Hello namaste 💙

After years of falling out of love I have decided to give it a try!.

(I will come to that at last)

My mind has accepted that “ I can’t heal and I will stay on the same loop”

But while crying at night I started questioning my existence with the hope that my soul will be able to understand what’s happening with me!

And I got the answer which I knew.

I had not yet healed from my last breakup which was sort of more personal because that man was my best friend first and my boyfriend later.

The memories played inside my mind for like 10 times a day ( I don’t think of him but the pattern I have seen in other men has been the same including my father)

And somehow and I have decided to stay away from them now.

The more I see the pattern the more it reminds me of him.

And all I want to do is run away.

Healing is the most important part of life but the environment makes a difference.

Read that again ..

You cannot heal in misery you simply can’t it will trigger your old patterns.

For Years I have seen people’s ignorance, hatred and rejections and it has made me a confused person .

Now

(After years of falling out of love I decided to give it a try!).

I finally decided to move on and forgive that man:- Yes it was very difficult but I need to heal I need to build my self esteem back and need to get my life back on track.

What am I doing first ?

Forgiveness-

I have decided to ask for forgiveness because in all the chaos I disrespected my body, mind and soul ( I want to ask for forgiveness to myself for experiencing too much pain and not loved myself enough)

I started hating myself and doubting my intentions.

Acceptance:- I have decided to accept that it’s okay, what has happened cannot be undone. Live in the moment

Acceptance brings peace 🕊️

….

Healing needs time and a lot of patience please try to be out of the house as much as you can, build a community and communicate with them.

Talk about healing and think about healing.

You got this….. …….. ……. ……. …..

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