I decided to take a road trip to visit family on my Dad’s side who I hadn’t seen in years. For a little backstory…I was born and raised in Kansas City, Mo. My parents met in college at the University of Kansas. He passed away when I was 3 so we moved back to Missouri from Kansas.

In 2015, I was 34 and in the deepest depression I’ve been in so I decided to take a road trip to visit my family in Michigan. The strangest thing happened when I saw the “Pure Michigan” sign and crossed the state line. This extreme sense of calm washed over me that is indescribable. It was like my soul was telling me that I belonged here. I visited family in the Southeast and West side and loved it. Fast forward to the end of 2015, I was offered a position for a new job in Michigan. I moved to Michigan in early 2016 and felt like my life was beginning at 35.

When Covid came along in 2020, I remember seeing a tiktok talking about my “big 3”. I had no idea what that meant so I googled, entered my information into a natal chart calculator. I knew that I was a Pisces sun but finding out that I had a Leo rising and Scorpio moon and reading the description of myself from each planet was so interesting. It was like someone wrote a biography about me without adding my name to it. It was so exact that I was shocked to read about “family issues” that really existed. Once I read the character traits about my rising and moon sign I was hooked.

Fast forward to 2022, my boyfriend took me to the beach in West Michigan. I was so excited to swim in Lake Michigan. It was a beautiful day.

I remember diving down to wet my hair, when I came back up everything seemed more vibrant than before. The sun was shining brighter. I remember feeling Deja vu but quickly dismissing it because this was my first experience swimming in Lake Michigan. We had a great day.

The following weekend I decided to do a third eye chakra guided meditation. While I was meditating I remember I started seeing my loved ones with what I can only describe as a mist surrounding them, they all had different colors. My Mom’s “mist” was blue, my aunts was an indigo color (makes sense because she’s a spiritual person like me), my best friend’s was pink and her daughter’s was yellow. I texted my best friend and told her what I saw when my eyes were closed. She sent me a picture of her yellow nails that she JUST got done and her daughter was wearing pink shorts. I was shocked and a little freaked out but I remembered my natal chart and it describing me as having psychic gifts.

I recently went back to my 2022 journal to read my entries and I read one from December 2022, I had death and tower in this particular spread. I knew things would change but I wasn’t sure how. My “tower” moment came when my mom passed unexpectedly on 2/1/23. I remember my aunt calling to tell me, her words sounded like the adults in the Charlie Brown cartoons. There was an owl outside, all I could hear and focus on in that moment was the owl hooting. My grandma passed away on 2/22/22 for some reason the owl calmed me down. I decided that it was my grandma telling me that my Mom was okay. After my Mom passed away my life completely changed. I found out shortly after she passed that not only did I have ADHD but I was also autistic while in grief therapy. That was another moment of enlightenment, it was like I got a flash of moments in my life where my autism was showing itself and I felt so validated.

We’re going to skip forward again today to 6/6/24. I know I have gifts I’m just not sure what they are. Here’s a list of things I’ve experienced since my Mom and Grandma passed.

1. I just “know” things without doing research. The answer just pops into my head.

2. I have 2 dogs and it’s like we understand each other perfectly. I can tell when they aren’t feeling well before they start exhibiting symptoms.

3. During a stressful experience or if I find myself over thinking I often hear whispers of my name, or a “stop” or “no”. After I hear it, it’s like a sense of calm and warmth goes down my body. Sometimes it might be instructions like “don’t go that way” “pick that one”. Today it was “medium” because I’ve been thinking about typing this out.

4. When I go places, it seems like more people show up after I get there. I stopped at the post office the other day, I was the only person in there. 5 people trickled in as I was looking at stamps. This happens at restaurants, stores, EVERYWHERE.

5. I’m an empath but there’s a caveat to this…is it possible to “feel” plants? I have a white bird of paradise plant that I feel like it lets me know when it’s ready to be watered. Or is this intuitive?

Am I going crazy? Is this my neurodivergence that I’m experiencing? I feel like my spiritual awakening started on my road trip up here, something happened the day I swam in Lake Michigan and again when my mom passed away. I believe the women in my family all have gifts and when my Grandma and Mom passed away they passed these gifts on to me.

As I’m closing this out the anxious feeling I’ve had since I downloaded this app has passed. I have no clue if anyone will read this but I am relieved that I finally did this. A little voice has been nudging me to share my experiences. I guess the universe wanted me to share my experienced with other people.