Unbalanced Praise

He praised me for my beauty

And earnestly tried to DESTROY

My Strength…

They didn’t want to see us together…

They didn’t want to see our love at the top…

Our fights ended in soft deep kisses,

Emotions settled into flames from fickle sparks ignited from interpretive thoughts…

And the darkness from damaged past pains drained from our atmosphere…

And we find ourselves here, at the pinnacle of a brand new start.

And as my hand trembles with fear, I offer you my heart.

*Dedicated to The One who has given me Pure Moments of Joy in the midst of his pain… Thank You Jay 💜 *

The Price I PAID…

The Demons I SLAYED…

The Height that I STAND…

No other woman can Completely HANDLE My MAN…

I’m The MRS…

No gifts, no love, no kisses, no hugs, no phone calls, no concerns, just the truth of bridges burned…

No black, no white, alone by day, alone by night, at the Pinnacle, alone at the cross, no tears for me, I’m far from lost….

Jesus came, Jesus is here, His holiness I chase, His wrath I fear…

Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life, I gave up my way to live exclusively for Christ.

I’m Free... You’re Free... We’re Free...

I release myself from this...

I’m too old for dumb shit...

They got your attention…

They can keep it...

YOU Got it...

YOU won,

Cuz I’m Done.

Was it worth it?

All the wasted years I waited…

All of my Purposed, Processed Patience…

Only to be over jub-i-la-nted about our sudden current events…

Then… I was publicly humiliated by your true hearts intent?

Your ideal womanly desire wasn’t me…

It was Ashanti…

You @ -ed her with a rose and a this “😣”…

She responds back over twitter with this “❤”…

Then you threw her the hug-n-the kiss “xo,”… AND you had MORE to say… I believe your next words were “I pray”.

Nigga, you ain’t ever pray for me!

A day later you threw me her left over hug-n-kiss “xo”…

What a diss…

I’m addicted to you…

You’re unsure about me…

I simply can’t breathe without you…

You live just fine without me…

or so I think…

I instinctively wanna take care of you, protect you, and provide you with the comfort of me…

But that’s not my place…

God blesses order you say…

I am not the ideal woman… so, you haven’t asked me to stay…

Still…

You reside in the core of me…

And that’s where I still want you to be.

You win…

YOU Won…

I’m done…

Forget the kid…

Go choose from one of your nasty bitches…

Your Haggar, your Ishmael will just have to do…

Cuz nigga I’m sick of your shit and I’m permanently through with you.

Fuck You.

As I break away from your kiss, not wanting to disconnect, I quickly brush my face against your skin and softly kiss and suck on your neck…

Experiencing the sweetness of your skin, I glance at the time, and I silently thank The Lord for making you mine 💋

Truth be told…

The flower continues to grow because I know who you are…

I’ve wanted you all my life…

I’ve waited for you for half…

Reciprocity wasn’t a factor for my love…

My love for you just is…

And always will be …

Forever and Always…