Hey, the script is finished

Which one

The one for St. George

Second draft

Copyrighted

Sent it over

Oh, I can’t wait

But

Took lots out of me

Thoughts are intrusive

I don’t know why

Sometimes I pray that God

Just judges me by my words and my actions

But even believing in him is a thought

God forgive me

I just want the darkness to go away

St. George is filled with light

My mind is esoteric

Addicted to patterns

Just trying to relax

Have mercy on me

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I like writing poems, but not when it starts feeling like a task or a priority. I realized that writing one poem a day with my schedule, isn’t fully sustainable, and as a result, some of my poems have lackluster quality in comparison to my usual work. As for now, the schedule might be a bit more inconsistent. Though I obsess sometimes over routines, it might be a good idea to take a step back.

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Intrusive thoughts go away

Mind is sporadic

Spiraling

We went over this

Same old story

It is the same old story

Same ole, same ole

Well

Listen, it is amazing what you can accomplish

When you just get to work

Amazing week

Thus far

Lots to do

Procrastinating

Now, it is not the time for a pity party

Procrastinating

Now is the time to get things done

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Data

Worked on something

Collected data

Experiment

Adventure

Long day

Data

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God forgive me for all these instrusive thoughts

Lustful desires

All these things going on in my head

I hate it when people gossip

Talk about others

Spread rumors

Bear false witness

Can’t deal with the stress of people

She did this and that

Why can’t we all get along

I’m sorry for thinking about this thing

And that thing

What thing

You know the thing

Listen, I love the truth

The truth will set you free

And in society

It seems like freedom comes with a price

Forgive me

I seem to have ODD

Or at this point OCD

At this point

Forgive me

Rumors

I hate how they spread

Like wildfires

That need some sort of drone

Rumors

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Josef

Friend from Sweden

What’s up bro

You know who you are

Not much I can teach you

But spiritually dark

You are following these thoughts

Listen

My life is falling apart

People don’t believe in me

The girl I love

There is no real relationship

It seems

Everybody is bidding against me

My friends are starting to doubt

But some people say something

And it lowers the stress

Adds to the support

Listen

Bro, your mind is amazing

You do all these stuff with stocks and trading

You understand the Alchemy of Finance

And the mathematics

That Simons and Soros were trying to do

You understand patterns

Look at you even with a calculator

You are analytical

You know Jim Simons was probably similar to you

Ever heard of Nassim Taleb

Brilliant mathematician

I’m one of his biggest fans

He is Orthodox too

He doesn’t know me

Neither does Jordan Peterson

A nowadays philosopher

Who heard about me

Tried sending me one of his books

Anyways, bro you actually read stuff

And study

You don’t need pills and parties

This isn’t spirituality

You don’t need bottles

Or chasing after who and who

Or following the darkness in your head

Remember your company TB

And that gaming mouse you made

And the time we wanted to work on that brain drill

You are intelligent

Impressive

But society didn’t give you a fair shot

You are even more independent than me

You fended for yourself

And you can’t stand me complaining

But you still embrace darkness

And parties

And talking to whoever

And all this

When you can change the world

I believe in you

Become Orthodox

Don’t follow lustful senses

Do the businesses you always wanted

I can’t get offended when you say you can run circles around me

Because lots of people probably can

But the point isn’t to be some sort of gangster

Or let ego talk

Prove me wrong

Prove me that you know how to make things work

I know you got great potential

I can’t deny that

You rebuke me bro

Bro, I rebuke myself

I know I am inherently selfish

Act like a people pleaser all the time

Am negative

Need to relax

But I been squashed multiple times

Don’t give up

I don’t give up

I wanna see that gaming mouse

I wanna see what you do with charts and the TI

And what your mind comes up with

But when you talk about parties

And all this other stuff

When I know your talent is so much

And those stuff doesn’t make you happy

Then I have a problem

I’m pathetic dude and I know it

But you embracing darkness

This is when I draw the line

Your life was tough

And you are still standing

And I know greatness is inside of you

Stop partying in Berlin

Be careful on who you surround yourself with

Because these people chase darkness

And this is coming from a guy you know who is miserable

Sometimes

But I think and plan things out

Multiple dimensions

So wake up

Before it is too late

Your talents are gifts

So don’t bury it in the sand

You got one life here on earth

And I don’t know if you believe in Heaven

But I know it is real

So don’t shred your life

Thinking about what she thinks

Or what who thinks

Or even what I think

And go out there and do something great

I hate seeing fantastic minds

Embracing the ego and darkness

And not living their full potential

Come on dude, greatness is inside of you

I don’t wanna feed the ego

But you know you were made for so much more

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Who was it

That said

Though I walk in the valley of darkness I shall not be afraid

Am I quoting that right

You know I been

Generally out here

Feeling kinda sad

Kinda sad

Feels like things are falling apart

Family doesn’t understand me

All paranoid thoughts up in my head

My memory is fading

Feels like this life is making me numb

But I keep trying to live it to the fullest

But it hurts

Then people say I’m not contempt

I’m selfish

For wanting to be loved

And follow my dreams

Tell me you think they are stupid

Go on and tell me how you really feel

Kinda sad

I been feeling kinda sad

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Intrusive thoughts go away

Drove through a storm

God kept me safe

Thank you God

Good night everybody

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Lucid Reality

Crazy dreams

Been chatting w/ a bunch of people

Do this

Maybe we can open this

Talking to myself again

Invest in this and that

Play a house of cards

Hey, are you in or not

What’s going on here

Good game

Played billiards

Mad awkward

Dancing with myself

Eyes closed

Not Ed Sheeran again

What happened to my taste in music lately

This artist

This girl’s on my mind

Oh la la

I missed a ping pong point with a bro

Still won though

Lots on my mind

Lucid reality

Dreaming

What can I do to convince you

Hey

Yeah, I did 180 at that ab crunch

Maybe, I can deadlift 125

I dunno

I’m out of shape

Guess you are laughing

Hey Samir

You should become a

You should

You should do

Get rid of the

Hey

Listen, I am not trying to intrude

But trust me bro

Let’s go to these festivals

Put my skills to the test

Lucid reality

Reality

Is I want a bunch of food

I want a bunch of food

Me in particular

Okay

Is the weekend okay

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Fade

Faded

Jaded

Tired

Hit the gym today

Wanna get bigger

Moved the 180

On the ab crunch a bit

Could have done better

Long day

Called my friend

All jokes

Samir it was all jokes

What

Why

A bit paranoid

Whose listening

Bro, look at society

You are just being natural

Relax

Got lots to do

Fade

Big plans

But I don’t wanna feel jaded

Up here feeling all faded

Yeah

Fade

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