This is a year in review. I am writing this today because I know that If I do not, I will procrastinate until I decide that its too late for the review. That’s what happened last year.

So 2022, it was a weird year. It started out really funny, I was mostly crying during the first half of the year. I had legitimate reasons to want to leave Nigeria.. Business was slow, My 9–5 Job was not paying me enough for the pain they were putting me through and My Landlord suddenly decided to end our tenancy agreement upon expiration of our rent.. He gave us no option of renewal.

Toyosi moved to Abuja.

House hunting again…second year in a row

I remember being so stressed, running my businesses and trying to get new customers, working two 9–5’s (remotely) and also house hunting, IN LAGOS! I felt very alone. On these days I just used to eat and sleep…Those where the two things that gave me some comfort. My mental health (I know I sound Gen Z, but please mind your business) took a downturn and I considered going back to therapy but I was too broke for that.

I eventually got a house after dealing with a myriad of crazy agents, I paid over a million extra for a smaller space. I thought this was the end of my problems. I packed into the house and realized I had be swindled! There was no general Generator, The pumping machine was getting spoilt every 3 days, the gateman was frustrated because they owed him salary and my co-tenants were very uncooperative. I went to the Police Station and started filling a case with the EFCC against our landlady (who I later discovered was subletting to us! The house isn't even hers, she rented it and divided it into bits…hot tears in my eyes)

The back and forth went on and on between I and her Lawyer. I eventually got a contract and realized that I might be house hunting in 2023 again, because I absolutely hate DEVIOUS people, I cannot work with them (given a choice) and I certainly cannot rent from them.

I’m not into company bashing but guysssss!!!!!!! stay away from couple owned enterprises in 2023 oh! Just remember that Tosin warned you.

I worked with a company that thought my salary was a favor being done for me. It was the worst time of my life because I was constantly trying to do more, while they complained even more. My Job Description was thrown in the dustbin and I was working Monday to Sunday. I was also working odd hours because my employers where oversees. I used to wake up with panic attacks. I hated WhatsApp (our major means of communication) and I really did hate myself. After about 2 months, or was it 3, They decided to change my JD and renegotiate my salary to be lower (This was after I had executed one of the biggest Projects for them while also acting as the Social Media Manager, Lawyer, Brand strategist and Face of the brand in several meetings.) I felt used, I wept!

One thing about me, I always know when its time to go. I immediately resigned. I should have known that the company was a bad Idea when the CEO was telling me they had worked with 6 social media managers in the last year. Oh, He also called me one day to ask me how the company can stay OPEN.. that the investors wanted to close down the Nigerian arm of the business. God knows I could not sleep that night. Anyways…I’m grateful for this experience…

Me and startups with no structure? NEVER AGAIN!!!!!!

Existential Crisis and more tears

Sometime between when I quit that job, Finished my NYSC , Moved houses and tried to reorganize my finances, I started asking myself questions about why I am really here. I surely cannot be here to continue running this rat race.

Is there an end to suffering?

How long will it take before I can say I have figured out adulthood?

Why does it seem like the dust barely settles on one problem before another one rises?

How long will I continue to worry about money?

Am I a fraud? Do I even know as much as people assume I do?

Well, I haven't found any concreate answers to these questions. One thing I knew during this period was that If I survived The Nigerian Law School, OAU and bullying in Faith Academy…. ADULTHOOD COULD NOT END ME.

I was angry at everyone, fighting everyone, pushing them away and crying a lot. BUT JESUS IS KING. One day, I just got up and decided to fight for the life that I dream about. Score 1 for Master JESUS!!!! Apologies to Damdam, Teju and Teewhy. I am so sorry my women.🙏

In between all these, the pumping machine in my new house kept spoiling every 3 weeks and we had a fire accident by 5am in the morning, the PHCN board caught fire.. somehow I was awake and I went downstairs to investigate the explosive noise I heard. I had to put out an electric fire guys!!!

THE DATING POOL….pond….bowl

This was another year of men trying to show me “shege” and me dodging! I can laugh now about it but when I was in the thick of it, I felt frustrated. It feels like the quality of men out there…..

I don't want to sound like a man hating feminist because I love men…I just think most of them do not meet the average woman's standard of a partner. The ones who are intelligent are promiscuous. Some are terrible conversationalists, some lack social skills, some are stingy (even to themselves!), some are extremely attached to their mothers waist. Should I go on?

I really want to tell you about the man who asked me to refund money for a date he took me on after he realized I was not going to marry him Immediately

I want to tell you about the guy who took my name to his mother to pray then ghosted me because his mother said we were not compatible in the spirit.

I want to tell you about the guy whos mother called throughout our date asking for details while Her son proudly told me he cannot cook but expects every woman to cook because ‘is she not a girl?”

But lets just say that this was the year God removed me from the cold streets. My Boyfriend is an amazing gift from God and he came when I was DONE LOOKING!!!!! You’ll be safe on the streets, I am just busy cuddling in the safe embrace of a Tall, Dark, Handsome Yoru/Port-Harcourt Brother. I will be praying for you.

DEATH

This year my uncle died while driving on the road, It seems like he had a stroke and just died before the car actually had an accident. The police had to trace his family… do you know how messed up that was?

I was not done consoling my mum when Toyosi, My best friend Lost her mum suddenly. She had gone to bed hale and hearty only to wake up in the night with some pain.. then she died before they could get her to the hospital.

When we got to to Osogbo there were signs everywhere that she had NO IDEA she was going to die. Same with my uncle.

Toyosi is still grieving. Its been tough and I did’nt know what to say to her. I just kept quiet and held her hands, Or stood behind her , or laughed with her at some silly relatives, or cried with her in the bathroom while we stared at her mothers soap…it was undoubtedly one of the worst moments of the year for me.

Mrs Akinpelu was a gem, a good woman! A great mother to my friend and soooooo many more people. Talking about her in past tense is so weird.

During the time we spent preparing for her funeral, I saw so many things play out…it was unreal, the way people were behaving was unreal. Hmmmmmnnn. God keep us all, AMEN.

END OF THE YEAR SURPRISES

The end of the year was the best part of the year for me.

I got to travel to Kenya with my friends, I had such a good time! I vlogged some part of it here, on my Youtube chanel.

I bought things for myself and did things for myself.

September, October, November and December were fully packed with makeup jobs. I spent a lot of time on the road and the reality of not having a car in this Laygurss really dawned on me. I can’t afford a car right now. Unless I sell all my wigs, and my electrical appliances, and my Camera and maybe my kidney. I have stopped worrying because God will give it to me in his own time. I will not have to beg or borrow! AMEN somebody??!

I am so proud of myself for ADWR 3.0, This was the first edition in Lagos and I think we did well. I hope to plan better for 2023’s edition. Thank you Amaechi, Foluso, Tilewa and all my volunteers and sponsors! Thank you for bringing the vision to life!

God gave me an international booking. I was booked for a makeup job in Seychelles and I still can’t wrap my head around it. That happened in December, so I crossed over into the new year on an exotic island! Two international trips in the space of two months!!! what?!

I also got nominated for Eloy Awards Beauty Entrepreneur of The year…The theme was ‘The year of consistency and guts’. I did not win, but then I did not push for votes. I just felt honored to be on that nomination list. So honored.

Losses

• still on my ‘legedize Benz’ vibe. no car, exorbitant Uber fees
• my savings did not increase as much as I hoped. Piggyvest even gave me a C6😂
• I did not meet my fitness goals
• I did not put in any effort with my hair, skin and nails….AGAIN!!!
• moved from one problematic house…to a more problematic house

WINS

• My Businessday Feature

• Bamboo feature
• ADWR 3.0
• ELOY awards Nomination
• Seychelles job
• Queek on more stores
• serviced more than 217 clients
• worked on commercials with RENMONEY, Fuzu, Zenith Bank, One Africa, Fidelity Bank, Leadway Assurance

• worked on 2 music videos. Playground Politica and Goosebumps
• YouTube now on 1k

LESSONS LEARNT

• I can move houses again and not die.I might just be a bit disconnected, scattered and angry for awhile
• I am not broken, I can love and be loved
• Death will come for us all
• If you’re in Nigeria, listen to me…inflation is messing things up. Don’t think that you’ll buy that thing that you NEED later….. don’t be like me, If you can afford it, buy it now!!!! Things are going to get even more expensive in the next few years.

Cheers to an amazing year!

Year 2023 will birth new things! I can feel it! And I’m so excited.

P.S : don’t place me on any pedestal this year. I’m not perfect and I’m a deeply flawed woman just trying to live purposefully, make an impact while having fun.

Thanks for reading!

Happy New Year!

Hey.

I’ve stalled enough yeah? Today is the 30th of December, 2020 and I’m Finally putting my pen to paper (in this case it’s my Fingers to Keypad, but I digress)

How are you doing?

It’s my yearly review thingy but I feel the strong need to ask you this question. 2020 made me realize that I’ve been asking “how are you?” For ages without actually intending to know how exactly the person is feeling! Now when I ask, I mean it, trust me.

How the year started

The year started on a smooth note. I made some resolutions and waited patiently for OAU to post my set for the Nigerian Law School program. I was certain I would be posted to Abuja, I wasn’t. First Gbas! I was posted to Bayelsa. When I initially saw my posting, I felt peace in my heart. It was later I started to panic and hyperventilate! Because I had never been to the south-south Region of Nigeria before!

Horrible place Kids

Anyways I spent St. Valentine’s Day in a Sienna headed to Agudama Epie, Yenagou. The ride was okay…Nothing special just the usual Nigerian police harassment and Extortion

NLS and it’s Horrors

It was like a horribly Bad dream. I just wanted to wake up! I had Toyosi, Ife Agboola, Victory, Abass and Cortez. These guys helped me stay sane and happy during those Dark times. I can’t say more than this because “fit and proper”. If you know, you know.

The Rumors of Covid

Oh, there had been rumors of the “Chinese Virus”. But did I think it would become a global pandemic and claim so many lives? No! No dear reader! I never saw COVID coming. I never HES’perredit! When they closed NLS down, we danced to Egungun be careful. Made an entire triller video and rejoiced😂

Little did we know, times were about to get Dark.

The F**king Pandemic

Yo, people died. People are still dying. People were sick and people were dropping dead everyday! It was scary! It was confusing! How could nobody have the cure? How come pharmaceutical companies had no drugs to cure this illness!

The tiktok and Houseparty

There was just so much to do online! My savings suffered! I kept buying more and more DATA! The boredom hit and we had all the challenges!

• Bop Daddy
• Don’t rush, slow touch or was it torch?
• Transitions! Everyone was hopping and twirling into nice outfits and beautiful makeup.
• Zoom Meetings! Omg, this was a trend!

The hunger and realization that Nigeria is shit

I sent money to people, and I barely even had enough myself. It was sad. The economy was shutting down and our government was FAR from being ready. How do you ask poor people to close their businesses and “stay safe” then provide nothing? We later found out that they were hoarding palliatives. I’ve never been more embarrassed to be Nigerian. Never.

The anxiety about my life and NLS

Lol, they just kept mute. At some point this was the conversation

Caring Family Member or friend: Tosin, how car law school?

Tosin: I don’t know, they’ve not said anything yet.

This went on for months. I felt so , so Abandoned. I also couldn’t take any bookings because I was trying to stay focused. I was broke. My finances were a huge mess during this period.

The deaths

Victorys Dad died

Ibidunni Died

Chadwick Died

Kobe died

One of my law school classmates who had a gentle demeanor and a beautiful baby, died.

And a lot of other people too.

The girl that was raped in church died. #justiceforUwa

It was an exhausting year.

I cried a lot.

Some of these people, I didn’t even know personally. But yo! I felt the pain of their loved ones and my brain couldn’t just handle the circumstances of their death.

The Death of Oby

I just want you all to know that This particular one made me think deep. And I realize that I’m actually ready to die. Not ready ready, but I’m no longer afraid like I used to be. Because I realize that it’s not exactly in my power. It’s beyond my control. Oby was very spiritual, intelligent, kind, BEAUTIFUL. This babe was the total package. She was my Woman crush. And she died. With her mum. On the same day!

Yo, this life is rubbish.

Olojo lo lojo

Just live fully

Please.

Depression

Yo, I thought I was dealing with it, until I’d wake up in the morning and cry. I’d cry while eating. I’d burst into tears if Nepa took the light. I wasn’t posting. I wasn’t creating. What was I doing? I was sleeping a lot and crying in between. I felt chocked, I felt like God had abandoned the world and gone on a vacation. It must be tasking running the affairs of the whole world! Maybe he took a short vacation and Angel Gabriel mistakenly pressed the “End Time tribulations” button. I just couldn’t stop being sad. I was deeply sad and unmotivated to even eat.

The world was crazy. There was the Black Lives matter movement and the death tolls. There was poverty increase and I was going to clock 25 still in school, still without a successful business (at this point, I need to remind you that the word “SUCCESS” means different things to different people. So I’m not being ungrateful, I just haven’t attained what I’ll call success in my craft/Career.) and still a single Pringle. Talking to people was tedious and I hated WhatsApp. Nobody seemed to understand how I was feeling and I felt so stupid after each phone call. The words of encouragement seemed to be the same…. and my brain wasn’t processing or believing them anymore. I felt Stagnant and unfulfilled.

JP was born and My World became Brighter.

Yo. This child makes me happy. My heart jumps and I smile when I think of him. I can’t wait to see him and hold him. And guys, pregnancy is not easy for everyone, please be more empathetic towards pregnant women. It’s a crazy 9months (technically 10months but you get the gist yeah?).

I have a newfound respect for mothers and motherhood. It’s wild!

Nigeria kills : End SARS and it’s many lessons

Moving with the tide : AKA insha allah and vibes.

That’s how this year was. I studied hard, I did my business, I mourned, I partied when I could and I had several bouts of Anxiety attacks in between. It was just vibes all the way! All my plans got thrown into the bin and I didn’t die from lack of a solid plan! Look at that!

Who would have thought !😂 At least I learned to relax a little this year. I literally couldn’t do shit about my situation, I had to just relaz and be taken kiaroff

Detty December?

E dinor happen kids. I worked and I enjoyed working.

I feel guilty for not studying for Law school in December. But I’m starting again soon. Like I said, this First Class will not get itself! I got to put in the worrkkkkkk.

Clocking 25

Lol, I’ve been dreading this. I usually get very sad before my birthdays, because I worry about aging.

In my head I’m just a baby girl * insert Tems lyrics ON Being a bAby GIrl*

But okay sha, I know I’m getting older and I don’t particularly like it. Sho get?

But this year. I wasn’t sad at all!

And Queek came forth.

This year, I was supposed to release my book.

In between all my roller coasters of emotions I couldn’t write. I also felt like a fraud. Like What do I know about makeup that I want to write and sell an Entire Book! My mind kept saying “you’re a fraud Tosin, stop forming bad guy”

So yeah, I failed at that this year. But guess what? I’ll continue next year. That book will come forth!

It will. And now I’ve even learned more.

I can now add that I know about working with a team to create a website! I know about running a makeup blog. Lol…. this book will come and be even richer! I’m so certain.But no promises sha. It might be 2021, or 2025

I will write my book.

Queek was discovered in November 2019. I created a mixture that’s so stupid(I can’t tell anyone sef)for myself and it worked! Now In 2020 I refined the formula, packaged it and here we are!

“A single idea, the sudden Flash of an idea, may be worth a million dollars” — Robert collier

I don’t know if Queek is my Million dollar product or not. But I’m willing to keep trying. I’m committed to creating generational wealth for myself and my Family

ANYWAYSSSS.. I’m now a product Line owner and I’m proud of myself.

Thank you to everyone who helped me! The support, the prayers. Omg! The reposts! I genuinely don’t understand why I have the most supportive people in the world in my corner, but I bless God for them everyday.

My Finances

Lol, I didn’t think I’d meet my target

But I did ! 🎉

I’m not even sure how, but I did! And I’m so so grateful to God and my family for all the encouragement and support!

Argh! I can’t imagine life without them.

We’re good here.

My Relationships

Well, this year was the year of trying new things. First of all, I swore to be single and focus during Law school because That first class will not get itself. When COVID happened I wasn’t talking to anyone. Not a single soul. Then I met one deeply emotionally disturbed man on Snapchat and that ended rather abruptly and Badly. Then I met other people and the long and short of the story is, I’m still single.

My friends have started trying to play matchmaker.

My mum is tired of talking about it.

Me, I’m just here looking…because I actually love being alone too much. I might need to see a therapist next year. Something is not right. 😂

My Spirituality

Oh my. This took a nose dive. I think it’s actually a good idea to go to church and fellowship with the saints. All those months of online service and multiple deaths made me question a lot of things.

God is still Good, I know

His ways are not our ways, I know

But how is Buhari still alive and my friend died so tragically?

How come Tinubu is hale and hearty and My Friends Perfect Daddy suffered from cancer and died, He was a PASTOR!

I don’t know kids. Pray for me.

Or don’t

I have a relationship with God. But I’m no longer religious. The pastors also this year have been wild. I know they’re humans, but how can these rapists and molesters still have the power of God in them? How are they still performing miracles and seeing visions? Aren’t they Bad people? Isn’t the Holy Spirit supposed to depart from them? Pastor Peter Alabi’s story shocked me.

Mine Magazine’s pastor also (Timi Adigun).I started reading this Pastor Adiguns stories on sexual Purity from when I was 14 years old. Imagine how I feel. I feel …. defrauded.

My Goals

Well, I did not smash them all. And that’s okay.

We Moveeeeeeeeeee!

2021? We go run am!

My health

I fell sick so many times.

I feel like I’ve had Covid-19 at least 2 times already. Maybe I’m Just being paranoid sha.Anyways I’m grateful for my health. It wasn’t the best this year but This year was weird, so whatever.

Lessons learned:

-pastors, never trust them. Trust God only and Have peace.

-People will forget the favors, they will become entitled and spoiled. Don’t indulge them.

-Consistency is key, but sometimes take a break… relax. Problem no Dey finish.

-Your instincts, trust them more.

-Pettiness is allowed, over maturity Dey cause headache. Allow your inner child run free on some days.

-Nigeria is actually a shithole, get out if you can.

Major wins of 2020

• Houseofrheevo.com ! We have a website and A blog!
• Organizing my photo and video editing classes! Omg! Yassss!
• 4 bride! Four lovely brides in a Pandemic and in Law school year!
• 600 youtube subscribers!
• Queek! Mehnn. Courage is indeed the mastery and resistance of fear not the Absence. I was Afraid. I’m still lowkey afraid sef. But FEAR WILL NOT CONTROL MY LIFE.
• I wish I read more books this year
• I wish I backed up my phone (my phone crashed and I lost Data that I can never recover)
• I wish I called more people, especially my Family and friends
• I wish I didn’t sleep so much😂😂😂😂
• I wish I bought more nice things for myself.
• I wish I allowed myself to fall in love
• I wish I was more consistent with my Youtube.
• I wish I had saved more in dollars and I wish I had used Bitcoin too!

“ MAKE IT A LIFE RULE TO GIVE YOUR BEST TO WHATEVER PASSES THROUGH YOUR HANDS. Stamp it with your personal character. Let superiority be your trademark” — Orison Swett Marden

This new year, Be committed to EXCELLENCE. Hold yourself responsible for a higher standard than anyone expects of you! Be honest, Prioritize and stay focused.

2021 will be amazing for us all.

Happy New Year!

If you read up to this point, THANK YOU.Thank you for being part of my year 2020 and part of my life. Thank you!

God bless you! Why don’t you share this article with a friend?

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Mr. President.

I’m Nigerian and every time I hear something about him I get angry.

In the past few months I have intentional blocked out every news of him. I have tried to stay of discussion threads, I have ignored mainstream media because I really don’t care for what he has to say.

He’s ineptitude is alarming

He’s a Brut

He’s a bully

And he doesn’t understand the true meaning of compassion .

I have so many examples running through my head. I can’t believe I ever thought this man could bring “change” to Nigeria.

Well, it’s easy to blame one man for all the woes of a Nation of over 40Million People, 50 years post Independence from their “oppressors”

Isn’t it?

The president is just one person.

The people are the real problem.

Mans wickedness to man.

I see it every single day in Nigeria.

The sudden hick in prices

The religious wars

The tribal wars

Heck, the War of Sexes.

The abuse of women and children

The selfish manner in which our resources are being allocated.

The widening gap between the rich and the middle class, Talk less of the poor.

This is not my Dairy.

I won’t talk about how I think the average Nigerian is actually wicked.

I won’t talk about the selfish nature most of them inhibit.

I’ll just focus on Mr. president.

I know he can do better, irrespective of how decayed the system is!

I however believe that Bubu doesn’t give two fucks about any of us. His actions overtime have proven this.

So Sinzu money!

Keep going!

Weldone ehn!

Your time will soon be over in office.

I just pray we don’t make this same mistake come 2023.

First Kiss

I read way too many romance novels as a child.

In fact, I believe that the sadness of discovering that many of them were exaggerated and very much inapplicable in the real world of MEN pushed me to the other side of the line… now I’m NOT a romantic.

Down to the Topic, FIRST KISS.

So I had always imagined that my first kiss would be mind blowing. You know, The earth might shift a bit while I look into his eyes, the wind will toss my hair back and forth while he reaches for my waist and draws me close to his Hot body.

And While he stares deep into my eyes he will discover I am, in fact the center of his world. And he will make a promise never to live without me.

I imagined that he would drag me into his warm embrace, kiss my forehead tenderly, move down slowly to my small nose and kiss the bridge, even give me a small love bite right on the tip of my nose.

He’ll then move to my cheeks and while spraying kisses all over that area, he’ll whisper loving none sense into my ears while I giggle endlessly. Then there will be a moment of silence. The desire in his eyes will be apparent while his breathing becomes rapid. The rise and fall of our chests will be the only thing moving in the world at that very moment. He’ll then lean into me slowly and take my lips into his, this mouth will feel like a warm blanket. Sweet and Firm. I will be able to taste his desire for me, his true adoration of me and his need to possess me as his forever.

Mtchewwwwwwww

All that na bants.🙄

I can’t even remember the first kiss.

The earth didn’t shift, nothing spectacular happened and ROMANCE AUTHORS SHOULD BE SUED!

All I know is that there was spit everywhere and I had sore throat afterwards.

Of course I also suffered the shame and Guilt of being a freshly inducted “fornicator”

I was sure that the sore throat was a punishment from God.

Spit Everywhere +Awkward Fumbling +Sore throat +Guilt and shame.

Yup, that sums up my first kiss.

L.O.L

Locked in.

I honestly don’t feel locked in.

I just don’t.

This, right here is almost my norm.

I barely leave my house if I don’t have to.

The sad thing about this whole situation for me is the THOUGHT of the people Who cannot afford it.

Those who live from hand to mouth.

Whats going to happen to their business, the small businesses with perishables?

What’s going to happen with the exchange rate?

How is the economy going to recovery?

How will the world recover?

What’s going to happen with all the families that lost their loved ones?

Those who couldn’t be with their relations as they drew their last breathe?

How will their mind and heart heal?

I don’t feel locked in.

This is my norm.

But then questions about if the world is truly coming to an end bug me.

What if I will never have time to marry?

What if the world ends before I even get called to bar?!!

What if I never get to see a miniature version of me, because God wants to end this sinful world?

What if?

I don’t feel locked in

But I do feel sad

I feel anxious

And I feel quiet helpless.

“Be strong. Take courage. Don’t be intimidated. Don’t give them a second thought because GOD, your God, is striding ahead of you. He’s right there with you. He won’t let you down; he won’t leave you.”

‭‭Deuteronomy‬ ‭31:6‬ ‭MSG‬‬

I know I have a history of uncompleted challenges. I hope to change that narrative this time.

Day 1

HOME

Within the Last TWO years I have lived in Four Cities.

Home, they say, is where the heart is.

These days my heart is in several places.

It’s hard for me to even determine exactly where my head and heart are.

Their physical location is not in contention.

Let’s be clear.

Some days I feel like I’m roaming.

I feel like I really don’t belong anywhere

I feel really lost.

There’s just a yearning in my soul.

I now crave stability.

My Familiar place now feels Unfamiliar

Where I will be Next year is uncertain.

And I give no fucks.

2021 will sort itself out

I guess I’m at that age now.

Did I forget to mention?

My Family is drifting.

Everyone is finding their way in different corners of this very big world.

Where do I belong?

Where is home for me?

Guys today is the last day of the year! The actual last day! I feel like this year was the Longest year of my entire life.

It was lonnnnngggggg. I don’t even know where to start this review from!

One thing I must say is, as much as I might sound like a whiny little Rat at some point in this writeup, I’m not. I’m genuinely grateful for everything I have been through, Both the positives and the negatives.

January

I basically resumed the year with so much fear, this was majorly because I knew I was leaving school. My mind wasn’t on exams or faculty activities anymore, I was very much focused on securing my life after school.

I sold Jersey’s for the Law students Society and It was a very Herculean Task. I don’t know who even sent me. I finished selling and I was still doing refunds for people three months after!!! Like the hell?!!!!

February

The month of A date with Rheevo. Now that I’m writing this review, I believe that this event was one of the highlights of my entire year! Like I honestly hate organizing events! But God sent some amazing people my way and somehow I organized a Makeup and business Masterclass in less than Two Weeks!

It wasn’t as big as I expected, but I’m so glad I did it.

I also finally decided that some people weren’t deserving of my love. Watch out for those that don’t show up, watch out for those that don’t clap when you win. Na dem!

March

I marched out of OAU. I wrote my final exams. Developed a weird case of Fungal/Hormonal Acne and then lost so much weight!

The stress of “what next after graduation” hit me harddddd. So so hard. I also broke up with the person I think is the actual love of my life. Plenty regrets there but it was necessary. My faith has to come first, always.

I finished from OAU in grand style, attended every single event for FYB’s (Final year Brethren’s) and I got soooo many makeup jobs! I thought my hands would break!

April

I moved to LAGOS! Jesus. I have an entire video on this. I will drop it in 2020. And if you haven’t please subscribe to my YouTube channel. I’ll put the link at the end of this article. I moved to LAGOS, got a job in a beauty Salon Named Mohini and started my 10–7 lifestyle.

I was in a different city, I had lesser time on my hands, I wasn’t getting money from my folks anymore and I had lost almost all of my customers. I became depressed. I can’t count how many times I would just burst into tears in the Bus, they usually thought I was sleeping and the bus was always dark enough for me to hide my tears. I asked God why… why was the money never enough, why was I always feeling lost and Overwhelmed, why wasn’t I getting any makeup bookings, why was my phone suddenly so bad!!!!

It was a tough time. I had fewer friends and almost nobody to talk to.

There’s this thing about always being everyone’s support system, nobody ever thinks you need support or words of encouragement and advice. They just assume “you’ve got it girl!”

April and May were terrible months for me. I didn’t eat more than once in a day, I lacked appetite. I also fell very ill and lost even more weight. The smell of food was irritating and all I wanted to do was Sleep. I hated social media and I hated WhatsApp with a passion. I avoided church and I made excuses as to why I never called my mother. I also didn’t do makeup. I was just sleeping, waking up, going to work and barely eating. The only thing that made me happy was my new phone.

I had saved 10k every month throughout 2018. I collected 120k, slapped on some extra 20k and bought a UK used IPhone 7 Plus. This was a major achievement for me. I’ve never bought myself a phone! And I bought myself my dream phone!!! The high this gave me was incredible!

I also got my first speaking engagement in Lagos and talking about how I felt and what I struggled with made me actually feel much better!!!

I think we all should try to save and invest more. Being able to provide for yourself will make you feel better. And when you feel better you radiate joy. And when you radiate joy and peace… Good things naturally come your way.

June, July And August.

Things started to change, I found a church close to my house and I attended a few times. I met new people. I meet my cool FM family. I started editing more videos. I started eating more and going for events.

I made new friends everywhere!

I started creating tutorials again

I started my JEWLERY business on a larger scale.

I still wasn’t interested in any romantic relationships.

I started watching Nickelodeon obsessively and reading books! My mind was renewed, my body had adjusted To LAGOS wahala and I was getting more makeup jobs. The acne was still not clearing up though and this made we weary of selfies. I felt very sad about the state of my skin.

September, October , November

I got another speaking engagement

I met more amazing people

My friends passed their bar examinations and I resigned from Mohini.

I was now getting jobs consistently and I was able to save a lot! A lot more than I ever imagined.

I became addicted to piggyvest and Ajo. I’m still not a millionaire though, this makes me slightly sad.

I met a LAGOS fuck boy and caught him so easily because GOOGLE IS MY FRIEND. Thank you Jesus! I eventually started my YOUTUBE CHANNEL! I eventually started selling on Jumia! I eventually made dreadlocks and got an accountability partner!!!! Things were looking great. I worked with Terraculture for Halloween! I got my first student since I left Ife! I also worked with an International Brand!

December.

Moradeun died. I plunged back into semi depression, I Questioned God and spent hours pondering on the futility of this life. I still feel sad randomly when I think of her. She didn’t deserve to die in such a way, nobody does. Nigeria is messed up! It’s a terrible place to live. I graduated from school officially. I honestly didn’t plan to attend but my entire family felt it was a great idea to.

OAU finally submitted our names and I also applied for law school. I hope that by this time next year I’ll be writing a review about my time in law school and attaching a beautiful picture of me in a wig and gown. I hope I have a first class also. Anyways December has been spent traveling up and down to provide makeup services. I have good clients in Lagos now. And Now I’m leaving LAGOS again.

All I crave for on some days is stability. In the past One year I have moved around a lot and it has affected me and my business. But there’s almost nothing I can do about it for now. So, I guess I have to keep waiting. December 15 I clocked 18years of age. (If I say I’m 18, I’m 18 please!!!! Nobody should say otherwise) The Millenaira Conference was a hit and I moderated a panel for the first time in my life! It was a super exhilarating experience.

This year has been good.

As much as I want to say it hasn’t, it has! And I’m so grateful to God

Highlights of the year 2019

-My Final year Activities

-Organizing the Maiden Edition Of ADWR

-Getting a Job at Mohini from Instagram!

-Speaking In Lagos (not just Ife anymore, we global now!)

-Buying myself a phone!

-Collaborations with IFEDAYO. Everything was a hit

-Finishing with a 4.01 /5 CGPA

-Starting My YouTube Channel

-Learning how to use Adobe Premier Pro.

-Getting Two Bridal Jobs this year!

-Being able to fight depression and not staying down. It’s a privilege which I don’t take for granted.

-Reading a total of 10 books this year!

-I started writing my book!

2020 will be better

I’m sure of it.

Thanks for reading

Grab your popcorn… 🍿

Okay I got inspired to make a review about my year by Korieh Samuel and Solomon Nzere

I have a whole lot to type, so I’ll make a list of different aspects of my life I’ll discuss so that I won’t loose you.

1) Me and God

2) Family

3) Academics/Law

4) The Rheevo Empire

5) Friends And Relationships

6) Health and Body goals

7) Highlights

8) Appreciation

1) Me and God

Okay so I’m a proper Jesus Baby. I love God and respect His word. 2018 was hard. I faced a lot of doubt. I started second guessing everything I had been taught previously…it was tough. I struggled with fellowshiping with my maker until sometime in August when I cried and called my Sister. We spoke, prayed and she assured me God didnt hate me. Then I was back on track! Also, I’m still having certain issues with my belief clashing with my wants right now, but thats a story for another day. 2018, I lost touch, i was angry with God for really stupid reasons (now that I look back) and Then I got back on track….not track track sha, but we’re getting somewhere.

2) Family

Well, all is well. We thank God for health and Life and everything is near perfect. I’ve learnt to communicate better with my family and understand everyone’s behaviour. We had very little quarrels in 2018 to the glory of God. I got so much support from my family in 2018, it was crazy. I can’t love this crazy bunch any less!

3)Academics/Law

Well, I had my first internship at a law firm this year, it was a weird experience. Like it was wayyy different from what I expected and I hated it but still loved it at the same time. My worst regret was telling them I was a final year student at Obafemi Awolowo University! They used it to justify every Herculean task they gave me. I met amazing people! Shallom, Nkwanna, Lawyer Segs, Lawyer Hakeem, Edore, Lawyer Ola Daniel! This people were so helpful and in a short period of time, I got to understand the workings of the firm and Court.

My GP is still alive to rhe Glory of God. I have been reading more than I ever thought I was capable off thanks to Tolu Dada and Elijah Agboola. And God has been favouring me steadily.

I also don’t know how I was able to write anything in my exams last semester, my mind is totally out of school and honestly your girl is no longer interested in what OAU has to offer! I just want to graduate already! (Says the lady who hasn’t began her Project Thesis)

This year, I also got involved in a lot of things going on in the Faculty of law….was that a bad decision? I’m still trying to ascertain that, when I do, I’ll tell you. But its been stressful, I’ve had to talk to people who I have no business talking to and I’ve received a lot of unwarranted disrespect in my bid to serve my society. I’m just still trying to figure out if it was really worth it.

4) The Rheevo Empire

Honestly God has really been good.

I was invited to speak in about 4 events this year. Each time I get an Invite I just shiver…like…what do I know??????

God has helped the brand. Its getting bigger and has gained some level of trust.

I’m so happy and I appreciate God and everyone who has contributed to this growth in one way or the other!

The Jewellery business was so slow this year and I considered selling it out. Lol. Or dumping it. But God said no. I have bigger plans for blingsbyrheevo in 2019 and I pray God establishes them all.

Makeup has been running! I had a grand Total of 7 students this year alone. And they are still more showing interest! Gosh! I can’t even believe this is me. I remember the days of begging people to let me do makeup on their face! Now getting a model is the least of my problems.

I did bridal shoots, not enough but I did them.

My gele skills are now mad gan

I attended 3 whatsapp classes to learn more

I moved to a hostel with more space for me to work conveniently

I got a camera!

This year was good for the Rheevo Empire! We had months of dryness and no bookings but we’re still here!

5) Friends and Relationships

Hmmn. I was depressed for a while on this issue and I didn’t even know! I’m over it now. I learnt alot about friendships this year. And no matter how sad those lessons were, I thank God that He taught me now! Some people are double my age and still don’t understand certain things about friendship. A few examples are:

1) Friendship is a mutual effort relationship, this means if you have to continually force your way in, force acceptance, force communication, force love…something is wrong. If you both are not putting in the effort, if just one person is fanning the flames, its not worth it.

2) Never form cliques if you don’t have to. There’s a lot of Drama going on in every clique. A lot of unhealthy competition, gossip, hate and backstabbing. See, the thing is, make friends with individuals and don’t be too quick to adopt their friends in the process. Your friend’s Friend doesn’t always have to be your friend. Hold your ears and remember that.

3)Never doubt your instincts for too when it comes to friends and relationships in general. See ehn, most times you already knew the person will mess you up wayyyyyy before they did! That’s the truth. Its just a few times that we never see it coming. Most times we do, then foolishly ignore all the signs, symbols, body languages and overt actions. We will now be crying fowl later! Give a benefit of doubt, but how long should that period last for?? Don’t waste too much time investing your love, encouragement, money, time and person in a professional user. Just step away as soon as you can detach. May God grant us all wisdom.

As for the relationship part, I found somebody who doesn’t stifle or bore me, He encourages me. He pushes me to do more. He pampers me and makes me laugh so hard i can’t breathe and he damn well picks up his own Tab! For now, that’s enough. More than enough.

6) Health and Body Goals

I have a friend who makes sure I take lots of water and eat good food at least once a week. See ehn, 2018 was bad in this aspect. I didn’t do any Intentional workout throughout this year! And yes, my stomach makes that obvious. I’m unfit. Not fat. Just really flabby and not happy with my lower pouch. So yeah 2019, BANGING BODY IS ON THE MENU! I SHALL HAVE MY FLAT STOMACH BACK!

And yeah, I will try to start taking fruits and more water.

I forgot, I will try to sleep like a normal human being should also.

7) Highlights

-when I started working with Jumia

-appearing on TV!

-handing over my P.R.O position in Tax Club to a new Executive

-Changing rooms

-meeting Moh

-meeting Lydia Stanley

-hitting 6k On IG

-speaking at Studeo, Lhaude

-getting a professional camera

-getting my highest G.P since I entered this. school. I cried that day

-organising the Breast cancer awareness program with TJ and Victoria.

-my birthday, lots of love and prayers from unexpected quarters!

Appreciation

First goes to God almighty for always loving me and blessing me.

Second to my mum, Dad, Damz, Dare, Teewhy, Doyin, Teju for being a great source of comfort for me.

My Tax Club family

…..

Gosh I’m my fingers hurt. Is there a way i can attach a voice note here?

Thank you if you know you’ve been a part of my 2018. I have numerous friends and acquaintances and I honestly think it will be unfair to start mentioning. I will most likely forget some names.

Thanks to all my clients, models, photographers etc. Taking about Photographers, Thank you Ifedayo.

Thank you guys so much

If you read till this point, you’re the real MVP. Thank you

As 2019 strolls in, i have 2 words of advice for you (and ultimately myself) JUST START! The. secret of getting ahead is Getting started!

Let me stop typing now. My fingers hurt.

Okay, the lawyer part of me really wants to argue that its not "everyone" I meet that will know something I don't. For example, babies. What do those little cuties know besides food and sleep?

But then, whenever I think babies don't know anything, I remember how my baby cousin always knew when I was the one carrying her and not my sister. Almost everytime I carried that Little schemer she urinated on me!! But when my younger sister carried her, her bladder always went on a long break.

This one reminds me to shut up and learn. I try to listen more than I talk these days. I learn the weirdest things from the most unlikely people. Some people know a lot! They just need you to listen and not shove your unfounded facts in their face! I don't know who Billy Nye is, but I appreciate him for this.

Laziness and Procrastination.

I have so many ideas, so many plans.
Getting up and executing them at the right time is honestly a problem. Most of the times I push important things back until their deadlines are close. Like really close.
Guys, I’m so lazy, I used to type my assignments of my Blackberry Phone in Part 1. Instead of going to look for a laptop or going to a Cybercafe like everyone else did.
I’m so lazy that I can be hungry and nearly passing out on my bed because of hunger , and I won’t still get up to cook.
Its a problem.
I’m praying seriously. I also set alarms for everything!!! I set deadlines for myself and try to stick with them. I honestly don’t think I’m getting any better. And it might look like I’m getting things done and still running my business, but I’m very sure House Of Rheevo would have been ten times better if only I could procrastinate less.
Pray with me guys. Its important that I stop Procrastinating. Very Very Important.

What do you struggle with? Please reply.