you to do that you can’t currently do?

So I provided an answer:

It will enable me to evolve beyond the system from within the system. My vision for years is to build and live in a fully sustainable earthship. Self sufficient in all ways, from generating power to growing food. Though it may be off the grid, I will still live in this world and be apart of the system and replace the ways of the system I no longer wish to incorporate in my life. The more people finding new ways to live will inspire future generations to do so as well. Even using all the recycled materials, It still cost over $200k to build a good one. I can’t do that without money, and working a basic ass job making $30k a year will never bring me there. I’ve tried and failed at a lot of things to make the money that will create the life I desire. Crypto is what I see having the most potential do to bring me there.

In wrapping this up, I just want to address a common belief that our current system of capitalism is doing more harm than good and I would have to say that I agree. This system is against us not for us.

But if you look at the direction of this world, disconnecting from it and living with hardly anything just because you can, is that going to help you in the long run?

If that’s what an individual chooses for themselves I respect their decision entirely.

I can see how some people would be happier this way, and sure living in the moment is a powerful concept but will being poor and telling yourself you are happy truly bring happiness when we live in a world we must survive in?

The system we live in is exactly that, the system we live in, until we replace it we cannot escape it and I feel in my heart that securing one’s self for the unpredictable future is a better move for the duration of one’s time here on Earth.

I believe we can create a world that works for everyone but we can’t do so with nothing to build on.

I’d love to hear some thoughts on this if you have read this far!

How should we create a new world?

Is money not something we should strive for?

Are we strengthening the capitalistic empire by acquiring more of it?

Is it selfish to take care of one’s self first by acquiring money?

Or are we further creating an infrastructure for ourselves to expand from through utilizing resources in a constructive manner for the greater good?

I believe we can’t expand to serve others with out first securing our foundation.

Again, I would love to hear some thoughts on this.

Thank you for reading,

~Matty Boom Boom Ruzindla

It’s helpful to be connected with people on similar journeys.

I’ve been feeling a lack of purpose in the recent months, shame and scars from attempts of my past in internet marketing, Lots of effort wasted. Then I saw a friend from way back when I was pursuing these endeavors post on Fb and we reconnected after many years. It seemed we were both in similar boats. I invited him to a small telegram chat another buddy of mine put together for great minds to come together and be ourselves. He dove into the chat history and shared himself further and in response, I did as well. I wrote so much that I thought it would be great reading and writing material and that people out there would find benefit in our words. Especially if the internet is deteriorating before you and you desire to unleash your creativity to the world. Here is our conversation so far:

J wrote:

I just went through much of this chat history. Enjoyed a lot of it. You guys seem to be seriously nerding out on crypto 😅

The thread I linked to with Matt talking about getting back into writing feels particularly inspiring to me, as someone who currently feels constipated with so many insights/observations. Writing has helped, but posting on FB never seemed to go anywhere, so I’ve stopped posting altogether. Perhaps Medium or YT could be better outlets. So many desires have been dropping for me lately…particularly around making $…and even the desire to share my insights. I’ve lost touch with the purpose to share with others especially in digital mediums, since the effects are never immediately or even long-term wise apparent. The barrage of comments that can be categorized as either ‘I resonate’ or ‘I don’t’ hasn’t really done much for me…maybe it’s just that people aren’t really sharing in-depth on FB. I guess I just don’t know what the purpose is sharing my ideas, perhaps beyond refining them through the feedback of others. But once again, it might just have been a platform issue…not getting any useful feedback on FB, no matter how many times I posted or asked for it. People seem afraid to share their thoughts there. I suppose I extrapolate that out & think that all the internet is functioning that way too, looking at so many surface-level/divisive comments on YT/IG these days.

I suppose I simply crave deep thinking & want to be surrounded by deep thinkers, but feel like I haven’t found the right ‘medium’ to do so.

Any insights/ideas welcome ❤️

Wow just saw you posted a poem Matty. Guess we’re in sync on this topic of self-expression/creativity 😂

Beautiful poem brotha!

Reminded me of one of my favorite songs of the last year…

https://youtu.be/nZS3GDcFjFU

Also…regarding trading crypto…I am genuinely curious…how do you guys find purpose/fulfillment in moving numbers around on a screen? Particularly as creatives, as I sense it probably takes you away from your creative endeavors. I gather that it’s an interesting challenge & a means to an end, as I’ve played online poker for years & see it very similar to online trading, but it feels like a very empty experience the last few years & stops being fun rather quickly. Definitely don’t get a sense of personal fulfillment by winning $ playing poker…there’s no real sense of contribution.

Is there a deeper significance to making money from trading crypto that perhaps I’m missing?

Sometimes I write more than I should, I never know if it’s too much or not. I just go with the flow and write, That’s what happened with my response below. I hope that you the reader find benefit in our conversation. Here it is:

Dude, that’s awesome you read through the chat history. It definitely sums up a lot of what we talk about here. I know it’s a lot of us going back and forth with crypto, but ultimately I look at this group as a safe space where any of us can talk about anything as we all seem pretty open-minded. As the name of the group says, just BE LOVE and BE who YOU are. If you know beautiful humans that would be a good addition, I’m sure the other Matt would be cool with bringing them here to add to our discussions. Platforms like FB as you mentioned from my experience, people (especially myself )struggle with being who they really are. Perhaps why so many are moving away from those platforms. I also do not post there anymore and only recently I am finding the courage to post again in various other forms like Medium. I’ve referred to Facebook as fake-book and disgrace-book for years now, it doesn’t seem a good place to truly share anymore. I feel vulnerable and judged on the platform, its not good for my mental health personally. I also find the platform to be a bit invasive from the selling of our data, but mostly from how anybody can find you there. I definitely resonate with the loss of purpose in sharing oneself, sometimes it seems pointless, putting all that effort out to the world in hopes someone actually reads it and finds benefit from you putting your heart out there. Then platforms such as FB and Instagram won’t even allow for your content to be shared with all of your followers based on their updated self serving algorithms. You now have to pay to have your content seen which is ludicrous. To give you some ideas of other platforms I’ve recently been looking into Decentralized platforms. Decentralization is the basis of crypto through the underlying technology that is blockchain. Platforms are emerging in a decentralized nature to give humans more control in a variety of forms. Whether it is decentralized finance or a social media platform that doesn’t serve a centralized authority that can dictate the entire experience. I just started experimenting with Minds.com and Mastodon if you are interested. So far I’m really liking Minds a-lot, here is my recently created account: https://www.minds.com/ruzindla/ I plan on posting here a lot more. Decentralization is the future!

In the last year or longer, I’ve found that taking a step back has been beneficial to really evaluate the what and why’s I even do certain things like post content. I think there is a deep yearning to make a difference in this crazy world in most of us. Especially those of us who care about the future of humanity and our planet. I also found in my personal journey that in some ways that feeling to make a difference was linked to my own ego desire to be recognized for something great.

But if the effort and actions we take don’t seem to be getting any traction that’s when it might be time reconsider what’s actually important to us as individuals. I never liked the idea of being selfish, especially after being such a hippie and trying to put others and the greater whole first. Where I’m at now I’ve had to be okay with being somewhat selfish. Ultimately it’s my individual experience and I gotta take care of this 3rd-dimensional being that is me before my existence could really be of great benefit to the greater whole. if you’re familiar with Spiral Dynamics at all, I’m feeling I’m in the midst of a transition from stage green to stage yellow.

So I’m starting small, and I’ve left the doing it for everyone outside of myself part on the side for now and will come back to it later. When I do write for others it’s all flow, and due to feeling inspired at that moment to do so, such as this response I am writing now. When I decide to write on Medium I do it for myself first and if anyone else finds benefit that’s amazing and part of my bigger picture. I don’t post every day, just take the inspiration and run with it when it becomes available. Really learning to be easier on myself, trusting that flow will unfold exactly to what I need to be doing. As much as I feel the rush, I have to remember there is no rush. You gotta take care of yourself first and allow things to happen. If you ever want to feedback, you can always share it here in our group. :)

As far crypto goes I find it to be a challenging pursuit to accompany my other creative endeavors side by side. One of my creative outlets that I’ve gotten clear on that is important to me is my jewelry. I don’t do it for the money, I do it for the love and enjoyment for it and also because it’s a way I make the world brighter. I’m guilty of giving away my jewelry as much as I sell it. I find a balance in serving the world through my art, If I can get to a point where It’s sustainable and I make a profit from it that’s amazing, but I doubt I have come anywhere near breaking even. Anytime I make money with it I just buy more gems and silver to make more! It may never lead me anywhere but its something I feel I have to do regardless of the outcome.

Is there something out there you feel you need to do regardless of the outcome?

If so do it and run with it! To integrate this part of me into what else I’m doing I’ll incorporate the jewelry into my medium posts or my YT videos with zero attachment to selling a single piece. I’m also currently looking into incorporating my belief and advocation of a decentralized future by offering incentives to purchase my jewelry through crypto thus furthering the evolution of our species adopting this technology. In a way, I can be a crypto activist simply by making the option available over traditional payment through fiat.

You can see my jewelry on Instagram @Ruzindla.wraps and my Etsy is currently being updated but in the meantime, you can see it here: Ruzinlda Wraps Etsy

But from a more realistic perpsective, I understand personally I will never be happy struggling and being extremely poor. Especially while working a JOB for a societal slavery system. I admire you for your interest in living freely with zero money and I believe it’s possible. But for me, I think it’s important to live a less limited existence in this 3rd-dimensional world, for me that means living with more money rather than less of it. Though I do see how living without money could create freedom as well but in a different sense. I feel with more resources I can ultimately do more good in this world. That’s important to me. The deeper significance for me to trading crypto is my deep-seated belief that this technology will positively change the world and that it already has.

It was created after the 2008 financial crisis as a solution to our financial system that keeps printing more money, bailing out corporations, and preying on those who have less. USD could one day collapse, right Now in 2020 The fed keeps printing money. The beauty of the first-ever encrypted digital currency BITCOIN is that its scarcity is built into the code. The last Bitcoins will be mined in 2140 and there will only ever be 21 million in existence. It’s not funny money, you just gotta learn how it works and how to profit with it. The trading aspect is more like a video game, you gotta get good at it and you gotta lose some to win some but through using probabilities and risk management you can engineer yourself to end up in the green over time. You have to trade as if you are the casino, not a guest at the casino. You could start holding as most people do.

To give you some perspective in September 2016 I bought and held .2 Bitcoin when 1 Bitcoin was worth $600 and I also bought 11 Etheruems when they were $11 each. Less than a year and a half later at the end of 2017, those Etheruems were worth $1444 each, and that .2 bitcoin was worth $4,000. Do the math. I was just so inexperienced I didn’t realize I was supposed to sell, I thought it would keep going up, lesson learned, you have to trade a little bit to keep your returns. As the world heats up, these assets will exceed their previous All-Time Highs I truly believe this. It’s still early and not too late to invest in cryptos.

There is so much underlying technology behind it that it’s so much more than a financial asset. Blockchain is here to stay. I feel like I’m part of the solution to this failing world through being involved in crypto. I believe it will ultimately free myself financially as it already has created so many millionaires from those who were earliest of early adopters. It’s still in its infancy. I don’t believe in our failing financial system but I do believe wholeheartedly in crypto and its purpose in freeing humanity.

So that’s a bit into my world, some of the ways I feel about expressing creativity and freeing ourselves from the system. I’m sure this conversation is only getting started. My only hope is that this has inspired you in some way. There are endless possibilities out there and there is no one right or wrong way to go about it. We are all individuals on our own journeys and we must decide what is right for ourselves. If we can collaborate and help one another on the way it only makes sense to me.

If you are like-minded perhaps our group would be good for you, we’d potentially be open to it. But if anything, consider starting your own mastermind group and be selective of the people you allow into your inner circle. Not everyone is trying to live an exceptional existence but those who are can be great allies.

Thank you for reading.

Feel free to follow me on minds @ruzindla

~MattyBoomBoom

Right now it’s hard to know what‘s real

The media lies and tells us how to feel

We can’t listen, they tell us what to do

Don’t believe a word of what they say is true

Their planned agenda of division grinds

There is a battle present, it’s for our minds

Oppression comes in many forms

A lust for power from greedy worms

Earth’s foundation has begun to the shake

Many sleep, yet more awake

Awareness comes in many forms

When the masses awake we’ll come in swarms

Illusions deployed in full effect

A new world is crucial, we must erect

Despite the dark, believe in Light

For our planet, we must learn to fight

Though fighting comes in many forms

Calm and centered we embrace the storm

We may be gone before its done.

Enjoy life now and have some fun

Despite how dark things may seem

Shine your light, be a bright beam

It’s within us to stay strong and true

Perhaps we’ll live to see this world anew.

Thanks for reading!

~Matty BoomBoom

Below is the article I wrote earlier from a different headspace, one where I was not feeling as level headed as I am now. Thank you for reading.

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I cannot even begin to express the anxiety and craziness I’ve been feeling since yesterday, June 1st. Questions and thoughts racing through my mind with uncertainty.

Should I buy a gun?

Should I stack Silver and Gold?

Is Martial Law really coming to a neighborhood near you?

I’ve been terrified of the government obtaining too much power since I had my first realization in 2005 deep on LSD as a 19-year-old soon to be a college drop out. I knew then at that moment this system was not working and eventually collapse was coming. I’ve felt in my bones ever since with absolute uncertainty as to what that will truly look like. I really do worry what that collapse looks like and if it's truly the hidden powers and their agenda to enslave humanity even further than they already have.

First COVID-19, then these protests sparked by Geroge Floyd’s death. It’s overwhelming the number of racial murders committed by those sworn to protect that don't seem to ever stop. Police brutality has been going on for years! Now the president is deploying “thousands and thousands” of military personnel on civilians. I have a hard time seeing this as a form of good other than showing us we must create serious change in this country to oppose those in control abusing their power. I think it goes much deeper than just the president. I don’t trust anyone who made it to the white house nor do I truly trust that they are the ones who are really in control.

I remember in 2013 an ex-cop I knew, who was a good man. After several private messages back and forth had unfriended me on Facebook because of some of the anti-police things I was posting. It made me sad, but even he in those private messages had admitted that he gets scared of cops. He doesn't know if one is having a bad day and gets just as nervous as the rest of us when there is a patrol car behind him. We were supposed to meet and chat in person, but that never happened and we lost touch.

This was a white, male ex-cop telling me he is scared of the police yet somehow still supports them. At least he quit the biggest gang in our country and what I’ve referred to for years as “traitors of the human race”. Don't get me wrong I know they are not all bad, and many are really good. I’ve just been abused by the police more times than I can count even as a privileged white male!

My PTSD from the police runs deep in my subconscious yet I can't even begin to imagine what our brothers and sisters of color have to deal with. I’m sure it’s amplified significantly for them in ways I can't fathom. My heart goes out to you all.

Back the story; I was ultimately saying something was wrong here, that the police were somehow being brainwashed or put up to this senseless violence and police brutality from hidden sources with a hidden agenda. Of course, this was only speculation on my end and of course seen as too radical. This was seven years ago too! But how is that more radical then the senseless, racist murder perpetuated time and time again by police officers?

How is that more radical than our president’s recent actions that seem to be leading us toward a dictatorship which is an attack on the American Public?

Why is he making calls to his dictator buddy Putin on the same day who from what I’ve been told (Could be untrue cause I have not researched it) has modified his countries laws to remain in power and has done so for decades now in Russia? What’s to stop our current president from doing the same?

I don't mean to talk about politics, I don't identify with any political party including 3rd parties. The division is real and I don't approve. Things are not cool right now. I’m doing my best to be physically and mentally prepared just like the boy scout I am at heart. The Scout motto is “Be Prepared”. I don't yet feel prepared but I feel now is the time to do so. I could be wrong, I surely don't wish to give in to the fear but I have to remain somewhat realistic and grounded in this 3rd dimension. The government could strike down hard on all of us at any moment. I’d rather have my shit together in case of emergency versus being caught off guard.

Things are heating up, I’m not sure the heck is happening. is this even real? Just in case things are about to get even crazier I encourage you to prepare yourself. This is one hell of a time to be alive and ultimately I believe we as a species will take this planet back one way or another. It’s only a matter of time and I intend to live to see that day we are all truly free.

I don't care what side of the political spectrum you’re on. You are a human being at your core and I think there is a deep calling in all of us to help one another. The government is not your friend. We the people have endured enough from our oppressors. Be ready for anything.

Cheers to the survival of the human race!

Yours truly,

Matty BoomBoom

“You’ll never achieve what you are striving for if you don’t spend the time and energy to take care of yourself.”

I was hit with this realization just hours ago and now those exact words are written on a post-it note at my desk.

Ever since I was laid off for COVID-19 I feel I’ve been blessed with an opportunity to set myself free once and for all. I’m using this time to focus as hard as I can to work towards creating enough regular income so that I may never have to trade my life to a job again. This requires discipline and know-how to achieve this result.

Today I felt like I was running out of time. The resources I have will run out and I will once again be forced into societal slave labor of the workforce to survive in this world. If I can escape the hamster wheel to pour myself into more fulfilling human endeavors I believe I will be living the life I’m truly meant to.

It was a mental place, a place of lack, a place of disbelief in myself, a place of I wasn’t doing enough, and the feeling I would never amount to much. One of my fears is that I’ll never be free and I’ll always be working towards it. In the last 2 months, I’ll wake up with getting to my computer on my mind. I’ve been meditating daily the last 29 days but I’m still wanting to get to my computer and start doing the things I’m trying to do as soon as I can.

I don’t have a desire to feed myself, I want to work towards my freedom. So I don't eat as often or as much as I should be. I’ll cut corners and spend hours in front of the computer.

I’ll make progress but after about 3 or 4 hours my brain stops working as efficiently and the gusto I had that morning is fleeting. Just watching a simple video to learn something becomes a huge chore. I begin to feel like I’m not doing enough and fear I’m destined for societal slavery for the rest of my life. Trading one's life to the workforce appears to be the fate of so many and I feel my life depends on seeking a way out, finding a way out, and staying out. The worst fate I could imagine is being stuck for the rest of my years trying to be free and never achieving that freedom. When I start spinning my wheels I feel my life slipping through my fingers.

Where I’ve had it all wrong is that I’ve been making this ambiguous achievement of freedom and the things I believe will take me there my #1 priority every single day. Functioning in this way is only getting me so far with minimal progress and I’m realizing I will never achieve anything great if I continue this way.

I have to make taking care of myself my #1 priority.

That was it, that was my realization. Nothing great will ever come from an unbalanced, and unhealthy work-a-holic. The human being can only handle so much at a time. So today I stepped back, made some food, and did some yoga after realizing I was getting nowhere. Now I’m seeing much more clearly.

Tomorrow and the days to come will be different.

My computer world is now my #2 priority and some days I might even make it #3. It’s not about the quantity of effort you put into something, it’s about the quality. So my mind, body, and overall health are now the #1 focus. If you attempt a large quantity of work with only crappy tools you’ll end up with crappy results.

Our minds and bodies are the greatest tools we as humans have. If they are in poor shape then we can only expect poor results. So tomorrow begins with sharpening my tools and being okay with that investment of time and energy. The quality of my work will greatly improve as I improve the quality of my overall well being and that is now my#1 priority.

If you’re like me, please remember to go easy on yourself.

Thanks for reading,

Matty BoomBoom

It was awesome! Hardly anyone was there due to the limited reservation spots each day. There were no lines and it was super chill. It’s amazing how you can still hit it from the very top even in super late May.

Arapahoe basin is the only Ski resort in Colorado that opens Early as October and stays open as late as the 4th of July. It’s the only resort to ride that has reopened their lifts this season after Covid-19 got in the way.

I was very lucky my girl won the reservation lottery as I still have not the last few days I’ve entered. Everybody wants to ride A-basin right now so it’s a matter of luck at this point.

I hit my first ever pond skim! That’s where the snow melts and leaves a nice puddle for you to ride as fast as you can right through it. See the video to witness it.

I went snowboarding in a T-shirt, it was such a nice day. I actually felt hot a few times except for when I fell straight into the slushy snow which was somewhat refreshing.

I was even able to hit Loveland Pass on the way home which is totally public land that does not get groomed or taken care of. I had to get dropped off and picked up at the bottom. So worth it as always.

Thanks for checking out my post and video I made. I hope your chance of riding this spring is high!

If you want to please Follow me here on Medium, leave a clap and a comment if you feel like it. I’d super appreciate it.

Yours Truly,

Matty BoomBoom

BTW, I make wearable art too! Check it out on Instagram @Ruzindla.wraps

How many of us have been here?

Me, it’s been too many times, In fact, it’s the fighting in a relationship that makes me not to want to be in one at all. Though of course, it’s just in those moments. Once it’s over, we’ve moved on and everything’s okay I find myself unable to imagine life without this person. I know deep inside me that I am better off with her in my life.

So how do you prevent fights? Are they inevitable? Is it just an inescapable aspect to love?… I hate this part so much yet everything else is so great.

I’m aware I have an ego, we all do, she does for sure and it really irritates my ego when she accuses my ego of thinking I am better than her. I don’t know where or how the F@#k she comes up with this shit.

It comes down to misunderstanding each other. Sometimes I believe she really gets me but when we get in fights it seems that she believes in her head that I am someone completely different from who I really am. If you really want to piss me off and escalate a disagreement start making false accusations at who I am as a person. My ego will surely not tolerate this form of slander.

I guess Men are from Mars and Women from Venus as someone once said. I’m not sure why these things even happen, it saddens me, it ruins my day, ruins the next day and can even ruin the whole week before we both put aside our feelings of being upset and go back to normal.

In most cases, my true anger and frustration come from the fact that a problem manifested in our relationship, not the problem itself. I usually don’t actually care about what started it as it’s usually something stupid. I’m just severely inconvenienced by the change in energy between us shifting from a normally very positive state to a very negative one.

My natural state is happiness and harmony, I need to be in a state of flow to be fully optimized in my existence. When someone threatens that I have a very low tolerance towards it and my demeanor will not be received as positive. If I only could learn how to diffuse these situations effectively without becoming a pissed-off individual. Maybe I can learn.

It takes two to tango someone else once said…

Perhaps I need to take dance lessons and learn how to take the lead so we can tango down a more constructive path.

I am responsible for how I respond so I acknowledge I could respond better.

At the end of the day I love her so much and this will all be but a small blip in the beautiful story and unfolding that is our love for each other.

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Yours Truly,

Matty BoomBoom

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